HUH??? DON'T YOU KNOW, DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?

CGIS- CUTE GAL/GUY INFACTUATION SYNDROME WAS SOMETHING I MADE UP BUT I SOMEWHAT BELIEVE THAT IT IS VERY MUCH SELF-SUBSTANTIATED TODAY AND MIGHT BE ONE DAY BECOME AN OFFICIAL TERM IN SOCIOLOGY...HAHAHAS... WELL JUST BEWARE THE AFTERMATH IN HAVING TO TASTE THE AFTER-TASTE IN AN INFACTUATION BASED RELATIONSHIP WHERE YOU TWO OF YOU OR EITHER ONE WANTS OUT BUT FEELS AN OBLIGATION TO THE OTHER AND JUST CAN'T BREAK THE EMOTIONAL TIE. COMMITMENT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN FRIENDSHIP...FIRSTLY,IT ENCOMPASSES OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD WHICH IS AS I AGAIN STRESS UPON AS THE FOUNDATION OF ALL OTHER RELATIONSHIPS WE HAVE. COMMITMENT I AS THOUGHT IN A WARPED PERSPECTIVE AS POSESSIVENESS BUT NO!!! COMMITMENT IS A MUTUAL AGREEMENT IN THE DEVELOPMENT OF THE RELATIONSHIP/FRIENDSHIP INTO GREATER INTIMACY BUT WITHIN BOUNDARIES FROM OUR CONSCIENCE OF WHOM MUST BE GUARDED BY AND A MUST BE GIVEN A SENSITIVITY AND OBEDIENCE TO THE HOLY SPIRIT. BUT THEN AGAIN OUR HEARTS TENDS GIVE RISE TO THE IDEA THAT NON-CHRISTIANS SEEM TO SOMETIMES HAVE HAPPIER MARRIAGES SO DOES GOD REALLY HAVE TO BE IN OUR RELATIONSHIPS?GOD IS LOVE AND SINCE NON-CHRISTIANS IMPLIES THEIR DISBELIEF IN GOD,WHERE THEN DOES THE LOVE COME FROM? WELL IN "MEN ARE FROM MARS AND WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS", A SECULAR BOOK ABOUT UNDERSTANDING THE OPPOSITE SEX STATES AND STRESSES PRIMARILY ON THE ACCEPTANCE OF EACH OTHER'S DIFFERENCES.HMMM... ISNT THAT AN ADOPTED BIBLICAL PRINCIPLE? IT DOESNT END THERE AT JUST AN ACCEPTANCE OF EACH OTHER BUT A COMMITMENT AND LOVE,WITH THE PERFECT LOVE OF GOD THAT DRIVES OUT ALL FEAR,FEAR THAT OUR HEARTS WILL ONE DAY GO COLD AS THE "ACCEPTANCE" NOW IS BUT MERELY SWEEPING THE OTHER'S WRONGS UNDER THE CARPET WHICH WILL SURFACE IN THE LIGHT OF GOD AND FACADES REVEALED AND WHEN FRIENDSHIP IS TREATED VERY MUCH WITH DISDAIN,
RESENTMENT AND HATRED SETS IN.


29th JAN- I WAS OFFICIATED AS LIEUTENANT COMMANDER IN ROYAL RANGERS.
THIS IS A PERIOD BY WHICH GOD WANTS ME TO FOCUS ON LOVING HIM AND SERVING HIM. TO DEPEND ON HIM FOR STRENGTH AND WISDOM. DUE TO MY INCONSISTENT ATTENDENCE DURING MY NATIONAL SERVICE,IT WAS HELD FROM ME FOR SUCH A TIME AS THIS THAT THROUGH EMOTIONAL HURTS IN MY FRIENDSHIP HAD TAKEN A TOLL ON ME THAT WHEN I HAD RISEN OVER THE CIRCUMSTANCE, GOD GAVE THE RESPONSIBILITY OF LOOKING AFTER DISCOVERY RANGERS.
IVE SEEN A NUMBER OF THEM GROWING UP AND THEY'RE PHYSICALLY COMPETENT AND GROWING STEADILY SPIRITUALLY.IT BRINGS PURE JOY TO SPEND TIME TALKING WITH THEM NOW. NOT TO DIGRESS, YES! I FELT AN EXTREME HATE AND RESENTMENT TO TOWARDS MY FRIEND, EVEN THOUGH NOW WE'RE STILL FRIENDS AFTER THE INCIDENT WHENCE SHE TOLD ME "I THINK WE SHOULD STOP BEING FRIENDS",I NOW FEEL VERY MUCH TO END IT ALL MYSELF BUT THE STILL SMALL VOICE TELLS ME HE RECONCILED US, TO ACT OUT ON MY OWN PREROGATIVE WOULD BE ACTING OUT OF GOD'S WILL, HE SAYS LOVE HER WITH HIS PERFECT LOVE... A THORN IN MY FLESH YET GOD'S GRACE IS SUFFICIENT. HER NO. AN EYESORE IN MY HANDPHONE PHONEBOOK AS SOMEHOW ALL THE CONVERSATIONS WE HAD A HEARTACHE NOW BUT THEN JOY UNSPEAKABLE.
BUT TO FOCUS ON CHRIST AND COMMUNION WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT IS THAT WHICH NOW COMFORTS AND FILLS MY HEART WITH PURE JOY.

2. CONSIDER IT PURE JOY, MY BROTHERS, WHENEVER YOU FACE TRIALS OF MANY KINDS, 3.BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT THE TESTING OF YOUR FAITH DEVELOPS PERSEVERANCE 4. PERSEVERANCE MUST FINISH ITS WORK SO THAT YOU MAY MATURE AND COMPLETE, NOT LACKING ANYTHING (JAMES 1:2-4)

CGIS- CUTE GUY INFACTUATION SYNDROME/ CUTE GAL INFACTUATION SYNDROME

CGIS- IN SHORT;CUTE GUY INFACTUATION SYNDROME/ CUTE GAL INFACTUATION SYNDROME
NOT TO BE CONFUSED WITH CCIS- CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS IN SINGAPORE
WELL I WOULD SAY IM PAST THAT PHRASE OF LIFE. C'MON!!! IM 24 YEARS OLD THIS YEAR FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. WELL, NOT EXACTLY THROUGH WITH IT ENTIRELY YET THOUGH. WELL WELL WELL...WHAT EXCITES AN ADOLESCENTS'HORMONES MORE THAN TO SEE A CUTE GUY/GAL RIGHT?
EVEN MORE SO WHEN HE OR SHE GETS TO TALK TO THAT IDOLISED PERSON FOR EVEN AWHILE WHETHER BE IT IN PERSON OR EVEN BETTER THE TELEPHONE,ADRENALINES ERUPTS...FOLLOWING THE CONVERSATION,THE FEELING LINGERS THEN IT GOES DOWN WITH AN ANTICIPATION OF TALKING THE "NEXT TIME".BUT UNTIL THEN A SENSE OF COUNTERFEIT ONENESS OF EMOTIONS DEVELOPS EITHER BY ONE PARTY OR BOTH. IF SOMEHOW A RELATIONSHIP IS FORGED, THE TENDENCY IS THAT IT'LL SKYROCKET FOR THE INITIAL PHRASE. FROM THERE, MANY POSSIBILITIES MIGHT OCCUR. ONE IS THAT IT'LL GO FURTHER THAN IT SHOULD TO THE POINT OF PHYSICAL INVOLVEMENT CAUSE THEY'VE GONE THROUGH A PHRASE OF EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT AND RELATIONSHIPS DOESN'T HAVE STANDSTILLS IN ITS PROCESS AND ITZ EITHER GROWS OR DIES IF I COULD USE THE ANALOGY OF A PLANT.BUT WHERE ARE IT'S ROOTS? FROM WHERE DOES IT DRAW ITS NUTRIENTS TO GROW? JESUS IS THE VINE AND WE ARE THE BRANCHES,WE HAVE TO BE CONNECTED TO HIM NOT TO EACH OTHER COS IT IS BY BEING IN HIM AND THROUGH HIM CAN WE LIVE AND BE TRUELY SATISFIED.BY BEING CONNECTED IN CHRIST,WE ARE ONE WITH HIM IN EVERY ASPECT OF OUR LIVES.AND GOD LOVES US SO MUCH THAT HE WOULDN'T WANT US TO HAVE INTIMACY WITH ANOTHER DEEPER THAN THAT WE HAVE WITH HIM. SO IF ONE PARTY IN THAT RELATIONSHIP REALISES THAT HE/SHE ISN'T GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AND CHOOSES THEREAFTER TO BE CONNECTED TO CHRIST,THE STRUGGLE WILL BE IN THE EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT INVOLVED AND THE FEAR TO HURT THE OTHER PARTY,WHAT MORE IF PHYSICAL INVOLVEMENT WAS INHERENT? OBLIGATIONS WOULD BE EXCHANGED WITH A FACADE TO LOOSE THE PERSON "GENTLY".WELL SOON ENOUGH A DAY OF RECKONING WILL COME BY WHICH THE PERSON SEES THROUGH THE FACADE AND WOULD FEEL VERY MUCH MORE HURT AND YOU WHILE HOLDING THE TRUTH WILL FEEL THE SENSE OF GUILT FROM YOUR CONSCIENCE. THE BOTTOMLINE IS WHY INVOLVE YOURSELF KNOWING NOW THE PREDICAMENTS AND DILEMA THAT ACCOMPANY TOGETHER WITH RESENTMENT AND REGRET THE CONSEQUENCES OF "PUPPY LOVE" OR LOOK AT THE PERMISSIVE WILL OF GOD OF ALLOWING INFACTUATION MASKING LUST OR WHICH WE ASSUME IS GOD'S WILL FOR US WHEN WE CAN COMMIT OURSELVES ENTIRELY TO HIM AND REMAIN CONNECTED TO HIM TRUSTING IN HIS PERFECT WILL FOR US.
WELL WINDOW SHOPPING IS TEPTATION (LEAD US NOT INTO TEMPTAION???!!!) AND THE CUTE GUYS AND CUTE GALS AINT FOR VIEWING PLEASURE.SO DON'T LET CGIS GET TO US ALRIGHT? SO DOES OUR RAGING HORMONES LEAD US TO TEMPTAION? HMMMM...WAD THEN IS SELF-CONTROL?
~IMPERFECT PRACTITIONER~

PERFECT OR PERMISSIVE

THERE ARE TWO MAINSTREAM PATHS IN LIFE I WOULD SAY. TO WALK TRUSTING GOD AND WALKING IN HIS PERFECT WILL OR TO WALK IN HIS PERMISSIVE WILL. ONE VERSE I ALWAYS QUOTE IS ROMANS 12:2. TRUE ENOUGH THAT IT VERY MUCH REQUIRES A FOCUSED MIND ON GOD AND WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE FOCUSED AND HOW DO WE BE FOCUSED? AH!!! PLEASE NOTE THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AND OUR IDENTITY WILL ALWAYS REMAIN THE SAME WITH HIM BUT HOW IS OUR FELLOWSHIP WITH GOD? TO WALK IN HIS PERMISSIVE WILL IS TO GO AHEAD AND THEN ASK GOD TO BLESS YOUR YOUR DECISION.SO THEN WHO IS LORD? YES GOD WILL BE WITH YOU THRU BUT AND PROVIDE FOR YOU AS HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT BUT DO YOU WANT HIS PERFECT WILL OR PERMISSIVE WILL.I BELIEVE HIS GRACE IS SHOWN TO LEAD U TOWARD HIS PERFECT WILL,TO A LIFE OF ABUNDANCE,A LIFE YOU'LL KNOW WILL PLEASE GOD.JUST LIKE IN MOSES TIME WHERE THE PEOPLE JUST FOLLOWED WHERE THE PRESENCE OF GOD LED AND MOSES WOULDN'T GO UNLESS GOD IS GOING TO BE THE ONE TO LEAD.BUT WHEN THE PPL REBELLEDAND WANDERED IN THE WILDERNESS AS A RESULT OF CHOOSING THE PERMISSIVE WILL OF GOD,HE STILL PROVIDED FOR THEM BUT THEY WERE LEFT WITH A SENSE OF DISSATISFACTION AS THEY COULD SEE THE PERFECT WILL OF GOD TO ENTER THE PROMISE LAND BUT DUE TO THEIR WILLFULNESS, GOD GAVE THEM TO THEIR SIN BUT HIS GRACE WAS SUFFICIENT ON THEM IN PROVIDING FOR THEM. THE GRACE OF GOD LEADS US TO THAT LIFE OF ABUNDANCE JESUS WAS TALKING ABOUT, ALIKE THAT OF SIN,GRACE LEADS US TO REPENTENCE NOT THAT GRACE WILL BE MORE ABUNDANT IF WE WERE TO SIN MORE AND OUR WILLFULNESS IS SIN,SIN IS HARMATIA IN GREEK. IT MEANS TO MISS THE MARK,THE MARK GOD HAD SET UP FOR US. GOD TAUGHT ME THIS RECENTLY IF YOU REALLY WANT TO GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP,MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD HAS VERY MUCH GOTTA BE BETTER THAN THE OTHER PERSON COS HE IS THE SAME YESTERDAY,TODAY AND FOREVER AND HE IS A JEALOUS GOD. THATZ WHY I CHOSE TO PLACE GOD AS THE FOUNDATION AND THE PILLARS , THE ALPHA AND OMEGA OF OUR FRIENDSHIPS AND RELATIONSHIPS WHATSOEVER.

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Walk away if you want to.
It’s ok, if you need to.
Well, you can run, but you can never hide
From the shadow that’s creepin’ up beside you.

And, there’s a magic runnin’ through your soul,
But you can’t have it all.
(whatever you do)
Well, I’ll be two steps behind you
(wherever you go)
And I’ll be there to remind you
That it only takes a minute of your precious time
To turn around and I’ll be two steps behind.

Yeah, yeah.
Take the time to think about it.
Just walk the line, you know you just can’t fight it
And take a look around, you’ll see what you can’t find,
Like the fire that’s burnin’ up inside me.

Yeah, yeah.
Oh.
Yeah, baby.
Two steps behind
Oh, sugar,
Two steps behind.

WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH, THE TOUGH GETS GOING BUT REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAW ONE SET OF FOOTPRINTS, GOD IS THE ONE CARRYING YOU THROUGH

IN LIFE WE FACE PEOPLE WHO TELLS US LIES,PEOPLE WE LOVE VERY MUCH TOO.WE GET HURT, WE FALL DOWN,BUT ARE WE GOING TO REMAIN WHERE WE ARE AND REMAIN BEATEN? I URGE YOU THEN WHEN YOU'RE FACING IT TO COME BEFORE THE LORD.A BROKEN SPIRIT,A BROKEN CONTRITE HEART HE WILL NOT DESPISE.I LEARNT THAT IF PEOPLE I LOVE LIE TO ME,I JUST HAVE TO FORGIVE BUT IT SHOWS THAT THE PERSON'S CONSCIENCE HAS BEEN SEARED TO THE PROMPTING OF THE HOLY SPIRIT.IF THE PERSON ISNT A BELIEVER...WE FORGIVE STILL. I'LL ADVISE GETTING RID OF WHATEVER REMINDS YOU OF THE PERSON TO AVOID CARRYING A STIGMA HAUNTING YOU,COMMIT YOUR MEMOERY OF THE PERSON TO THE LORD. IF THE PERSON IS A BELIEVER...LOVE WILL TAKE WHATEVER YOU HAVE GIVEN TO THE PERSON BACK AND IF YOU ARE ONE WHO FEARS IT'LL HAUNT YOU...HAND IT ALL TO SOMEBODY YOU ARE ABLE TO CONFIDE IN AND YOU ARE ACCOUNTABLE TO,SPIRITUALLY AND EMOTIONALLY MATURE.AND IF IT IS THE LORDS WILL, HE WILL BRING TWO OF YOU TOGETHER AGAIN AND THERE'LL BE A TIME TO CATCH UP HERE AND THERE BUT YOU HAVE FIRST TO MAKE RIGHT EVERYTHING WHETHER YOU WERE IN A WRONG OR THE OTHER PERSON WHOM YOU LOVE, AND YOU TWO HAVE TO LOVE EACH OTHER AGAIN WITH THE LOVE OF THE LORD.TO END A FRIENDSHIP SHOULDN'T BE A CONTINGENCY SOLUTION AND PRAY FOR THE LORD'S INTERVENTION AND THAT HE WILL BE YOUR MEDIATOR THERE IN YOUR FRIENDSHIP. DON'T TALK TOO MUCH,INSTEAD LISTEN TO WHAT GOD HAS TO SAY, HE WANTS TO DO A WORK THERE IN BOTH YOUR HEARTS AND DON'T LET OUT YOUR REPRESSED FRUSTRATION THAT THE OTHER PARTY INITIATED THE BREAK UP,AND THAT YOU NEVER SEEN A BREAK UP AS A CONTINGENCY SOLUTION...PRAY!!! IVE MADE THE MISTAKE MYSELF OF TALKING TOO MUCH WHEN GOD WANTS TO DO A WORK IN OUR HEARTS AND HE ASKED ME TO SHUY UP AND WHAT IM SAYING IS HINDERING THE WORK HE IS DOING, I THEN REALISED HE IS RIGHT....EVERYTIME I QUARREL WITH MY FRIEND,I'LL GO TO GOD IN PRAYER ASKING FOR HIM TO BE OUR MEDIATOR AND HE ALWAYS WITHOUT FAIL MAKE THINGS RIGHT BETWEEN US...100% GUARANTEED!!!
WHY I NEVER SEEN A BREAKING UP AS A CONTINGENCY SOLUTION? GOD NEVER INTENDS A RELATIONSHIP PUT INTO HIS HAND TO DIVORCE AS MUCH AS IT IS BUT A FRIENDSHIP TO BREAK UP LIKEWISE...BUT WE CAN'T STOP THE OTHER PARTY IF THE PERSON WANTS IT, ALL WE CAN DO IS LOVE THE PERSON AND ASK GOD FOR THE PEACE TO AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE SOFTEN THE HEART OF THAT PERSON TO RECONCILE, BUT OUR CHOICES AND THE WILL OF GOD DOES GO INTO CONFLICT OR THE OTHER FEELS THAT ONE COULD FOCUS,LOVE AND SERVE ON GOD WITHOUT THE OTHER, ALLOW THE PARTING.I BELIEVE THAT THE BODY OF CHRIST SHOULD HAVE NO DISSENSION WHATSOEVER AND WHETHER ONE REMAINS AS FRIENDS OR NOT.THEY'RE STILL GONNA BE ABLE TO LOOK EACH OTHER IN THE EYE WITH LOVE, THE PERFECT LOVE OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST WHOSE LOVE HUNG HIM ON THE CROSS CONNECTING US TO GOD CLOTHING US IN RIGHTEOUSNESS THRU JESUS AND CONNECTING US ON THE HORIZONTAL PLANE,JOINING OUR HANDS TOGETHER. SIN IN THE BOOK OF ROMANS CAUSED OUR MINDS TO BE DEPRAVED AND IT DESTROYED RELATIONSHIP GOD INTENDED PURE.
THEREFORE I URGE YOU TO LOOK AT FRIENDSHIP AS NOT MERE COINCIDENCE, INSTEAD IT IS A DIVINE INTERVENTION OF GOD THAT IN A FRIENDSHIP, WE LEARN TO LOVE COS GOD IS LOVE, IF WE CANNOT LOVE EACH OTHER WHOM WE CAN SEE,HOW CAN WE SAY WE LOVE GOD WE CANNOT SEE? THEREFORE LOVING EACH OTHER GLORIFIES GOD.

SENSE AND SENIBILITY

ON 10.01.2005, MY BEST FRIEND TOLD ME SHE WANTED TO END THE FRIENDSHIP SENDING ME AN SMS AT 2125 HRS.I WAS THEN LEFT SPEECHLESS, COULDNT FINISH MY DINNER AND SWITCHED OFF THE COMPUTER AND WENT INTO MY ROOM. THERE I WANTED TO WRESTLE WITH GOD BUT I COULDN'T, I LOST ALL STRENGTH THEN COS GOD DIDNT WANT TO WRESTLE WITH ME, HE WANTED TO COUNSEL ME.I HAD THEN WHAT I WOULD CALL THE GETHSAMANE EXPERIENCE. I WAS IN SUCH ANGONY, BLOOD WOULD HAVE CAME OUT TOGETHER WITH MY PERSPIRATION BUT ALL I KNEW WAS I WAS PERSPIRING IN A AIR-CONDITIONED ROOM AND THAT JESUS THEN FELT THE ENTIRE WEIGHT OF SIN FROM THE WORLD AND TOOK THEM AS HIS OWN, I COULD ONLY BUT HAVE FELT MY OWN SIN, AND WHAT WAS IN MY HEART THEN WAS "YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD REFLECTS ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH PEOPLE AROUND YOU AND ESPECIALLY YOUR FRIENDS.THE GRACE YOU TOOK FOR GRANTED BY GOD WAS REFLECTING SO MUCH ON THAT OF ME TAKING FOR GRANTED LIKEWISE MY BEST FRIEND'S GRACE ON ME. I THEN FELT SO UNWORTHY BUT GOD POURED HID LOVE ON ME THEN I WEPT AND SAYING "GOD,PLEASE DO NOT TURN YOUR FACE FROM ME". GOD GAVE ME THE ASSURANCE THAT I HAVE BEEN CLOTHED IN HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS THROUGH THE BLOOD OF JESUS COS WE HAVE BEEN CRUCIFIED WITH AND IN CHRIST AND OUR SINS THAT NAILED HIM WAS LEFT ON THE CROSS WHILE WE WERE RESURRECTED TOGETHER WITH AND IN HIM. BUT AFTER THE PRAYER AT GETHSAMANE JESUS WAS TAKEN TO BE CRICIFIED AND LIKEWISE WE'RE REMINDED TO TAKE UP OUR CROSS DAILY, THE PREREQUISITE TO BE HIS DISCIPLE. I LEARNT THAT FROM THE GETHSAMANE EXPERIENCE OF PRAYER,WE'RE TO CARRY OUR CROSS AND I'LL LOVE HER AND BY THAT RESPECTING WHATEVER HER DECISION.IF WE WERE TO CONTINUE OUR FRIENDSHIP,THE FRIENDSHIP MUST BE TOWARDS GLORIFYING GOD THROUGH IT AS INDIVIDUALS SHARING HIS LOVE AMONG OURSELVES AND OF COURSE WITH OUR OWN CIRCLE OF FRIENDS BUT STILL OUR SOURCE OF LOVE MUST BE FROM GOD AND OUR 100% FOCUS ON HIM.AND IF THE FRIENDSHIP ENDED, IT ISNT THE END OF THE WORLD BUT WE HAD STILL TO GLORIFY GOD AS INDIVIDUALS WITH 100% FOCUS ON GOD, COS GOD KNOWS IF FRIENDSHIP CONTINUES IT'LL NOT BE CENTRED TOWARDS HIM. WE TOO MUST CAUTION OURSELVES WITH THE GUIDANCE OF HIS HOLY SPIRIT TO GUARD OUR HEARTS AND MINDS IN CHRIST JESUS.I HAVE LOTS LOTS TO MATURE STILL. THANK YOU GOD...I LOVE YA!!!

WIERD SONG

PLB IS FALLING DOWN
FALLING DOWN
FALLING DOWN
(REPEAT)

-MY P.M.P

PLB-PASSENGER LOADING BRIDGE
P.M.P- PSYCHO MOTOR PROBLEM

THOUGHT OF THIS STUPID "SONG" WHILST I WAS HAVING MY PLB OPERATOR COURSE TODAY.

WHO AM I ?????

MY TITLE DEFINATELY ISNT TALKING ABOUT THE JACKIE CHAN MOVIE...
I AM A CHILD OF GOD
YEAH!!! THATZ WAD I AM
IVE BEEN GIVEN GIFTS...THE GIFT OF KNOWLEDGE...NOT EXACTLY ACADEMICALLY BUT ON THE WORD OF GOD. BUT THEN AGAIN, THE LETTER KILLS BUT THE SPIRIT GIVES LIFE...IT CAN BE VERY DRY ON ITS OWN.I SHARED THIS WITH MY FRIEND TAT I HAF THIS PROBLEM...ALL THE KNOWLEDGE NOW IS IN MY HEAD AND METAPHORICALLY I SAID IT IS A NAIL,YEAP IT HAS THE SHARPNESS AND THE POTENTIAL TO BE DRIVEN INTO AN OBJECT BUT ITZ USELESS.
WHEN I READ,IT REINFORCES THE KNOWLEDGE TAT I ALREADY HAVE,THE SHEER WEIGHT OF IT IS INTIMIDATING...IT HAS VERY MUCH THE CAPABILITY OF DRIVING THE NAIL BUT THEN AGAIN WITHOUT SOMEBODY HANDLING THE HAMMER ITZ USELESS. TO DRIVE IN THE NAIL,SOMEONE HAS TO HOLD THE HAMMER AND KNOCK IT AND THAT IS WHAT I WOULD CALL THE CONVICTION...I REALLY WANT GOD TO BE THE ONE HOLDING THE HAMMER TO DRIVE THE NAIL IN WITH CONVICTION.WE MUST BE CONVICTED IN OUR HEARTS BEFORE WE CAN USE WHAT WE KNOW TO IMPACT LIVES. LIKE TAT IN HEB 4:12
FOR THE WORD OF GOD ISLIVING AND ACTIVE.SHARPER THAN ANY DOUBLE EDGED SWORD, IT PENETRATES TO DIVIDING SOUL AND SPIRIT,JOINTS AND MARROW; IT JUDGES THE THOUGHTS AND ATTITUDE OF THE HEART.
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours