FEELINGS??? TO FOLLOW OUR HEART OR NOT?

ONE QUESTION LIES IN US WITH SUCH AMBIGUITY WHEN MAKING DECISIONS ESPECIALLY DECISIONS...ARE WE TO REALLY TO FOLLOW OUR HEART? HMMMM.... REMEMBER FOR WHERE OUR HEART IS,THERE YOUR TREASURE WILL BE ALSO. IF OUR DECISIONS IS GUIDED BY EMOTIONS
BURSTING OUT DELUDING AND INFLUENCING OUR DECISIONS...
ASK OURSELVES HOW DEEP IS OUR INTIMACY WITH GOD...FOR HOW DEEP OUR INTIMACY WITH GOD IS VERY MUCH DETERMINES HOW MUCH OF OURSELVES BELONG TO HIM.WE SAY "WE ARE CHRISTIANS WAD!!! OUR WHOLE BEING BELONGS TO HIM LO!!!"
TRUE! BUT THE FACT IS WE HAVENT GIVEN OURSELVES ENTIRELY TO HIM CAUSE MUCH OF OUR MINDSETS TELLS US GOD CAN TAKE CONTROL OF THIS, THIS AND THIS AND NOT THAT.
AS WE GROW DEEPER IN INTIMACY WITH GOD,OUR LOVE DEEPENS AND THE MORE WE LOVE GOD,WE OBEY AND WE KNOW HIS HEART AND WE KNOW HE KNOWS US MUCH MORE THAN WE KNOW OF OURSELVES.WE ARE TO SURRENDER OUR VERY BEING IN ENTIRETY TO HIM,HE WILL THEN ACCOMPLISH IN US HIS WILL,HIS PLEASING AND PERFECT WILL. BUT IF WE SOW TO OUR FEELING UNDIRECTED BY GOD,WELL,IT MOSTLY FAILS US...(IF ANYTHING CAN GO WRONG,IT WILL),IF NOTHING GOES WRONG WE'RE GONNA REMAIN STATUS QUO?(IF IT AINT BROKEN,DON'T FIX IT)...WELL THAT VERY MUCH US...WE ONLY COME TO GOD IN OUR DEEPEST NEEDS DO WE?
IT ISN'T WRONG BUT IT IF WE ARE GOING TO FOLLOW GOD'S WILL WITH OUR CONFIDENCE IN HIM,THINGS WILL GO WRONG STILL BUT WE KNOW HE'LL TAKE CARE OF IT THROUGH US TRUSTING HIM KNOWING FULLY WELL HE IS IN THE SAME BOAT WITH US AND LIVING IN HIS WILL SAVE US THE UNWANTED AND UNNECESSARY PAIN AND UNCERTAINTY OF LIFE WHICH WAS REAPED MOSTLY BY REGRET AND REGRET THE FEELING OF DEPRESSION.
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2nd DILEMA- SOME OF MY SUPERVISORS ARE CHRISTIANS YET WHEN I ASK IF I CAN GO OFF AT 1330HRS ON SATURDAY WHICH IS THE 1/2 DAY WE GET.THEY SAY "YOU MUST FINISH YOUR WORK FIRST.IF THEY'RE DONE,WELL OF COURSE YOU CAN GO"...THAT ISNT EXACTLY WHAT THEY SAY CAUSE THEYRE KINDA LINGUISTICALLY CHALLENGED IN THE ENGLISH VOCABULARY. HAHAHAS
THEN THEY SAY HOR? "GOD IS GOD AND WORK IS WORK,NO WORK,NO MONEY RIGHT? YOU SERVE GOD GOT MONEY TO EARN UH?" I ALSO CHRISTIAN BUT I HAVE TO WORK,PEOPLE ASK ME GO CHURCH ON WADEVA DAY I TELL THEM I GOT TO WORK BUT I GO CHURCH ON SUNDAY". HMMMMM...
CONFLICT OF INTEREST AND BELIEF.I SERVE GOD BECAUSE I LOVE HIM,SIMPLE ENOUGH? WELL I MADE THIS KNOWN TO THEM PRIOR IN A FRIENDLY EXCHANGE OF CHRISTIAN CONCEPTS AND THEIR IDEOLOGIES "GOD PROVIDED THIS JOB FOR ME" AND THAT SEEMS TO BE CONTARY TO THIER BELIEFS THAT WE WHAT WE MAKE FOR OURSELVES AND GOD IS JUST WAD WE CHOOSE TO BELIEVE. THEN HE SAY "IM A PRACTICAL MAN"...WELL... GOD DOESN'T GIVE US MONEY JUST LIKE THAT. THEN THEY SAY WHAT THEY NEED MORE IN LIFE IN MONEY....TO SUMMURISE EVERYTHING THEY'RE SAYING GOD DOESN'T PUT FOOD ON THE TABLE FOR ME I BELIEVE GOD IS THE ESSENCE OF OUR LIVES ITSELF BUT TO PUT IT IN WORD TO CHANGE ANOTHER PERSON'S BELIEF IS DIFFICULT ESPECIALLY IF HE SAYS HE IS ALREADY A CHRISTIAN.
WELL BEEN THINKING THROUGH THE DAY AND THIS BLOG SOMEWAD SUMS IT ALL UP INCLUDING THIS THAT GOD SHOWED ME I HAVE CHANGED QUITE A BIT LO...WELL MY ATTITUDE OF LIFE EVOLVES AROUND I AND GOD.GOD TAUGHT ME TO LOVE THROUGH A GAL FROM INFACTUATION I GREW TO LOVE.SHE IS BUT A VENUE BY WHICH GOD USES BUT MY FOCUS SHOULD NOT BE ON HER BUT ON GOD STILL AS SHOULD ANYTHING FAIL WITHIN OUR FRIENDSHIP.THE LOVE WILL NOT FADE AWAY TOGETHER WITH HER NEITHER WILL MY LOVE FOR HER THOUGH THROUGH HER I WAS TAUGHT LOVE.A PAIN HIT THROUGH ME WHEN I HEARD A COLLEAGUE FELL FROM THE SCAFFOLDING APPROXIMATELY 4-6 METRES...A PROMPTING TO PRAY FOR HIM SUDDENLY URGED FROM WITHIN AS IF SOMEONE WAS CRYING OUT FROM WITHIN ME AND COMPASSION FILLED MY HEART.
EVERYDAY WE WALK WITH JESUS IS A LEARNING JOURNEY,LEARNING FROM A FRIEND. BUT LIFE WITHOUT CHRIST IS A SCHOOL PEOPLE DREAD...THE SCHOOL OF HARD KNOCKS WE CALL THAT.

LOVE , LIFE AND GOD

WELL,WHEN ONE IS PRETTY MUCH HITTING DEPRESSION AND SO DEVASTATED WITH THE CIRCUMSTANCES AROUND HIM,CONFUSION OCCURS...SOME PEOPLE TEND TO FIND A SUBSTITUTE OF SOMETHING THEY THINK WILL EASE THEMSELVES OF THE PAIN AND KEEP WALLOWING THEMSELVES IN IT,SAVOURING EVERY MOMENT HOWEVER TEMPORAL THE PERSON KNOWS THAT SUBTITUTE WILL BRING OF ITS SATISFACTION, SOME JUST SUPPRESS ALL THE PAIN AND DENYS OF THEMSELVES THAT A SITUATION NEVER HAPPENED BUT THEN AGAIN A SCAR WAS LEFT TO ROT IN HIS SOUL, THE WELLSPRING OF HIS/HER EMOTIONS.
BUT WHEN WE KNOW THAT WE SHARE AND IDENTIFY OURSELVES AND OUR SUFFERING WITH AND IN CHRIST'S AND AS MUCH AS WE HAVE BEEN CRUCIFIED IN AND WITH HIM AND RESURRECTED IN AND WITH HIM,ALL THE SCARS WILL BE HEALED BY HIS STRIPES.HE IS OUR SUBSTITUTE AND THERE IS NO NEED FOR US TO FIND TEMPORAL RELEASE AND SATISFACTION ANYWHERE ELSE. HE SAYS I AM THE WAY ,THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE SO WE DON'T HAVE TO "GET A LIFE!!!" ANYWHERE ELSE AS MUCH AS WE SHOILDN'T PAY OUR FINES AND BILLS ANYWHERE ELSE BUT AT THE AXS MACHINE -_-" BUT WELL OUR DEBTS HAD ALREADY BEEN PAID SO WHY GO TO THE AXS MACHINE? AS HE IS THE WAY AND THE TRUTH IS THAT OUR DEBTS WERE PAID THROUGH JESUS'S DEATH AND THE POWER OF HIS RESURRECTION GAVE US TOO THE POWER TO HAVE ACCESS TO GOD AND THE "POWER TO CONNECT" AS WE ARE ALREADY CALLED TO BE AS HE IS THE VINE AND WE ARE THE BRANCHES.AND WE HAVE TO REMAIN CONNECTED AND THING IS WE DON'T HAVE TO PAY SUBSCRIPTION FEES FOR WIRELESS NETWORKING.
AND WE SO CALLED "KIASU" SINGAPOREANS JUST DON'T WANT TO GET HOLD OF ETERNAL LIFE? ACCESS TO GOD? GIFTS? AND SPECIAL COVENANT RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD,A RELATIONSHIP MOSES AND ABRAHAM HAD IN BEING ABLE TO TALK TO GOD AS FRIENDS.WHAT MORE CAN WE ASK FOR AS HE IS MORE THAN WE CAN BARGAIN FOR? DIGRESSING? NOPE...HE REVIVED ME AT THREE MONTHS OLD FROM THE GRIM FACE OF DEATH AND I OWE IT ALL TO HIM MAN! AT 10 YRS OF AGE, I FELT THE SENSITIVITY OF THE HOLY SPIRIT ON MY LIFE AND AT 12 DEDICATED MYSELF TO HIM...I FAIL MANY A TIMES YET HIS GRACE AND FAITHFULNESS NEVER FAILS. FROM WEAKNESS HE TURNED INTO STRENGTH THIS GIFT OF WRITTING. THANK YOU GOD
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM WAS THAT OF AN EXTENT HE SOMETIMES ASKS ME "MERVIN, HOW DO THINK I'LL BE MOVING IN THE SERVICE TONIGHT?" OR HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO MOVE?" HE ASKED "LIKE A RAGING FIRE OR RUSHING WATERS LIKE TAT OF ONE BREAKING A DAM.? RIDICULOUS YOU MIGHT THINK...BUT I NOW SAY "LORD,MOVE IN YOUR OWN SPECIAL WAY"
HE KNOWS MY HEART AND HE REVEALS HIMSELF TO ME THAT I MAY KNOW HIM IN DEPTH OF INTIMACY. I SAW HOW MY FRIENDSHIP WAS ALWAYS IN HIS HANDS EVEN WITH A GIRL I LIKED AND GREW TO LOVE.WE QUARRELLED FREQUENTLY.THE QUARRELS WE HAD WERE THAT OF ME ACTING ON MY OWN 'FEELINGS'...AND THAT OF SUCH INFACTUATION THAT THIS KIND OF QUARRELS CAN'T BRING US CLOSER BUT DRIFT US FURTHER BUT I PRAY THAT GOD BE MY MEDIATOR AND INTERCEDE ON MY BEHALF AND EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT SOON AFTER. WELL AFTER MUCH, FEELINGS SUBSUDES, LOVE ISNT SOMETHING THAT IS BASED ON FEELINGS BUT ON CHRIST'S LOVE AND DEVOTION. LIKEWISE TO HER I'LL SHOW THE SAME THOUGH WE DON'T TALK MUCH NOW. I DON'T WANT TO TALK IN CASE FEELINGS OVERWHELMS AND CAUSES WHAT I SAY TO HURT AND CUT DEEP.I WANT NOW TO FOCUS ON GOD,AND I WANT MY WORDS TO GIVE LIFE AS I HAVE HURT HER WITH WORDS WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME TO BEAR.CARELESS WORDS *SHAKES HEAD* SAID ONLY TO ONLY REALISE LATER IT HURTS ME TO HURT HER."NOTHING IS GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU"
THE ONLY THING CHANGED IS MY ATTITUDE AND OF WHOSE LOVE I AM LOVING YOU WITH.
RECENTLY I LOOKED BACK AT THIS CARD GIVEN ME BY HER, IT QUOTES FROM PROVERBS 17:17 "A FRIEND LOVES AT ALL TIMES" WELL IT ACTUALLY CONTINUES WITH "BUT A BROTHER WAS BORN FOR ADVERSITY"...HOW TRUE IT IS INDEED...
I NEED TIME,TIME SPENT WITH GOD IN HIS PRESENCE AS MY EMOTIONS IS VEXED.

BE STILL

THIS MORNING GOD SPOKE TO ME ABOUT "BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD" AND THEN AGAIN WHILE AT CELL GROUP, IT ALL CAME OUT ALTOGETHER AGAIN.TO BE STILL BEFORE GOD WE HAVE JUST PUT DOWN EVERYTHING WITHIN OURSELVES,EMOTIONAL HURTS AND PAIN BEFORE HIM AND JUST DESIRE SO DESPERATELY HIS PRESENCE, SOMETIMES WHEN THE EMOTIONS GETS PRETTY OVERWHELMING...DON'T SUPPRESS IT! LAY IT DOWN BEFORE GOD AND THE PAIN WE FEEL GOD KNOWS EVEN BEFORE WE SPEAK THOUGH AT TIMES WE JUST CANNOT VERBALISE IT.HE WILL COMFORTS US AND COUNSEL US THROUGH THE HOLY SPIRIT AND IF WE NEED DIRECTION HE LEADS ALLOWING US TO SEE CIRCUMSTANCES THROUGH HIS EYES AND NOT OURS...
WHEN WE LEARN TO OBEY AND MAKE OURSELVES MOLDABLE BEFORE GOD,LETTING HIS WILL BE OUR WILL AND DESIRES,WHEN WE EMPTY OURSELVES AND LET GOD USE US IN HIS SPECIAL WAY,WE'LL SEE WHAT MARVELLOUS AND EXTRAORDINARY THINGS HE CAN DO THROUGH US. TO BE ABLE TO OBEY YOU MUST LOVE GOD AND FOCUS ON HIM ALONE.


In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Til he returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE

HELLO!!! MY TITLE DOES NOT TODAY REFER TO THAT OF A FEMININE PARTY BUT GOD. HAHAHAS
ITZ SO WONDERFUL EVERYDAY SPEAKING TO HIM. WELL WELL WELL... ITZ LIKE SOMEWHAT PEOPLE TEND TO SEE THE IRRELAVENCE OF THE BIBLE IN TODAY'S CONTEXT.WELL WE CAN MAKE EXCUSES TO COMPROMISE AND EXCUSES OF IGNORANCE ISNT VALID LO...
WELL THE WORD OF GOD SHALL NOT PASS AWAY AND SO IS ITS RELAVENCE.
GOT IT? WE HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT THE AUTHOR OF THE BIBLE AS OUR ONE-TO-ONE TUTOR TO TEACH US AND HELP US UNDERSTAND THE BIBLE AND VERY MUCH LET US SEE IT IN RELAVENCE TO TODAY'S CONTEXT AND APPLY THEM...TWO THUMBS UP AND IF I HAVE MORE THAN TWO THUMBS, ALL OF THEM WILL BE UP TOO -_-" HAHAS