Wednesday, January 12, 2005

SENSE AND SENIBILITY

ON 10.01.2005, MY BEST FRIEND TOLD ME SHE WANTED TO END THE FRIENDSHIP SENDING ME AN SMS AT 2125 HRS.I WAS THEN LEFT SPEECHLESS, COULDNT FINISH MY DINNER AND SWITCHED OFF THE COMPUTER AND WENT INTO MY ROOM. THERE I WANTED TO WRESTLE WITH GOD BUT I COULDN'T, I LOST ALL STRENGTH THEN COS GOD DIDNT WANT TO WRESTLE WITH ME, HE WANTED TO COUNSEL ME.I HAD THEN WHAT I WOULD CALL THE GETHSAMANE EXPERIENCE. I WAS IN SUCH ANGONY, BLOOD WOULD HAVE CAME OUT TOGETHER WITH MY PERSPIRATION BUT ALL I KNEW WAS I WAS PERSPIRING IN A AIR-CONDITIONED ROOM AND THAT JESUS THEN FELT THE ENTIRE WEIGHT OF SIN FROM THE WORLD AND TOOK THEM AS HIS OWN, I COULD ONLY BUT HAVE FELT MY OWN SIN, AND WHAT WAS IN MY HEART THEN WAS "YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD REFLECTS ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH PEOPLE AROUND YOU AND ESPECIALLY YOUR FRIENDS.THE GRACE YOU TOOK FOR GRANTED BY GOD WAS REFLECTING SO MUCH ON THAT OF ME TAKING FOR GRANTED LIKEWISE MY BEST FRIEND'S GRACE ON ME. I THEN FELT SO UNWORTHY BUT GOD POURED HID LOVE ON ME THEN I WEPT AND SAYING "GOD,PLEASE DO NOT TURN YOUR FACE FROM ME". GOD GAVE ME THE ASSURANCE THAT I HAVE BEEN CLOTHED IN HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS THROUGH THE BLOOD OF JESUS COS WE HAVE BEEN CRUCIFIED WITH AND IN CHRIST AND OUR SINS THAT NAILED HIM WAS LEFT ON THE CROSS WHILE WE WERE RESURRECTED TOGETHER WITH AND IN HIM. BUT AFTER THE PRAYER AT GETHSAMANE JESUS WAS TAKEN TO BE CRICIFIED AND LIKEWISE WE'RE REMINDED TO TAKE UP OUR CROSS DAILY, THE PREREQUISITE TO BE HIS DISCIPLE. I LEARNT THAT FROM THE GETHSAMANE EXPERIENCE OF PRAYER,WE'RE TO CARRY OUR CROSS AND I'LL LOVE HER AND BY THAT RESPECTING WHATEVER HER DECISION.IF WE WERE TO CONTINUE OUR FRIENDSHIP,THE FRIENDSHIP MUST BE TOWARDS GLORIFYING GOD THROUGH IT AS INDIVIDUALS SHARING HIS LOVE AMONG OURSELVES AND OF COURSE WITH OUR OWN CIRCLE OF FRIENDS BUT STILL OUR SOURCE OF LOVE MUST BE FROM GOD AND OUR 100% FOCUS ON HIM.AND IF THE FRIENDSHIP ENDED, IT ISNT THE END OF THE WORLD BUT WE HAD STILL TO GLORIFY GOD AS INDIVIDUALS WITH 100% FOCUS ON GOD, COS GOD KNOWS IF FRIENDSHIP CONTINUES IT'LL NOT BE CENTRED TOWARDS HIM. WE TOO MUST CAUTION OURSELVES WITH THE GUIDANCE OF HIS HOLY SPIRIT TO GUARD OUR HEARTS AND MINDS IN CHRIST JESUS.I HAVE LOTS LOTS TO MATURE STILL. THANK YOU GOD...I LOVE YA!!!

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