WHO ENTERS MY DOMAIN???!!!

Education in the Christian Community 2

2011-07-05T14:51:00.000+08:00

An area in which the class piqued my interest was in the busting of myths pertaining to what Education in the Christian Community entails in its content. It is not just about facts and information but about life transformation, that it is about a set of curricular, that it is all about the bible and that it is none of my concern. I would like to emphasize on the part of facts and information as it applies to me most. I always had the idea that teaching was all about transmission of facts and knowledge, the know-that and know-how. But I came to realize that it is more than that! It is ultimately to bring about life-transformation. It is about enabling the recipients to think and derive at questions such as “why I need this life-transformation?” or “why do I need to come to Church?”, instead of just telling them that those are important. It is from thinking and asking these that, leads ultimately down to a personal conviction of why I am doing what I am doing and how can I change what I am doing and what this change will bring about? . . . This form of thinking requires the work of the Holy Spirit in bringing about that conviction.

Another thing which I caught from this is the need of our content to have cultural relevancy. It occurred to me with the movie I watched, ‘The 3 Idiots’ that in India, more young people die of suicide than of sickness because of the ‘shame’ culture they are living in, they rather die than bringing shame to their families by failing their exams. It is for the similar reason that many Indians will not convert to Christianity, lest they bring shame to their family. To this I thought, can I use the context wherein it says: If anyone comes to Me, and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be My disciple. Luke 14 v. 26 if I were to preach in India.

To which the lesson where continuity and decisional personalities comes to play. Will those who tend to need continuity be afraid to make a commitment and make a decision? But for those decisional ones, will they fall away on this account? Or will their faith be even more sure. This part helps me to consider people with different personalities and thinking patterns when I teach.

2007-01-16T16:18:00.000+08:00

Pachelbel Rant

John 14:6 Relevant in this postmodern world

2006-11-07T18:36:00.000+08:00

6Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6

Its self-explanatory enough Christ is the only way because in post modernism there are no absolutes, having its roots in Hinduism and Zen buddhism where "one truth, but many paths" and "many paths, one mountain". are one of their mainstay principles. and Hinduism has it that one can become a demi-god when He/she reaches a certain level of realisation of their true ego, that being their Spirit and the putting off of their ephemeral false ego. Today people are subtly drawn to these concepts cause we by nature wants to be in control of our own lives from the very beginning. Adam and eve took the fruit when it was said they could become like God.

"For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."

The thing was they did have the knowledge of good and evil. So ask yourselves does the original sin begin before the fruit was eaten or after. God gave man dominion and power over all His creation yet there is the power of man's choice that makes that power given without a hook and line attached, consequences were made clear should we choose to disobey that which God had not intended but the infinite possibilities had already been taken into account in His sovereign will, but His perfect will be that we submit to Him,trusting in His love instead of having to be subjugated under the law and sin. Having been justified by faith, we are saved from the inexorable death had Jesus not bought us at a price yet we're taken back to choose between the two trees for the rest of our lives. To carry the cross,die daily to ourselves, crucified with Christ and made alive in Him through the power of His resurrection,sanctified or we can with that freedom Christ given us, the power therein to choose yet again and we want to be our own god and be subjugated to sin and its consequences that leads down the wide path of destruction. His sovereign will is 9The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. 2 Peter 3:9
The truth be told that all that we have,all that we are and can and will be is found in Christ.
post modernism says I think and therefore,I am. Again free will and our choice are brought into play,depend on God, He has His way in us,transforming us from within into His likeness until Christ be made manifest living out of us, guided by Him be it through circumstances where we cross paths with another individual's will of God's will for him/her, be it friendship or for character moulding. It requires us to trust in His love because He sees what we can be in Him, that is drawing from His infinite power and strength, yielding all of our being,spirit,mind and body to Him that too having our will surrender to His. or Be independent from Him, live as one who does what is right and wise in His own eyes, eternity holds no significance, living for the moment with the limited resources. We draw ourselves, to succeed only to be left emptier from where we left of. hypothetically, Had Adam said no to the lust of his eyes, lust of his flesh and the pride of life, He certainly would have feasted on the vastness of the tree of life and garden of eden.
1Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your[a] life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory. Col 3:1-5
Jesus becomes our life when we submit in His love and feed on it as our lives depend on it.
It takes every ounce of our being to trust in His love, because it mean opening ourselves to brokeness of our heart. Most wouldnt risk emotional pain, and many dissociate themselves from it from past hurts and grievances. But His love restores,the Holy Spirit is the comforter,counsellor,Spirit of reconciliation and the Spirit of truth,He heals and feels with our weaknesses. Ultimately When we let God be God and ourselves found in Him, depending and yielded to Him, more of Him will appear through our lives, We'll be glorified with Him as We lived out not our own righteousness but Christ's. that is His perfect will.
1Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual[a] act of worship. 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Psalms 42

2006-11-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

For the director of music. A maskil of the Sons of Korah.
[a] [b] As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
4 These things I remember as I pour out my soul: how I used to go with the multitude, leading the procession to the house of God, with shouts of joy and thanksgiving among the festive throng.
5 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and 6 my God. My [c] soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you from the land of the Jordan, the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me.
8 By day the LORD directs his love, at night his song is with me— a prayer to the God of my life.
9 I say to God my Rock, "Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?"
10 My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
11 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

2006-10-28T17:38:00.000+08:00

Breaking Benjamin-Diary of Jane

2006-10-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

Breaking Benjamin - So Cold

Rich heritage , rich in faith

2006-08-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

Church of Ascension
Saint Andrew's junior school

I managed to visit and take a look at my old sch today,certainly it brought about a nostalgia as if It was only yesterday I collected my PSLE results. This place was where I knelt in to pray just before the collection of my PSLE results and this place was where I first placed all my hope in the Lord and He has never failed me until today. It was as if I built an altar there like Jacob did at Bethel.... I went for my first youth camp that same year and there I gave myself completely to God,held no reservations of my own.

Today I'm writing this, placing yet another altar before my God, placing all my hope in Him. Only He knows of what I speak.

With all of my life , with all of my strength
all of my hope is in you.

WHO AM I part 2 - It's no identity crisis we're talking about here ya...

2006-03-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

20I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. 21I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, Christ died for nothing!" ~ Gal 2:20,21

We all may know just the part 'Its no longer I that live but Christ lives in me'
but ever so often, We have to come to terms with the fact that Jesus died for us and why? was there an alternative? No! God is holy and no doubt intolerable to sin and so much as He wants us sooooooo much to have a love relationship with Him, Jesus had to become the propitiation for our sins. And so having accepted Jesus as our Lord and personal savior,We found also the grace to live out Jesus who now lives in each one of us
21God made him who had no sin to be sin[a] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.~2 Corinthians 5:21

We become the righteousness of God through Jesus having given up of Himself to become the very personification of sin itself and crucifying it to Himself to it and it to Himself. Putting an end to what sin did to us

1It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.
~Gal 5:1

This freedom gives us the choice not to live unto ourselves,as the flesh craves for the things of the flesh and according to that lifestyle we once lived for was subject to the law. But since having been given the Spirit of sonship, why would you want to turn back lest it be that we are unable to accept the knowledge of this grace that calls us to be Children of God which Apostle Paul describes as the 'the setting aside the grace of God' which so nullifies the need for Christ to die for us.
But having accepted Christ, We're to carry our own crosses and die daily to ourselves and We're then made alive to live in Him and mature in His love and agonize in Christ's suffering, the pain gradually increasing in us as we begin to feel together with understand what our sin did to Him.In those moments we have to realise our need of Him to sanctify us and restore in us His glory of which we have so much have fallen short of when we sinned. No flesh can glory in His presence, and we when found in His presence,have to cast down our crowns, laying our gifts and lives broken before Him.We even have to put every bit that tells us we're special, or unique or even how anointed we thought we are aside, take out the best of our perfume and put it on Jesus' feet and simply adore Him. There's this bodybuilder that says we have to check our egos before stepping into the gym how much more us who are being perfected into His image, working out our salvation in fear and trembling before stepping through the church doors? or even into His presence wherever we are?

Martin Luther king Jr's speech

2005-10-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

I am happy to join with you today in what will go down in history as the greatest demonstration for freedom in the history of our nation.
Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand today, signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of their captivity.
But one hundred years later, the Negro still is not free. One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languished in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land. And so we've come here today to dramatize a shameful condition.
In a sense we've come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the "unalienable Rights" of "Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note, insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked "insufficient funds."
But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation. And so, we've come to cash this check, a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice.
We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of Now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to make real the promises of democracy. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quicksands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice a reality for all of God's children.
It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. And those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. And there will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges.
But there is something that I must say to my people, who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice: In the process of gaining our rightful place, we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred. We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again, we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.
The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to a distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny. And they have come to realize that their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom.
We cannot walk alone.
And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall always march ahead.
We cannot turn back.
There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" We can never be satisfied as long as the Negro is the victim of the unspeakable horrors of police brutality. We can never be satisfied as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until "justice rolls down like waters, and righteousness like a mighty stream."¹
I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow jail cells. And some of you have come from areas where your quest -- quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive. Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to South Carolina, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed.
Let us not wallow in the valley of despair, I say to you today, my friends.
And so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.
I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal."
I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia, the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.
I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.
I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.
I have a dream today!
I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of "interposition" and "nullification" -- one day right there in Alabama little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers.
I have a dream today!
I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, and every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight; "and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together."²
This is our hope, and this is the faith that I go back to the South with.
With this faith, we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith, we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith, we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.
And this will be the day -- this will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with new meaning:
My country 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing.
Land where my fathers died, land of the Pilgrim's pride,
From every mountainside, let freedom ring!
And if America is to be a great nation, this must become true.
And so let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire.
Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York.
Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania.
Let freedom ring from the snow-capped Rockies of Colorado.
Let freedom ring from the curvaceous slopes of California.
But not only that:
Let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia.
Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee.
Let freedom ring from every hill and molehill of Mississippi.
From every mountainside, let freedom ring.
And when this happens, when we allow freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual:
Free at last! Free at last!
Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!³

Generation Affectors for Christ

2005-08-28T02:40:00.000+08:00

In secondary school,the History textbook asked why do we have to study history. We have to study history to learn from the events for one and not let history repeat itself and to also learn about people and what they did that affected the world whether be it positive or negative the effects.

Most of us would have heard the actrocities of what Adolf Hitler had done in WWII, exterminating 6 million jews in the holocaust. He initiated the war, why? because he wanted a pure 'Aryan' breed of germans. He like many germans after WWI, were devastated by the terms of the treaty of Versailles in having the allies claim german territory and made to pay war reparations. People simply took the misery in and took to the beerhalls and that set the stage for Hitler in his period where he incited an uprising which led to his arrest and put in prison where he wrote 'mein kampf' which depicted his ideals and propagated them~ Until his death of the collaspe of the third reich he was a force to be reckoned with. He held the respect of the german people.why? He had charisma,driven by passion in what he believed that so consumed him and flows right outta him and it became contagious,the concept of having a germany for the germans. He invaded much of Europe with a strategy known as 'blitz krieg' which meant lighting warefare in which he was able to capture most parts of Europe in a very short period of time and it was also adopted by the Japanese at the Asian theatre of war.
Ah! this aint a history lesson Im giving here.
If the passion that we have so much in our hearts we know and with our mouths declare we love. The passion that we have should have by now swept the nation of Singapore and have taken it by storm. The love of Christ will so much consume us and flow out in all His anointing and power unlike that of Hitler, a mere man with a gift and passion for a cause of his country. We too must claim our country with such a passion and conquer with a 'Holy Spirit blitz krieg' the principalities of darkness taking captive the beliefs of the people. We have given up ground in compromises and have lost territories because we see each other, and saw no hope in each other's eyes and some had fallen off. Compromise is something people hold disdain for.

The Japanese had invaded themselves right down to Thailand and there the Thais took their pride of never being a colony of any foreign country and put it in a pact with the Japs to allow safe passage through and then having held a monument built by the result of their letting in, the Japs took in prisoners of war to build a railway which later became know as the 'death railway' in Thailand.It set itself a mark of compromise known nowadays to people as adapting themselves to the modern culture. secularism.

6 million jews by now would have tripled or quadripled in this two generations from then till now.Likewise, we can save the people falling into the halocaust of their own sins and self righteousness never knowing who can Justify them of their sins and know their death penalty for their sins had been paid by Jesus Christ,the Son of the living God. Or are we simply apathetic like everyone else? We can be history makers for the glory of God who made us to be. The Church stands in it's community to affect it,not to occupy space.
We are to affect the marketplaces of where we study,work or even at the coffeeshops where we have our meals and leisure.We're entity unto ourselves, an army of the Most high King and we must have such a passion to stand in the gap on behalf of our nation flowing out of us the Spirit of reconciliation which reaches into their hearts and gives them the knowledge of who they are and Christ Jesus. We must first have that love of Christ so saturate our very being with the compassion of Christ, together with a crucified self,sacrificed as a pleasing offering to God and a personal conviction and Christ driven passion and that certainly will wreak havoc in hell.

Want to be a Generation affector?

Nothing but the Blood - Matt Redman

2005-08-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

Your blood speaks a better word
Than all the empty claims
I've heard upon this earth
Speaks righteousness for me
And stands in my defense Jesus it's Your blood
[Chorus] What can wash away our sins?
What can make us whole again?
Nothing but the blood
Nothing but the blood of Jesus
What can wash us pure as snow?
Welcomed as the friends of God
Nothing but Your blood
Nothing but Your blood King Jesus
Your cross testifies in grace
Tells of the Father's heart to make a way for us
Now boldly we approach
Not by earthly confidence
It's only Your blood

MARIA HERTOGH RIOT - ROMEO & JULIET .... they seem to exhibit some very violent similarities

2005-08-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

The Maria Hertogh riot was probably one of the bloodiest riots in the whole of Singapore history. There were 18 deaths and 173 injured. This riot started on 11 December 1950.During World War II, as Maria's Dutch catholic parents were taken away by the Japanese, her parents entrusted her to a family friend, Aminah. But on April 1950, Maria's biological parents appealed in court and they took back Maria. But soon, Aminah appealed and Maria was returned to Aminah. Maria was married soon, but under certain Dutch laws, the marriage was not permitted. After several disputes, there came the final court hearing. To anger the Muslims more, Maria was ordered to returned to her biological parents, thus a riot started.

Large crowds gathered outside the court vented their anger unreservingly. Any European and Eurasian in sight were attacked by the Malays. Cars were overturned, burnt and destroyed. The Malay and Indian Muslim rioters took control of the Sultan Mosque, North Bridge Road, Jalan Besar, etc. The riot continued for three days and a 24-hour curfew had to be imposed for two weeks. British troops, Malay troops and the Singapore police all had to be involved to control the riot

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"Two households, both alike in dignity(In fair Verona where we lay our scene),Fromancient grudge break to new mutiny,Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.From forth the fatal loins of these two foesA pair of star-crossed lovers take their life;Whose misadventured, piteous overthrowsDoth with their deaths bury their parents' strife.The fearful passage of their death-marked love,And the continuance of their parents' rage,Which, but their children's end, naught could remove,Is now the two hours' traffic of our stage;The which, if you with patient ears attend,What here shall miss, our toil shall strive to mend."

Romeo And Juliet
The two chief families in Verona were the rich Capulets and the Montagues. There had been an old quarrel between these families, which was grown to such a height, and so deadly was the enmity between them, that it extended to the remotest kindred, to the followers and retainers of both sides, insomuch that a servant of the house of Montague could not meet a servant of the house of Capulet, nor a Capulet encounter with a Montague by chance, but fierce words and sometimes bloodshed ensued; and frequent were the brawls from such accidental meetings, which disturbed the happy quiet of Verona's streets.
Old lord Capulet made a great supper, to which many fair ladies and many noble guests were invited. All the admired beauties of Verona were present, and all comers were made welcome if they were not of the house of Montague. At this feast of Capulets, Rosaline, beloved of Romeo, son to the old lord Montague, was present; and though it was dangerous for a Montague to be seen in this assembly, yet Benvolio, a friend of Romeo, persuaded the young lord to go to this assembly in the disguise of a mask, that he might see his Rosaline, and seeing her compare her with some choice beauties of Verona, who (he said) would make him think his swan a crow. Romeo had small faith in Benvolio's words; nevertheless, for the love of Rosaline, he was persuaded to go. For Romeo was a sincere and passionate lover, and one that lost his sleep for love, and fled society to be alone, thinking on Rosaline, who disdained him, and never required his love, with the least show of courtesy or affection; and Benvolio wished to cure his friend of this love by showing him diversity of ladies and company. To this feast of Capulets then young Romeo with Benvolio and their friend Mercutio went masked. Old Capulet bid them welcome, and told them that ladies who had their toes unplagued with corns would dance with them. And the old man was light hearted and merry, and said that he had worn a mask when he was young, and could have told a whispering tale in a fair lady's ear. And they fell to dancing, and Romeo was suddenly struck with the exceeding beauty of a lady who danced there, who seemed to him to teach the torches to burn bright, and her beauty to show by night like a rich jewel worn by a blackamoor; beauty too rich for use, too dear for earth! like a snowy dove trooping with crows (he said), so richly did her beauty and perfections shine above the ladies her companions. While he uttered these praises, he was overheard by Tybalt, a nephew of lord Capulet, who knew him by his voice to be Romeo. And this Tybalt, being of a fiery and passionate temper, could not endure that a Montague should come under cover of a mask, to fleer and scorn (as he said) at their solemnities. And he stormed and raged exceedingly, and would have struck young Romeo dead. But his uncle, the old lord Capulet, would not suffer him to do any injury at that time, both out of respect to his guests, and because Romeo had borne himself like a gentleman, and all tongues in Verona bragged of him to be a virtuous and well-governed youth. Tybalt, forced to be patient against his will, restrained himself, but swore that this vile Montague should at another time dearly pay for his intrusion.
The dancing being done, Romeo watched the place where the lady stood; and under favour of his masking habit, which might seem to excuse in part the liberty, he presumed in the gentlest manner to take her by the hand, calling it a shrine, which if he profaned by touching it, he was a blushing pilgrim, and would kiss it for atonement. 'Good pilgrim,' answered the lady, 'your devotion shows by far too mannerly and too courtly: saints have hands, which pilgrims may touch, but kiss not.' 'Have not saints lips, and pilgrims too?' said Romeo. 'Ay,' said the lady, 'lips which they must use in prayer.' 'O then, my dear saint,' said Romeo, 'hear my prayer, and grant it, lest I despair.' In such like allusions and loving conceits they were engaged, when the lady was called away to her mother. And Romeo inquiring who her mother was, discovered that the lady whose peerless beauty he was so much struck with, was young Juliet, daughter and heir to the lord Capulet, the great enemy of the Montagues; and that he had unknowingly engaged his heart to his foe. This troubled him, but it could not dissuade him from loving. As little rest had Juliet, when she found that the gentleman that she had been talking with was Romeo and a Montague, for she had been suddenly smit with the same hasty and inconsiderate passion for Romeo, which he had conceived for her; and a prodigious birth of love it seemed to her, that she must love her enemy, and that her affections should settle there, where family considerations should induce her chiefly to hate.
It being midnight, Romeo with his companions departed; but they soon missed him, for, unable to stay away from the house where he had left his heart, he leaped the wall of an orchard which was at the back of Juliet's house. Here he had not been long, ruminating on his new love, when Juliet appeared above at a window, through which her exceeding beauty seemed to break like the light of the sun in the east; and the moon, which shone in the orchard with a faint light, appeared to Romeo as if sick and pale with grief at the superior lustre of this new sun. And she, leaning her cheek upon her hand, he passionately wished himself a glove upon that hand, that he might touch her cheek. She all this while thinking herself alone, fetched a deep sigh, and exclaimed: 'Ah me!' Romeo, enraptured to hear her speak, said softly, and unheard by her: 'O speak again, bright angel, for such you appear, being over my head, like a winged messenger from heaven whom mortals fall back to gaze upon.' She, unconscious of being overheard, and full of the new passion which that night's adventure had given birth to, called upon her lover by name (whom she supposed absent): 'O Romeo, Romeo!' said she, 'wherefore art thou Romeo? Deny thy father, and refuse thy name, for my sake; or if thou wilt not, be but my sworn love, and I no longer will be a Capulet.' Romeo, having this encouragement, would fain have spoken, but he was desirous of hearing more; and the lady continued her passionate discourse with herself (as she thought), still chiding Romeo for being Romeo and a Montague, and wishing him some other name, or that he would put away that hated name, and for that name which was no part of himself, he should take all herself. At this loving word Romeo could no longer refrain, but taking up the dialogue as if her words had been addressed to him personally, and not merely in fancy, he bade her call him Love, or by whatever other name she pleased, for he was no longer Romeo, if that name was displeasing to her. Juliet, alarmed to hear a man's voice in the garden, did not at first know who it was, that by favour of the night and darkness had thus stumbled upon the discovery of her secret; but when he spoke again, though her ears had not yet -drunk a hundred words of that tongue's uttering, yet so nice is a lover's hearing, that she immediately knew him to be young Romeo, and she expostulated with him on the danger to which he had exposed himself by climbing the orchard walls, for if any of her kinsmen should find him there, it would be death to him, being a Montague. 'Alack,' said Romeo, 'there is more peril in your eye, than in twenty of their swords. Do you but look kind upon me, lady, and I am proof against their enmity. Better my life should be ended by their hate, than that hated life should be prolonged, to live without your love.' 'How came you into this place,' said Juliet, 'and by whose direction?' 'Love directed me,' answered Romeo: 'I am no pilot, yet wert thou as far apart from me, as that vast shore which is washed with the farthest sea, I should venture for such merchandise.' A crimson blush came over Juliet's face, yet unseen by Romeo by reason of the night, when she reflected upon the discovery which she had made, yet not meaning to make it, of her love to Romeo. She would fain have recalled her words, but that was impossible: fain would she have stood upon form, and have kept her lover at a distance, as the custom of discreet ladies is, to frown and be perverse, and give their suitors harsh denials at first; to stand off, and affect a coyness or indifference, where they most love, that their lovers may not think them too lightly or too easily won; for the difficulty of attainment increases the value of the object. But there was no room in her case for denials, or puttings off, or any of the customary arts of delay and protracted courtship. Romeo had heard from her own tongue, when she did not dream that he was near her, a confession of her love. So with an honest frankness, which the novelty of her situation excused, she confirmed the truth of what he had before heard, and addressing him by the name of fair Montague (love can sweeten a sour name), she begged him not to impute her easy yielding to levity or an unworthy mind, but that he must lay the fault of it (if it were a fault) upon the accident of the night which had so strangely discovered her thoughts. And she added, that though her behaviour to him might not be sufficiently prudent, measured by the custom of her sex, yet that she would prove more true than many whose prudence was dissembling, and their modesty artificial cunning.
Romeo was beginning to call the heavens to witness, that nothing was farther from his thoughts than to impute a shadow of dishonour to such an honoured lady, when she stopped him, begging him not to swear; for although she joyed in him, yet she had no joy of that night's contract: it was too rash, too unadvised, too sudden. But he being urgent with her to exchange a vow of love with him that night, she said that she already had given him hers before he requested it; meaning, when he overheard her confession; but she would retract what she then bestowed, for the pleasure of giving it again, for her bounty was as infinite as the sea, and her love as deep. From this loving conference she was called away by her nurse, who slept with her, and thought it time for her to be in bed, for it was near to daybreak; but hastily returning, she said three or four words more to Romeo, the purport of which was, that if his love was indeed honourable, and his purpose marriage, she would send a messenger to him tomorrow, to appoint a time for their marriage, when she would lay all her fortunes at his feet, and follow him as her lord through the world. While they were settling this point, Juliet was repeatedly called for by her nurse, and went in and returned, and went and returned again, for she seemed as jealous of Romeo going from her, as a young girl of her bird, which she will let hop a little from her hand, and pluck it back with a silken thread; and Romeo was as loath to part as she; for the sweetest music to lovers is the sound of each other's tongues at night. But at last they parted, wishing mutually sweet sleep and rest for that night.
The day was breaking when they parted, and Romeo, who was too full of thoughts of his mistress and that blessed meeting to allow him to sleep, instead of going home, bent his course to a monastery hard by, to find friar Lawrence. The good friar was already up at his devotions, but seeing young Romeo abroad so early, he conjectured rightly that he had not been abed that night, but that some distemper of youthful affection had kept him waking. He was right in imputing the cause of Romeo's wakefulness to love, but he made a wrong guess at the object, for he thought that his love for Rosaline had kept him waking. But when Romeo revealed his new passion for Juliet, and requested the assistance of the friar to marry them that day, the holy man lifted up his eyes and hands in a sort of wonder at the sudden change in Romeo's affections, for he had been privy to all Romeo's love for Rosaline, and his many complaints of her disdain: and he said, that young men's love lay not truly in their hearts, but in their eyes. But Romeo replying, that he himself had often chidden him for doting on Rosaline, who could not love him again, whereas Juliet both loved and was beloved by him, the friar assented in some measure to his reasons; and thinking that a matrimonial alliance between young Juliet and Romeo might happily be the means of making up the long breach between the Capulets and the Montagues; which no one more lamented than this good friar, who was a friend to both the families and had often interposed his mediation to make up the quarrel without effect; partly moved by policy, and partly by his fondness for young Romeo, to whom he could deny nothing, the old man consented to join their hands in marriage.
Now was Romeo blessed indeed, and Juliet, who knew his intent from a messenger which she had despatched according to promise, did not fail to be early at the cell of friar Lawrence, where their hands were joined in holy marriage; the good friar praying the heavens to smile upon that act, and in the union of this young Montague and young Capulet to bury the old strife and long dissensions of their families.
The ceremony being over, Juliet hastened home, where she stayed impatient for the coming of night, at which time Romeo promised to come and meet her in the orchard, where they had met the night before; and the time between seemed as tedious to her, as the night before some great festival seems to an impatient child, that has got new finery which it may not put on till the morning.
That same day, about noon, Romeo's friends, Benvolio and Mercutio, walking through the streets of Verona, were met by a party of the Capulets with the impetuous Tybalt at their head. This was the same angry Tybalt who would have fought with Romeo at old lord Capulet's feast. He, seeing Mercutio, accused him bluntly of associating with Romeo, a Montague. Mercutio, who had as much fire and youthful blood in him as Tybalt, replied to this accusation with some sharpness; and in spite of all Benvolio could say to moderate their wrath, a quarrel was beginning, when Romeo himself passing that way, the fierce Tybalt turned from Mercutio to Romeo, and gave him the disgraceful appellation of villain. Romeo wished to avoid a quarrel with Tybalt above all men, because he was the kinsman of Juliet, and much beloved by her; besides, this young Montague had never thoroughly entered into the family quarrel, being by nature wise and gentle, and the name of a Capulet, which was his dear lady's name, was now rather a charm to allay resentment, than a watchword to excite fury. So he tried to reason with Tybalt, whom he saluted mildly by the name of good Capulet, as if he, though a Montague, had some secret pleasure in uttering that name: but Tybalt, who hated all Montagues as he hated hell, would hear no reason, but drew his weapon; and Mercutio, who knew not of Romeo's secret motive for desiring peace with Tybalt, but looked upon his present forbearance as a sort of calm dishonourable submission, with many disdainful words provoked Tybalt to the prosecution of his first quarrel with him; and Tybalt and Mercutio fought, till Mercutio fell, receiving his death's wound while Romeo and Benvolio were vainly endeavouring to part the combatants. Mercutio being dead, Romeo kept his temper no longer, but returned the scornful appellation of villain which Tybalt had given him; and they fought till Tybalt was slain by Romeo. This deadly broil failing out in the midst of Verona at noonday, the news of it quickly brought a crowd of citizens to the spot, and among them the old lords Capulet and Montague, with their wives; and soon after arrived the prince himself, who being related to Mercutio, whom Tybalt had slain, and having had the peace of his government often disturbed by these brawls of Montagues and Capulets, came determined to put the law in strictest force against those who should be found to be offenders. Benvolio, who had been eyewitness to the fray, was commanded by the prince to relate the origin of it; which he did, keeping as near the truth as he could without injury to Romeo, softening and excusing the part which his friends took in it. Lady Capulet, whose extreme grief for the loss of her kinsman Tybalt made her keep no bounds in her revenge, exhorted the prince to do strict justice upon his murderer, and to pay no attention to Benvolio's representation, who, being Romeo's friend and a Montague, spoke partially. Thus she pleaded against her new son-in-law, but she knew not yet that he was her son-in-law and Juliet's husband. On the other hand was to be seen Lady Montague pleading for her child's life, and arguing with some justice that Romeo had done nothing worthy of punishment in taking the life of Tybalt, which was already forfeited to the law by his having slain Mercutio. The prince, unmoved by the passionate exclamations of these women, on a careful examination of the facts, pronounced his sentence, and by that sentence Romeo was banished from Verona.
Heavy news to young Juliet, who had been but a few hours a bride, and now by this decree seemed everlastingly divorced! When the tidings reached her, she at first gave way to rage against Romeo, who had slain her dear cousin: she called him a beautiful tyrant, a fiend angelical, a ravenous dove, a lamb with a wolf's nature, a serpent-heart hid with a flowering face, and other like contradictory names, which denoted the struggles in her mind between her love and her resentment: but in the end love got the mastery, and the tears which she shed for grief that Romeo had slain her cousin, turned to drops of joy that her husband lived whom Tybalt would have slain. Then came fresh tears, and they were altogether of grief for Romeo's banishment. That word was more terrible to her than the death of many Tybalts.
Romeo, after the fray, had taken refuge in friar Lawrence's cell, where he was first made acquainted with the prince's sentence, which seemed to him far more terrible than death. To him it appeared there was no world out of Verona's walls, no living out of the sight of Juliet. Heaven was there where Juliet lived, and all beyond was purgatory, torture, hell. The good friar would have applied the consolation of philosophy to his griefs: but this frantic young man would hear of none, but like a madman he tore his hair, and threw himself all along upon the ground, as he said, to take the measure of his grave. From this unseemly state he was roused by a message from his dear lady, which a little revived him; and then the friar took the advantage to expostulate with him on the unmanly weakness which he had shown. He had slain Tybalt, but would he also slay himself, slay his dear lady, who lived but in his life? The noble form of man, he said, was but a shape of wax, when it wanted the courage which should keep it firm. The law had been lenient to him, that instead of death, which he had incurred, had pronounced by the prince's mouth only banishment. He had slain Tybalt, but Tybalt would have slain him: there was a sort of happiness in that. Juliet was alive, and (beyond all hope) had become his dear wife; therein he was most happy. All these blessings, as the friar made them out to be, did Romeo put from him like a sullen misbehaved wench. And the friar bade him beware, for such as despaired, (he said) died miserable. Then when Romeo was a little calmed, he counselled him that he should go that night and secretly take his leave of Juliet, and thence proceed straitways to Mantua, at which place he should sojourn, till the friar found fit occasion to publish his marriage, which might be a joyful means of reconciling their families; and then he did not doubt but the prince would be moved to pardon him, and he would return with twenty times more joy than he went forth with grief. Romeo was convinced by these wise counsels of the friar, and took his leave to go and seek his lady, proposing to stay with her that night, and by daybreak pursue his journey alone to Mantua; to which place the good friar promised to send him letters from time to time, acquainting him with the state of affairs at home.
That night Romeo passed with his dear wife, gaining secret admission to her chamber, from the orchard in which he had heard her confession of love the night before. That had been a night of unmixed joy and rapture; but the pleasures of this night, and the delight which these lovers took in each other's society, were sadly allayed with the prospect of parting, and the fatal adventures of the past day. The unwelcome daybreak seemed to come too soon, and when Juliet heard the morning song of the lark, she would have persuaded herself that it was the nightingale, which sings by night; but it was too truly the lark which sang, and a discordant and unpleasing note it seemed to her; and the streaks of day in the east too certainly pointed out that it was time for these lovers to part. Romeo took his leave of his dear wife with a heavy heart, promising to write to her from Mantua every hour in the day; and when he had descended from her chamber window, as he stood below her on the ground, in that sad foreboding state of mind in which she was, he appeared to her eyes as one dead in the bottom of a tomb. Romeo's mind misgave him in like manner: but now he was forced hastily to depart, for it was death for him to be found within the walls of Verona after daybreak.
This was but the beginning of the tragedy of this pair of star-crossed lovers. Romeo had not been gone many days, before the old lord Capulet proposed a match for Juliet. The husband he had chosen for her, not dreaming that she was married already, was count Paris, a gallant, young, and noble gentleman, no unworthy suitor to the young Juliet, if she had never seen Romeo.
The terrified Juliet was in a sad perplexity at her father's offer. She pleaded her youth unsuitable to marriage, the recent death of Tybalt, which had left her spirits too weak to meet a husband with any face of joy, and how indecorous it would show for the family of the Capulets to be celebrating a nuptial feast, when his funeral solemnities were hardly over: she pleaded every reason against the match, but the true one, namely, that she was married already. But lord Capulet was deaf to all her excuses, and in a peremptory manner ordered her to get ready, for by the following Thursday she should be married to Paris: and having found her a husband, rich, young, and noble, such as the proudest maid in Verona might joyfully accept, he could not bear that out of an affected coyness, as he construed her denial, she should oppose obstacles to her own good fortune.
In this extremity Juliet applied to the friendly friar, always her counsellor in distress, and he asking her if she had resolution to undertake a desperate remedy, and she answering that she would go into the grave alive rather than marry Paris, her own dear husband living; he directed her to go home, and appear merry, and give her consent to marry Paris, according to her father's desire, and on the next night, which was the night before the marriage, to drink off the contents of a phial which he then gave her, the effect of which would be that for two-and-forty hours after drinking it she should appear cold and lifeless; and when the bridegroom came to fetch her in the morning, he would find her to appearance dead; that then she would be borne, as the manner in that country was, uncovered on a bier, to be buried in the family vault; that if she could put off womanish fear, and consent to this terrible trial, in forty-two hours after swallowing the liquid (such was its certain operation) she would be sure to awake, as from a dream; and before she should awake, he would let her husband know their drift, and he should come in the night, and bear her thence to Mantua. Love, and the dread of marrying Paris, gave young Juliet strength to undertake this horrible adventure; and she took the phial of the friar, promising to observe his directions.
Going from the monastery, she met the young count Paris, and modestly dissembling, promised to become his bride. This was joyful news to the lord Capulet and his wife. It seemed to put youth into the old man; and Juliet, who had displeased him exceedingly, by her refusal of the count, was his darling again, now she promised to be obedient. All things in the house were in a bustle against the approaching nuptials. No cost was spared to prepare such festival rejoicings as Verona had never before witnessed.
On the Wednesday night Juliet drank off the potion. She had many misgivings lest the friar, to avoid the blame which might be imputed to him for marrying her to Romeo, had given her poison; but then he was always known for a holy man: then lest she should awake before the time that Romeo was to come for her; whether the terror of the place, a vault of dead Capulets' bones, and where Tybalt, all bloody, lay festering in his shroud, would not be enough to drive her distracted: again she thought of all the stories she had heard of spirits haunting the places where their bodies were bestowed. But then her love for Romeo, and her aversion for Paris returned, and she desperately swallowed the draught, and became insensible.
When young Paris came early in the morning with music to awaken his bride, instead of a living Juliet, her chamber presented the dreary spectacle of a lifeless corpse. What death to his hopes! What confusion then reigned through the whole house! Poor Paris lamenting his bride, whom most detestable death had beguiled him of, had divorced from him even before their hands were joined. But still more piteous it was to hear the mournings of the old lord and lady Capulet, who having but this one, one poor living child to rejoice and solace in, cruel death had snatched her from their sight, just as these careful parents were on the point of seeing her advanced (as they thought) by a promising and advantageous match. Now all things that were ordained for the festival were turned from their properties to do the office of a black funeral. The wedding cheer served for a sad burial feast, the bridal hymns were changed for sullen dirges, the sprightly instruments to melancholy bells, and the flowers that should have been strewed in the bride's path, now served but to strew her corse. Now, instead of a priest to marry her, a priest was needed to bury her; and she was borne to church indeed, not to augment the cheerful hopes of the living, but to swell the dreary numbers of the dead.
Bad news, which always travels faster than good, now brought the dismal story of his Juliet's death to Romeo, at Mantua, before the messenger could arrive, who was sent from friar Lawrence to apprise him that these were mock funerals only, and but the shadow and representation of death, and that his dear lady lay in the tomb but for a short while, expecting when Romeo would come to release her from that dreary mansion. Just before, Romeo had been unusually joyful and lighthearted. He had dreamed in the night that he was dead (a strange dream, that gave a dead man leave to think), and that his lady came and found him dead, and breathed such life with kisses in his lips, that he revived, and was an emperor! And now that a messenger came from Verona, he thought surely it was to confirm some good news which his dreams had presaged. But when the contrary to this flattering vision appeared, and that it was his lady who was dead in truth, whom he could not revive by any kisses, he ordered horses to be gotready, for he determined that night to visit Verona, and to see his lady in her tomb. And as mischief is swift to enter into the thoughts of desperate men, he called to mind a poor apothecary, whose shop in Mantua he had lately passed, and from the beggarly appearance of the man, who seemed famished, and the wretched show in his show of empty boxes ranged on dirty shelves, and other tokens of extreme wretchedness, he had said at the time (perhaps having some misgivings that his own disastrous life might haply meet with a conclusion so desperate),'If a man were to need poison, which by the law of Mantua it is death to sell, here lives a poor wretch who would sell it him. 'These words of his now came into his mind, and he sought out the apothecary, who after some pretended scruples, Romeo offering him gold, which his poverty could not resist, sold him a poison, which, if he swallowed, he told him, if he had the strength of twenty men, would quickly despatch him.
With this poison he set out for Verona, to have a sight of his dear lady in her tomb, meaning, when he had satisfied his sight, to swallow the poison, and be buried by her side. He reached Verona at midnight, and found the churchyard, in the midst of which was situated the ancient tomb of the Capulets. He had provided a light, and a spade, and wrenching iron, and was proceeding to break open the monument, when he was interrupted by a voice, which by the name of vile Montague, bade him desist from his unlawful business. It was the young count Paris, who had come to the tomb of Juliet at that unseasonable time of night, to strew flowers and to weep over the grave of her that should have been 'his bride. He knew not what an interest Romeo had in the dead, but knowing him to be a Montague, and (as he supposed) a sworn foe to all the Capulets, he judged that he was come by night to do some villainous shame to the dead bodies; therefore in an angry tone he bade him desist; and as a criminal, condemned by the laws of Verona to die if he were found within the walls of the city, he would have apprehended him. Romeo urged Paris to leave him, and warned him by the fate of Tybalt, who lay buried there, not to provoke his anger, or draw down another sin upon his head, by forcing him to kill him. But the count in scorn refused his warning, and laid hands on him as a felon, which Romeo resisting, they fought, and Paris fell. When Romeo, by the help of a light, came to see who it was that he had slain, that it was Paris, who (he learned in his way from Mantua) should have married Juliet, he took the dead youth by the hand, as one whom misfortune had made a companion, and said that he would bury him in a triumphal grave, meaning in Juliet's grave, which he now opened: and there lay his lady, as one whom death had no power upon to change a feature or complexion, in her matchless beauty; or as if Death were amorous, and the lean abhorred monster kept her there for his delight; for she lay yet fresh and blooming, as she had fallen to sleep when she swallowed that benumbing potion; and near her lay Tybalt in his bloody shroud, whom Romeo seeing, begged pardon of his lifeless corpse, and for Juliet's sake called him cousin, and said that he was about to do him a favour by putting his enemy to death. Here Romeo took his last leave of his lady's lips, kissing them; and here he shook the burden of his cross stars from his weary body, swallowing that poison which the apothecary had sold him, whose operation was fatal and real, not like that dissembling potion which Juliet had swallowed, the effect of which was now nearly expiring, and she about to awake to Complain that Romeo had not kept his time, or that he had come too soon.
For now the hour was arrived at which the friar had promised that she should awake; and he, having learned that his letters which he had sent to Mantua, by some unlucky detention of the messenger, had never reached Romeo, came himself, provided with the pickaxe and lantern, to deliver the lady from her confinement; but he was surprised to find a light already burning in the Capulets' monument, and to see swords and blood near it, and Romeo and Paris lying breathless by the monument.
Before he could entertain a conjecture, to imagine how these fatal accidents had fallen out, Juliet awoke out of her trance, and seeing the friar near her, she remembered the place where she was, and the occasion of her being there, and asked for Romeo, but the friar, hearing a noise, bade her come out of that place of death, and of unnatural sleep, for a greater power than they could contradict had thwarted their intents; and being frightened by the noise of people coming, he fled: but when Juliet saw the cup closed in her true love's hand, she guessed that poison had been the cause of his end, and she would have swallowed the dregs if any had been left, and she kissed his still warm lips to try if any poison yet did hang upon them; then hearing a nearer noise of people coming, she quickly unsheathed a dagger which she wore, and stabbing herself, died by her true Romeo's side.
The watch by this time had come up to the place. A page belonging to count Paris, who had witnessed the fight between his master and Romeo, had given the alarm, which had spread among the citizens, who went up and down the streets of Verona confusedly exclaiming, A Paris! a Romeo! a Juliet! as the rumour had imperfectly reached them, till the uproar brought lord Montague and lord Capulet out of their beds, with the prince, to inquire into the causes of the disturbance. The friar had been apprehended by some of the watch, coming from the churchyard, trembling, sighing, and weeping, in a suspicious manner. A great multitude being assembled at the Capulets' monument, the friar was demanded by the prince to deliver what he knew of these strange and disastrous accidents.
And there, in the presence of the old lords Montague and Capulet, he faithfully related the story of their children's fatal love, the part he took in promoting their marriage, in the hope in that union to end the long quarrels between their families: how Romeo, there dead, was husband to Juliet; and Juliet, there dead, was Romeo's faithful wife; how before he could find a fit opportunity to divulge their marriage, another match was projected for Juliet, who, to avoid the crime of a second marriage, swallowed the sleeping draught (as he advised), and all thought her dead; how meantime he wrote to Romeo, to come and take her thence when the force of the potion should cease, and by what unfortunate miscarriage of the messenger the letters never reached Romeo; further than this the friar could not follow the story, nor knew more than that coming himself, to deliver Juliet from that place of death, he found the count Paris and Romeo slain. The remainder of the transactions was supplied by the narration of the page who had seen Paris and Romeo fight, and by the servant who came with Romeo from Verona, to whom this faithful lover had given letters to be delivered to his father in the event of his death, which made good the friar's words, confessing his marriage with Juliet, imploring the forgiveness of his parents, acknowledging the buying of the poison of the poor apothecary, and his intent in coming to the monument, to die, and lie with Juliet. All these circumstances agreed together to clear the friar from any hand he could be supposed to have in these complicated slaughters, further than as the unintended consequences of his own well meant, yet too artificial and subtle contrivances.
And the prince, turning to these old lords, Montague and Capulet, rebuked them for their brutal and irrational enmities, and showed them what a scourge Heaven had laid upon such offences, that it had found means even through the love of their children to punish their unnatural hate. And these old rivals, no longer enemies, agreed to bury their long strife in their children's graves; and lord Capulet requested lord Montague to give him his hand, calling him by the name of brother, as if in acknowledgement of the union of their families, by the marriage of the young Capulet and Montague; and saying that lord Montague's hand (in token of reconcilement) was all he demanded for his daughter's jointure: but lord Montague said he would give him more, for he would raise her a statue of pure gold, that while Verona kept its name, no figure should be so esteemed for its richness and workmanship as that of the true and faithful Juliet. And lord Capulet in return said that he would raise another statue to Romeo. So did- these poor old lords, when it was too late, strive to outdo each other in mutual courtesies: while so deadly had been their rage and enmity in past times, that nothing but the fearful overthrow of their children (poor sacrifices to their quarrels and dissensions) could remove the rooted hates and jealousies of the noble families.

2005-08-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

Grace and Holiness II

2005-08-12T13:40:00.000+08:00

How many of us knows the grace of the Lord is lavish and freely given to those who would accept it? But do we also know there is a place which stands a level I would say higher than that of having just grace alone? That is Holiness! yet as much as grace was given by God through His redemptive work on the cross. Holiness comes as a choice just just as much as it is to accept the Lordship of Christ in our lives and we cannot attain salvation by our own of efforts alone, not by works but by His grace taking us in and being His very children. Holiness likewise isnt something we can attain just by choice but in many similiar means to salvation we have to acknowledge we are have sinned and by ourselves are weak. Should we ever choose to justify our own sins, we are but justifying it to the standards of the flesh and in the end we're find that "its-not-so-wrong-after all" to sin.But if we take it to the throne of grace, yes! we are guilty as charged! yet the sentence had very well been paid on the cross of which also our sins had at that very instant been washed by the blood of Jesus. and the outward expression would be that we will share the love of Christ with some one else with zeal. Similiarly when we desire the likeness of Christ in all of His holiness, He will give to us His Holiness
7 " 'Consecrate yourselves and be holy, because I am the LORD your God. 8 Keep my decrees and follow them. I am the LORD, who makes you holy. (leviticus 20: 7,8)

These two verses clearly shows firstly we have to choose holiness to please God by keeping in step with Him and obey Him, then will accept us as living sacrifices pleasing to Him and make us Holy. We must allow God do an internal surgery within us with his utensils consecrated by Him at His altar having laid bare to cut out the cancerous cells of sin growing within us. That which is one the word of God

12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. (Hebrews 4:12)

and when the surgery is an ongoing process and its only through when we meet Christ again with a glorified body. Then at the time of Moses only the priest were allowed into the Holy of Holies. and even so they must do all the ceremonial cleansing on themselves and have themselves offer the necessary sacrifices for the atonement of their sins and the sins of the people. Yet even so, they fear the wrath of the almighty God.
They enter in cautiously hoping they had laid all of themselves together with the sacrificial lamb, they even had to burn the incense, to hide the stench of flesh from God. Now we have the opportunity having access into His presence by the sacrificed blood of Jesus Christ the lamb slain to shed His blood as a covering and He even called us to be His very own!

9But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. (1 Peter 2:9)

We can either choose to be the people who are always coming to the priest to slaughter the lamb in atonement for their sins outside of the Holy of Holies when we already have been called unto Himself at the throne of Grace in all of His Holiness radiating on us that we will reflect Him to our generation? We must step into the level not of just attaining Grace and enter further into His Holiness and be changed from glory to glory within the operating theatre of consuming fire of a Holy God and yet its comforting to know we are in the hands of love who formed us for a purpose and destiny,in a sweet intimate communion with Him. Allowing His beauty to melt away all of our ugliness,bitterness and pain.
Having put us at strategic places of influences whatever our lot may be in society, God has put us where we are to set the standards and not us being the ones who crumble under societal pressures of a generation of which it's morals are crumbling from within it walls,walls and pillars which they have held on to as crutches of security are falling under it's own weight of sin. And God had set us apart a Holy people, a generation laid bare before Himself as a living sacrifice, a broken vessel all pour out to Him and all sold out to Him and We will take the gospel of Christ and shake our nations with the Spirit flowing out from a brokeness of Spirit and dead in flesh to which had been once a box He was often limited to and He will show the people of the nations His Holiness and they will turn to Him, convicted of their sins and they'll recognise their need of God in their lives. The wheels had already been set in motion and God is doing a work to turn the nations back to Himself and He will take that which is consecrated and Holy,set apart and He will use as a vessel.
He is asking us "whom shall I send?"
What is your response to Him? When will we remove our sandals-of which we so afraid of getting our feet dirty. When are gonna let the coal touch our lips- lips that spurts forth the very things indwelt within our hearts. and be a man after the heart of God-Devoted and reliant on the lover of our soul, A heart that desires only to please God the one he loves so much.
A man whose Heart is pure and hands clean, keeping the word of the Lord within His heart so that He will not sin.

All of me none of Christ- None of me and All of Christ

2005-08-10T13:35:00.000+08:00

How often do we put ourselves at the altar wanting to offer all of ourselves to God and find yet we're still very much the same? Tears streaming down our cheeks and eyes all welled up,red and swollen and yet walking outta church fearing that we will fall back into our carnal self. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that,you acknowledged you are very much yourself, frail n weak like every other human capable of sin.We walk back still very much as humans from the altar but we have left a part of ourselves,a decision to fellowship with the almighty God through the communion with His Holy Spirit, He forgives us time and time again for the very reason to have us bring ourselves in an acknowledgement of our need of Him to live through us knowing very well the the self is ever so willful against even to the gentle prompting of the Spirit inside of us.
17For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. (Galatians 5:17)

It is by the recognition of our very own filth and weakness then that we are made strong through Him and in our Lord Jesus. It is an everyday thing to lay own flesh down on the cross of Jesus of whom had carried it first taking for us the yoke of heaviness that which is the very weight of sin, but a yoke that is light which is His righteousness. Not that it is easy to live a holy and upright life from then on but we can stand with such a confidence at the throne of grace, why? because We have the the confidence to come before the throne of grace to ask in all our lack and in all our weaknesses, the strength to stand and with His immeasurable love cast out all fear that is within us of falling back into our sinful nature, we can make a decision to live a Holy life for the glory of God, radiating the very likeness of Christ's Holiness not of one incapable of sinning but one that is capable of not sinning,who knows our every shortcomings and yet His grace will always be sufficient for us. It is a matter of a decision to desire His Holiness in our lives and live it! We have to do what we can do and God will do what we cannot do in this like that of Jesus having to ask the people roll away the stone,something they can do and Jesus did what they can't by raising Lazarus from the dead~ something I learnt from listening to a City Harvest Sermon by Ps Kong Hee. There is a part we have to play in His Kingdom, not working for salvation but We attain our salvation to do great works through Jesus Christ our all in all.
When we are so full of ourselves, it directly implies there is no space for Christ to live in us, when there is still alot leiz....okay there is abit of Him.When there is abit of ourselves, there is more of Him in us but when we put down our the entirety of who we are before God and take our the cross, a decision to put our very self to death and have His Spirit dwell within us, He will not just fill us to our capacity we thought we are made of...the moment we accept the Lordship of Christ and obey Him, put off our old self and put on our new self which is the righteousness of Christ Jesus, redeemed child of the most high God, We'll have an unlimited access into all that He is and has installed for us being poured out in all His power

20Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us ( Ephisians 3:20)

And to think people always equate this approval of God and His anointing on certain people exclusively when actually it is all about you choosing to live a life that is all about JESUS by knowing Him through an intimate relationship He had purposed and called us for and that when exalt Him, He will draw all men to Himself through us His broken vessels for Him to flow through and influence those around us!

CET PRESENTATON

2005-07-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

Luke 20
The Authority of Jesus Questioned
1One day as he was teaching the people in the temple courts and preaching the gospel, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, together with the elders, came up to him. 2"Tell us by what authority you are doing these things," they said. "Who gave you this authority?"
3He replied, "I will also ask you a question. Tell me, 4John's baptism—was it from heaven, or from men?"
5They discussed it among themselves and said, "If we say, 'From heaven,' he will ask, 'Why didn't you believe him?' 6But if we say, 'From men,' all the people will stone us, because they are persuaded that John was a prophet."
7So they answered, "We don't know where it was from."
8Jesus said, "Neither will I tell you by what authority I am doing these things."
The Parable of the Tenants
9He went on to tell the people this parable: "A man planted a vineyard, rented it to some farmers and went away for a long time. 10At harvest time he sent a servant to the tenants so they would give him some of the fruit of the vineyard. But the tenants beat him and sent him away empty-handed. 11He sent another servant, but that one also they beat and treated shamefully and sent away empty-handed. 12He sent still a third, and they wounded him and threw him out.
13"Then the owner of the vineyard said, 'What shall I do? I will send my son, whom I love; perhaps they will respect him.'
14"But when the tenants saw him, they talked the matter over. 'This is the heir,' they said. 'Let's kill him, and the inheritance will be ours.' 15So they threw him out of the vineyard and killed him.
"What then will the owner of the vineyard do to them? 16He will come and kill those tenants and give the vineyard to others." When the people heard this, they said, "May this never be!"
17Jesus looked directly at them and asked, "Then what is the meaning of that which is written: " 'The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone[a]'[b]? 18Everyone who falls on that stone will be broken to pieces, but he on whom it falls will be crushed."
19The teachers of the law and the chief priests looked for a way to arrest him immediately, because they knew he had spoken this parable against them. But they were afraid of the people.
Matthew 21:23-46

The Authority of Jesus Questioned
23Jesus entered the temple courts, and, while he was teaching, the chief priests and the elders of the people came to him. "By what authority are you doing these things?" they asked. "And who gave you this authority?"
24Jesus replied, "I will also ask you one question. If you answer me, I will tell you by what authority I am doing these things. 25John's baptism—where did it come from? Was it from heaven, or from men?"
They discussed it among themselves and said, "If we say, 'From heaven,' he will ask, 'Then why didn't you believe him?' 26But if we say, 'From men'—we are afraid of the people, for they all hold that John was a prophet."
27So they answered Jesus, "We don't know." Then he said, "Neither will I tell you by what authority I am doing these things.
The Parable of the Two Sons
28"What do you think? There was a man who had two sons. He went to the first and said, 'Son, go and work today in the vineyard.'
29" 'I will not,' he answered, but later he changed his mind and went.
30"Then the father went to the other son and said the same thing. He answered, 'I will, sir,' but he did not go.
31"Which of the two did what his father wanted?" "The first," they answered.
Jesus said to them, "I tell you the truth, the tax collectors and the prostitutes are entering the kingdom of God ahead of you. 32For John came to you to show you the way of righteousness, and you did not believe him, but the tax collectors and the prostitutes did. And even after you saw this, you did not repent and believe him.
The Parable of the Tenants
33"Listen to another parable: There was a landowner who planted a vineyard. He put a wall around it, dug a winepress in it and built a watchtower. Then he rented the vineyard to some farmers and went away on a journey. 34When the harvest time approached, he sent his servants to the tenants to collect his fruit.
35"The tenants seized his servants; they beat one, killed another, and stoned a third. 36Then he sent other servants to them, more than the first time, and the tenants treated them the same way. 37Last of all, he sent his son to them. 'They will respect my son,' he said.
38"But when the tenants saw the son, they said to each other, 'This is the heir. Come, let's kill him and take his inheritance.' 39So they took him and threw him out of the vineyard and killed him.
40"Therefore, when the owner of the vineyard comes, what will he do to those tenants?"
41"He will bring those wretches to a wretched end," they replied, "and he will rent the vineyard to other tenants, who will give him his share of the crop at harvest time."
42Jesus said to them, "Have you never read in the Scriptures: " 'The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone[a]; the Lord has done this, and it is marvelous in our eyes'[b]?
43"Therefore I tell you that the kingdom of God will be taken away from you and given to a people who will produce its fruit. 44He who falls on this stone will be broken to pieces, but he on whom it falls will be crushed."[c]
45When the chief priests and the Pharisees heard Jesus' parables, they knew he was talking about them. 46They looked for a way to arrest him, but they were afraid of the crowd because the people held that he was a prophet.

Mark 11:27-12:12

The Authority of Jesus Questioned
27They arrived again in Jerusalem, and while Jesus was walking in the temple courts, the chief priests, the teachers of the law and the elders came to him. 28"By what authority are you doing these things?" they asked. "And who gave you authority to do this?"
29Jesus replied, "I will ask you one question. Answer me, and I will tell you by what authority I am doing these things. 30John's baptism—was it from heaven, or from men? Tell me!"
31They discussed it among themselves and said, "If we say, 'From heaven,' he will ask, 'Then why didn't you believe him?' 32But if we say, 'From men'...." (They feared the people, for everyone held that John really was a prophet.)
33So they answered Jesus, "We don't know." Jesus said, "Neither will I tell you by what authority I am doing these things."
Mark 12
The Parable of the Tenants
1He then began to speak to them in parables: "A man planted a vineyard. He put a wall around it, dug a pit for the winepress and built a watchtower. Then he rented the vineyard to some farmers and went away on a journey. 2At harvest time he sent a servant to the tenants to collect from them some of the fruit of the vineyard. 3But they seized him, beat him and sent him away empty-handed. 4Then he sent another servant to them; they struck this man on the head and treated him shamefully. 5He sent still another, and that one they killed. He sent many others; some of them they beat, others they killed.
6"He had one left to send, a son, whom he loved. He sent him last of all, saying, 'They will respect my son.'
7"But the tenants said to one another, 'This is the heir. Come, let's kill him, and the inheritance will be ours.' 8So they took him and killed him, and threw him out of the vineyard.
9"What then will the owner of the vineyard do? He will come and kill those tenants and give the vineyard to others. 10Haven't you read this scripture: " 'The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone[a]; 11the Lord has done this, and it is marvelous in our eyes'[b]?"
12Then they looked for a way to arrest him because they knew he had spoken the parable against them. But they were afraid of the crowd; so they left him and went away.
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Target audiences of
i) Matthew : Mainly were the Jews and Jesus as being their awaited messiah and secondarily also to the gentiles
ii) Mark : Mainly to the Gentiles in Rome
iii) Luke : Mainly to the gentiles but also to the believers in the early church through correspondence with Theophilus as like to the book of Acts. Theophilus was as most theologians suppose a Roman official or in the upper echelons of society then responsible to have seen into the copying n distribution of the written gospel by Luke

The teachers of the law, chief priests and elders (KJV interchanged teachers of the law as being scribes) and scribes then held judicial powers then given as in tradition to sit in Sanhedrin and later independent legislative positions in the synagogues* apprehended Jesus and asked by whose authority is He doing these things
-incognizant of Jesus’s ministry and deity being the very son of God despite having even seen miracles performed
-scrutinized and skeptically saw Jesus’s ministry as being unorthodox to that of the law being in contrast and
blesphemic when in actual fact Jesus came to fulfill the law and not abolish it (Matthew 5:17)

Jesus used then what was familiar to them in reply to their confrontation by asking “30John's baptism—was it from heaven, or from men?
John’s baptism was as that of the traditional Jewish ceremonial cleansing albeit the teaching into the Messianic coming of the Lord Jesus and baptized the people into “repentance” and to prepare ye the way for the Lord …. Matt 3:3 thus it was on one hand a written law of ceremonial cleansing and from whom did the law come from? God , yet also had in itself the messianic promise of the Lord Jesus coming to save. No indication otherwise that John’s baptism was from man.

From there Jesus proved His point on a basis that these teachers of the law, are people pleasing and yet they knew the people were for John being a Prophet of God and that the baptism came from God interchangeably used with the term ‘Heaven’, and somehow or rather there is nothing substantiating baptism being that which is from man. Yet if they were to reply saying John’s baptism was from Heaven, why then are they not listening to Jesus who is also sent down from God which then brings them down to the following parable of the wicked tenants.

Since most commentators describe the parable being an allegory to depict the rejection of Jesus’ s authority being sent by the Father and well instead that He being the very son whom was supposed to be respected, and to claim that due allegiance back having the tenants recognize they’re indebted to the Lordship of the Father, He was beaten and killed for what they thought would earn themselves the inheritance, whereas that sought allegiance in claiming the fruits of the vineyard to which they were leased on the count of privileges, and a return of it will be required of them in portions from their produce were called upon by the servants sent also by the Father and yet they were mistreated and beaten, thrown out without the return of allegiance they called to claim for. That being the very prophets like John the Baptist. If they rejected John who was sent by the Father, and He knew they’ll reject Him likewise and kill Him to satisfy themselves in the religion they’re in without opposition as their presumed inheritance, the Abrahamic covenant. Yet with their rejection of the son and having killed Him. 9"What then will the owner of the vineyard do? He will come and kill those tenants and give the vineyard to others. Others many suppose will have to be the gentiles as the Gospel of Matthew hits this parable with two additional parables. The Two sons which points out the distinction of the teachers of the law having known the law, yet not obeying but the sinners whom were in their lower social caste whom they called sinners initially rejecting the Law but turned and followed .prior to the parable tenants and the Wedding Banquet depicting the many who were called into His kingdom but not all were clothed in some would say His righteousness (Unless your righteousness surpasses that of the Pharisees, you will not enter the Kingdom of Heaven), to be in the banquet .that was all before which, Mark and Luke whose main recipients were mainly gentiles who felt need not to make so much that comparison. But in this case here, it’s a matter of giving the due allegiance and accept the authority of Jesus.

It went on further yet with the Builders rejecting the stone which eventually became the capstone.
The Capstone which is mostly also interchangeable as being the chief cornerstone. That cornerstone analogy , If I can co-relate to some of the epistles of Peter and Paul.

1 Peter 2:4-10
The Living Stone and a Chosen People
4As you come to him, the living Stone—rejected by men but chosen by God and precious to him— 5you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. 6For in Scripture it says: "See, I lay a stone in Zion, a chosen and precious cornerstone, and the one who trusts in him will never be put to shame."[a] 7Now to you who believe, this stone is precious. But to those who do not believe, "The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone,[b]"[c] 8and, "A stone that causes men to stumble and a rock that makes them fall."[d] They stumble because they disobey the message—which is also what they were destined for.
9But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 10Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy
Ephesians 2:11-22
One in Christ
11Therefore, remember that formerly you who are Gentiles by birth and called "uncircumcised" by those who call themselves "the circumcision" (that done in the body by the hands of men)— 12remember that at that time you were separate from Christ, excluded from citizenship in Israel and foreigners to the covenants of the promise, without hope and without God in the world. 13But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.
14For he himself is our peace, who has made the two one and has destroyed the barrier, the dividing wall of hostility, 15by abolishing in his flesh the law with its commandments and regulations. His purpose was to create in himself one new man out of the two, thus making peace, 16and in this one body to reconcile both of them to God through the cross, by which he put to death their hostility. 17He came and preached peace to you who were far away and peace to those who were near. 18For through him we both have access to the Father by one Spirit.
19Consequently, you are no longer foreigners and aliens, but fellow citizens with God's people and members of God's household, 20built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, with Christ Jesus himself as the chief cornerstone. 21In him the whole building is joined together and rises to become a holy temple in the Lord. 22And in him you too are being built together to become a dwelling in which God lives by his Spirit.

These two I think quite puts everything together that Christ is that Chief Cornerstone by which we are to lay ourselves in unison with Him, and submit ourselves to His authority in that being set proper as being God’s people. The fonts highlighted in blue does suggest having the recipients as gentiles being also called God’s people and His Children. Because these terms ‘God’s people’ and having to introduce The Father’ concept to the gentiles is somewhat foreign but telling them that this relationship is given to us by His Spirit that had reconciled us into sonship being heirs and co-heirs with Jesus Christ.
But to those who reject him and undermine His authority as being from the Father, or tries to in His own righteousness stand in His own will fall and break or crushed under His judgment as some commentators put it. I’d say it has not altogether be on the point of being gentile or Jew but a beseech or appeal to accept Jesus’ s authority from the Father.

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Footnotes:

i) The son being sent in the parable of the tenants does suggest for some theologians that He is the last line of hope to claim the revenue, or the last appeal before the owner pass out His judgment on the tenants
ii) To the parts where the servants were sent prior to the son, the prophets to claim back His due allegiance from the People ;
Luke 11:47-52
47Woe unto you! for ye build the sepulchres of the prophets, and your fathers killed them.
48Truly ye bear witness that ye allow the deeds of your fathers: for they indeed killed them, and ye build their sepulchres.
49Therefore also said the wisdom of God, I will send them prophets and apostles, and some of them they shall slay and persecute:
50That the blood of all the prophets, which was shed from the foundation of the world, may be required of this generation;
51From the blood of Abel unto the blood of Zacharias which perished between the altar and the temple: verily I say unto you, It shall be required of this generation.
52Woe unto you, lawyers! for ye have taken away the key of knowledge: ye entered not in yourselves, and them that were entering in ye hindered.
iii) In reference to the Thomson chain bible, its noted that on all of these gospels, the parable of the tenants is believed to be on the same sitting.

Attitude of Worship

2005-06-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

20.06.2005
My unbelieving colleague asked me "everytime you all go church do wad uh?"
My apt reply was "worship God lo"
and to that he queried further asking "how do you worship God?"
and again I responded with another apt reply "pray lo...sing song lo"
now he comment with "so Jacky Chueng and Aaron kwok also worshipping God lah since they're also singing songs"

That hit me for awhile realising that sometimes many of us are so caught up with just singing nice songs and not give the glory to whom the songs were composed n sung for,Jesus. When we're so caught up with how nice songs, we're glorifying the people who composed the songs and sang it...and singing along makes things no difference making church and K-box alike just that our songs have the words God in them.Well secular songs too are coming out with songs with the word God in them too with a misconception that He is a girl so we who say "ya la ya la...I know la..." really know God? and some will say "sing only mah, later I pray also worship God wad", well there is a time for prayer and therez a time to worship God with our singing,thatz not worship!

21Jesus declared, "Believe me, woman, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. 22You Samaritans worship what you do not know; we worship what we do know, for salvation is from the Jews. 23Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. 24God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth." (John 4:21-24

Jesus knew that the Jews were so caught up with religion and legalism,but though they know in their religion they know who they're worshipping, theyre hearts are not in the right place and Jesus was telling the samaritan woman of the opening of doors that we do not need a place of worship confined on the mountain where I can say itz their "church". But even in Jerusalem,the jew supposedly His own people in their "churches" just couldnt accept Jesus but cling on to the religion they have so tightly that their worship was no doubt to God but God was in their midst yet they couldnt recognise cause they're just worshipping to God in religion and not in a relationship.

So then I ask, Are we really worshipping?what qualifies then to be called worship?
what does worshipping in spirit and in truth mean to you?

How many of us wants revival ??? Whats gonna be of the upcoming healing rally?

2005-06-11T22:43:00.000+08:00

People in recent believe I have the gift of healing and evangelism...well you know what I believe? I believe that when the Holy Spirit comes in His full measure and fills the atmosphere around us, Healing I would say is a physical manisfestation. But He is going to cut deep into each one of us with His Holiness when His glory fall in our midst.And that each one of us are His temples,the church in each one of us has to be dealt by God first,and minister to Him in our intimacy with God. WE MUST SEEK GOD'S FACE. God spoke to me when I was in my early teens,"Would you seek my face even you know you'll die seeing Me cos nobody can see God's face and live" .
Talk about if looks could kill...This was very much confirmed when I was reading 'God Chasers'.Are we going seek God even if we know we're gonna die to our flesh? We Singaporeans not only are Kiasu but Kia si... so self-preserving.
When we seek God,He will deal with us and He'll put to death the misdeeds of our sinful nature that hides itself together with our instincts that we actually NEED to live on it,thatz where I reiterate to a previous blog entry asking ourselves as to what we are feeding ourselves with.Our sinful nature has that self defense mechanism that when we chose to break away from it,it lets out itz out-stretched tentacles to bind us back from repentence. But when we acknowledge we are weak and call on God, He is faithful,We'll see whose arms are longer out-stretched to lift us up and embrace us with His love. We have to remain therefore in His love and let it renew,revive reconcile our relationships and bring us to repentence.
If we want a breakthrough,We have to come before God broken a vessel for Him to work through. This verse hit me recently :
12Who can understand his errors? cleanse thou me from secret faults.

13Keep back thy servant also from presumptuous sins; let them not have dominion over me: then shall I be upright, and I shall be innocent from the great transgression.

14Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer. (Psalms 19:12-14 KJV)

David, A man after God's heart understood that God was His strength and His Lord. Lord to Him meant God had a governing and authorative rulership over His life and that God just wanted Him to live that holy life but David acknowledged that God would also grant Him the strength to and He knew God was His redeemer, I guess He knew His decendent would redeem the world with His blood. Well,what does it look like to you the relationship between God and David for God to say David was man after His heart.
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I say that the church's upcoming rally will be like any average service,maybe a lil betta than normal...now we are optimistic and are expectant cos we need God to meet our needs there. why there? unless we are going to seek God's face and let ourselves melt in His Holiness,the rally will be as like any service,a lil hype for a while, and gradually itz gone with the wind. But if we are going to seek God's with such a zealous heart and fall in such intimacy with God and know His heart,His consuming fire will be in us,when the wind blows, the fire spreads!!! People will be affected by Him in you cause they can feel the heat wave.It'll tug on their hearts that whateva that isnt of God in them will be consumed and they will just fall in the presence of a Holy God.The ark of the covenant was carried by the priests!!! and we are His Royal pristhood to Minister before the Lord.
Remember that it was in the period when Samuel was ministering before the Lord that He let Samuel hear His voice and revealed His Heart's cry to Him. Ministering isn't what we always think is serving in a ministry.Ministering before God is a sweet communion, a deep intimacy with the Lord.We have to minister before the Lord and then can we minister to the people.A ministry is birthed from ministering and being ministered to by the lord.

Thailand Mission Trip

2005-06-09T02:10:00.000+08:00

I was away at Chiang Rai,Thailand during the past six days. The Royal Rangers and Bethel Children Ministry conducted programs for the kids there. But for me,It was like a personal retreat with God. There were times I quietly or as cantonese put it "kwai kwai shui shui" go to the room when we sleep to just spend time in God's presence. And many things are just unveiled and confirmed what God had been speaking to me in a book Im presently reading entitled 'God Chasers' apart from 'Angels and Demaons' and 'The Da Vinci Code' of which Im concurrently reading also.
The very feature I longed so much for in the program was the altar call for the kids.
I just cant help but tears just flowed down my cheeks when these children responded in coming forward for the altar call whether be it to receive salvation, healing or dedicate themselves to the Lord in service to Him. These verse came to mind :
16But Jesus called the children to him and said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. 17I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." (Luke 18:16,17)
These children are I would say like the children of Jesus's time.They simply craved for Jesus to touch them.There is absolutely nothing else they want in this world but God alone because He is all they ever have and He is their everything. For us leiz, We really want to draw near to God, but so many things just quenches that hunger with a counterfeit sense of fullness, of what? U tell me man!!! We burnt ourselves out only to still again ritualise church,taste abit of God's goodness and off we are to see what the world has to offer.All it has to give to you is a whole new vicious cycle to continue with in a program-filled sunday. GOD DOESN"T WANT US TO KEEP SEEKING WHAT HE CAN DO FOR US,HE WANTS US TO SEEK HIS FACE EVEN IF IT MEANS TO DIE BECAUSE NOBODY CAN SEE GOD AND LIVE. DIE TO OURSELVES BEFORE HIM!!!
If we really want revival...Seek God and not the revival!! We want revival cause we think revival is a Holy Spirit-come-touch-me-thing and itz all about sensationalism.
Yes! no doubt Revival is about coming to touch us,it is about God's manifested presence coming onto the very place where we are and convicting every heart of itz sin, whether be it a christian or not. When God's presence falls in all itz glory, people cannot stand but fall to their knees in awe before a Holy God in repentence.
And God wants to fall where His temple is open to Him of whom we are His very temples. God is gonna break out of the ark of the covanent,and touch His people.
His temple Has got to be one whose temple has a torn curtain between the Holy Place and the Holies of Holies. A broken Spirit is the torn curtain which is the avenue to having God's manifested presence radiating from us,A Holy Spirit revival has gotta began with us acknowledging we can never ever, ever,ever and ever get enough.We cannot carry God on our carts. God put rings on the ark of the covanent for a reason, and though we think God is irrational all the time,it is us who is irrational to use carts to carry God's presence.God put rings on the ark so you can have yourselves put in him with a rod through the holes and carry it.the carts we tried to keep using as our primary vehicle to move God's presence will kill us like Uzzah who touched the ark to keep it from falling. We just trust God's design of the ark. The cart could be the programs we have in church that we think will carry God's presence, It'll give way to circumstance like it did hitting a point where God wants out! Outta the box! We see God in the box all the time and call on Him on our every whim and fancy. Eh..Whos God? We are to be the vessels of honour carrying His glory and giving Him the glory to touch people's lives.
Let us simply be as children seeking the Father's touch. Joseph had a sense of security in his position in God and in his father's confidence and love in him and desired to be holy for God that made him rule of Egypt.Moses took the burning bush experience and brought the Israelites outta Egypt,not just a taste His presence like we would durian,savouring every bit of it even on our fingers yet when we are to plant the seeds after tasting itz goodness,We throw away the seeds. How much more is God than durians? doesnt having tasted His love and in all itz goodness make us want to sow the seeds to bear more of His Goodness and letting others taste of His love and goodness as well?

Please Pray for me

2005-06-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

25Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

Please pray for me that God will give me the strength and self control in my walk so that as I write what God wants me to, I will not just put down the 'know-how-tos' and live otherwise which will disqualify me.pray that I'll not be proud and that all that I seek will be to give God the glory. And I need a unsatiable hunger and thrist for God.

Segregationistic approach answered ...

2005-06-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

I wonder why our very nature carries in itself doubt and disbelief that God wants to work through us instead of us having to strive, strive to prove our self worth, strive to please God, strive to please people, strive to attain success.
Need we strive like the world does?Need we prove anything?Need we do things by ourselves when God has sent the Holy Spirit? We see working ourselves crazy and say itz reality that we are what we make of ourselves and thatz it...We just somehow think that we have to get by the thing called 'life' by our means and when the going really gets a lil too tough we throw in the towel and thatz when we let God handle the problem. Eh...who do you think God is? Your servant uh? call Him, He come liddat izzit? When life relac relac...wherez God? *shrugs*. Yes, God will intervene when we admit we cant do it but the fact is we really cant do anything by ourselves! We say we solved so many of own problems sometimes wad not that I cant do anything wad! Have you looked carefully whose footprints were in the sand through those times? He carried you through and you thought, I did it!!! the 'I' factor always pops up.
And God waits patiently..."When will my children know that I love them with an unconditional love?you really do not need to do anything to prove yourselves. Why do they speak of Grace and not know My hand is outstretched to work through them in ALL circumstances.Just Let your Father fix the kite He bought with the price of His son,Itz only because of His Son we have a relationship through the Holy Spirit to become sons of God,You just need to thrust (trust) the kite up and the wind takes it higher and Your Father is pleased to see His handiwork in motion as the kite goes higher with Him in control of it and you just hold on together with Him,and you enjoy the benefits". The kite flying trip is like our relationship with God.The kite represents our lives that God gives to us. We can either choose to fix the kite alone or let your Father fix it for you and who is going to take control of it.Our Father too is the wind that takes us up with Him and all we have to do is trust our lives in His hands and take control of it, the string is our very attitude and confidence in God our heavenly Father, the measure of faith to take us higher when He is in control not holding back an inch. but a full surrender! but if We think we can maintain our kites with a confidence in ourselves we can fly much higher? We might have to go through the school of hard knocks of kite flying which will tell us that our Father is always right.
That may not be the best of an analogy but the point Im getting at is that we do not have to do do do...Jesus said done! and by that we who believe that God so love us enough to give up His only son for a sinful person such as myself,and all I have to do is acknowledge Jesus as my LORD and SAVIOUR redeeming my life with His own and conquering sin,sickness and death by His resurrection. We claim God's Lordship over our lives and whatever that is ours are now His, and we are indebted to Him. Why then do we think we have a life of our own? why do we think there is a distinction between God and reality of life of which we have to earn merit of to attain acceptence and prove ourselves,and face life out on our own...God created the very reality of kinsship made for us so that we do not have to prove anything of ourselves for Him to love us. We have to ask ourselves what was the experience of our salvation like when we accepted Jesus into our lives... I certainly hope it wasn't about fear of going to hell that cause us to impulsively make that decision.
We have to take up our crosses by laying down of ourselves and crucifying it with Jesus everyday. Meaning to surrender all that we are with Jesus and we will be quickened by His Holy Spirit who raised Jesus,complete in us His purpose and reveal to us an identity idiosyncratic to the very meritocracy of our societal demands.
We are His Children, not longer slaves to sin and the law or even to these meritocratic principles and We are simply to live,imitating Christ as dearly loved children as we have received the Spirit of sonship.

Just another sermon-like blog

2005-06-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

If the title turns you off...You might as well not continue reading from here and you know what?I very much encourage you not to read anymore of my blogs cos they'll be like the very one Im to write about.

Have you ever felt if you are going the motion everyday? and yes,even to church...
AH! Im sure we've had many a time heard the pastor preaching about going through the very mere motions and exsistence of our very lives,we've stepped up for altar expecting a radical change to our lives in a instant which we blatantly say "it does not come as an overnight thing" which is of course itz true but we just dont get the change we want cos our hunger for God was satisfied at that very moment at the altar but as soon as we walk away from the altar, we have to build our very own altars before the Lord and just remain hungry for His awesome presence and acknowledge our ABSOLUTE need of HIM. If not, what then is feeding us? why don't we feel that hunger we feel only when we are in church? Because we allow the things not of God to feed us and we thought we are full...We are being fed with emptiness that creates a counterfeit fullness,but far from the truth, it creates only a vacuum only to be fed the very next day with the very same what I would call 'crap' of which I too am being filled with if I allow myself to be fed anything but the 'Bread Of Life'.

35Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty. 36But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe. 37All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. 38For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. 39And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all that he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. 40For my Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day."

41At this the Jews began to grumble about him because he said, "I am the bread that came down from heaven." 42They said, "Is this not Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How can he now say, 'I came down from heaven'?"

43"Stop grumbling among yourselves," Jesus answered. 44"No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him, and I will raise him up at the last day. 45It is written in the Prophets: 'They will all be taught by God.' Everyone who listens to the Father and learns from him comes to me. 46No one has seen the Father except the one who is from God; only he has seen the Father. 47I tell you the truth, he who believes has everlasting life. 48I am the bread of life. 49Your forefathers ate the manna in the desert, yet they died. 50But here is the bread that comes down from heaven, which a man may eat and not die. 51I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world."

52Then the Jews began to argue sharply among themselves, "How can this man give us his flesh to eat?"

53Jesus said to them, "I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. 54Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day. 55For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink. 56Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me, and I in him. 57Just as the living Father sent me and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live because of me. 58This is the bread that came down from heaven. Your forefathers ate manna and died, but he who feeds on this bread will live forever." 59He said this while teaching in the synagogue in Capernaum.
(John 6:35-59)

We need to be fed on Him and He shall satisfy our every need cos He is all that we need. I understand people really likes to believe that but the subtlity of the secular intrusiveness into our lives creating a fear of uncertainty which tells us God as our SOLE & ABSOLUTE need is absurbity.

44"No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him....
We can by no means come to God except through the calling of His son, Jesus Christ.
He has already called us unto Himself through His outstretched arms on the cross and embraced us with His love so great tho intolerable of sin, became sin for us and resurrected in power conquering it.So when we confess of our sins, and ask for His forgiveness, He takes the very sin and nails to the cross on calvary,back to very moment Hez was on the cross of which it is no more when He rose from dead in power and by that is Justification,and sanctification as itz continuing work for our ever sinful nature,His Faithfulness will embrace us in acceptence and the Helper,the Holy Spirit will guide us into all righteousness.

16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. (Hebrews 4:16)

With all that love shed upon us by His blood,covering us with His righteousness...
Do we still want to satisfy ourselves with sinful gratifications? at times I feel Im writing all these about myself but the Holy Spirit teaches me with such patience that I feel compelled by His mercy to help people who are bounded by self-guilt.
Now He that Hungers and thirsts after God and His righteousness found only in Christ shall be filled. and by that We now come also to the understanding that God is my righteousness.lemme reiterate a lil here : He that became sin for us now has become our righteousness. Let us Hunger for His touch everyday cos WE NEED HIS PRESENCE! and let Him feed us and satisfy us with His love which is the only thing we ever need where nothing else matters more than to dwell and listen to His gentle voice.
We cannot draw ourselves to Him cause we can't come to Him by our own efforts no matter how hard we try. All we need is yield ourselves helplessly and cease striving,acknowledge that I cannot live a righteous life on my own and I cant please God.Itz only when hunger, and thrist in desperation my need of Him.
witholding self-sufficiency is pride and God opposes the proud but gives grace to the Humble. We can do nothing apart from Him so He is telling us to place our entire dependency on Him. I believe that when Jesus said greater things shall you do in my name is possible why? It is done in JESUS name and all glory belongs to Him. He is our all in all...take up His yoke for itz light and give to Him your heavy laden, He will give you rest and strengthen you as we wait on Him.His Holy spirit is all powerful and He is more real than the air we breathe, more real than our very exsistence if we ever tried thought within ourselves segregating reality and God our only hope and dependence.

21 When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,

22 I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.

24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.

26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

27 Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.

28 But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.

(Psalms 73:21-28)

Thank God

2005-05-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

I was changing a flourescent tube at work today and a jolt of eletricity went right thru me then the MCB tripped

Building an Altar

2005-05-19T18:00:00.000+08:00

AWESOME IN THIS PLACE
As I come into Your presence
Past the gates of praise
Into Your sanctuary
Till we're standing face to face
I look upon Your countenance
I see the fullness of Your grace
And I can only bow down and say

You are awesome in this place
Mighty God
You are awesome in this place
Abba Father;
You are worthy of all praise
To You our lives we raise
You are awesome in this place
Mighty God
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What is the signifance of the the altar call?
In that we have to look at the O.T and we'll see in what circumstances do people build an altar before the Lord.

People build an altar of:
.acknowledging God's sovereignity (pre,mid post war) 1 Again the Israelites did evil in the eyes of the LORD, and for seven years he gave them into the hands of the Midianites. 2 Because the power of Midian was so oppressive, the Israelites prepared shelters for themselves in mountain clefts, caves and strongholds. 3 Whenever the Israelites planted their crops, the Midianites, Amalekites and other eastern peoples invaded the country. 4 They camped on the land and ruined the crops all the way to Gaza and did not spare a living thing for Israel, neither sheep nor cattle nor donkeys. 5 They came up with their livestock and their tents like swarms of locusts. It was impossible to count the men and their camels; they invaded the land to ravage it. 6 Midian so impoverished the Israelites that they cried out to the LORD for help.
7 When the Israelites cried to the LORD because of Midian, 8 he sent them a prophet, who said, "This is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says: I brought you up out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. 9 I snatched you from the power of Egypt and from the hand of all your oppressors. I drove them from before you and gave you their land. 10 I said to you, 'I am the LORD your God; do not worship the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you live.' But you have not listened to me."

11 The angel of the LORD came and sat down under the oak in Ophrah that belonged to Joash the Abiezrite, where his son Gideon was threshing wheat in a winepress to keep it from the Midianites. 12 When the angel of the LORD appeared to Gideon, he said, "The LORD is with you, mighty warrior."

13 "But sir," Gideon replied, "if the LORD is with us, why has all this happened to us? Where are all his wonders that our fathers told us about when they said, 'Did not the LORD bring us up out of Egypt?' But now the LORD has abandoned us and put us into the hand of Midian."

14 The LORD turned to him and said, "Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian's hand. Am I not sending you?"

15 "But Lord , [a] " Gideon asked, "how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family."

16 The LORD answered, "I will be with you, and you will strike down all the Midianites together."

17 Gideon replied, "If now I have found favor in your eyes, give me a sign that it is really you talking to me. 18 Please do not go away until I come back and bring my offering and set it before you."
And the LORD said, "I will wait until you return."

19 Gideon went in, prepared a young goat, and from an ephah [b] of flour he made bread without yeast. Putting the meat in a basket and its broth in a pot, he brought them out and offered them to him under the oak.

20 The angel of God said to him, "Take the meat and the unleavened bread, place them on this rock, and pour out the broth." And Gideon did so. 21 With the tip of the staff that was in his hand, the angel of the LORD touched the meat and the unleavened bread. Fire flared from the rock, consuming the meat and the bread. And the angel of the LORD disappeared. 22 When Gideon realized that it was the angel of the LORD, he exclaimed, "Ah, Sovereign LORD! I have seen the angel of the LORD face to face!"

23 But the LORD said to him, "Peace! Do not be afraid. You are not going to die."

24 So Gideon built an altar to the LORD there and called it The LORD is Peace. To this day it stands in Ophrah of the Abiezrites.

25 That same night the LORD said to him, "Take the second bull from your father's herd, the one seven years old. [c] Tear down your father's altar to Baal and cut down the Asherah pole [d] beside it. 26 Then build a proper kind of [e] altar to the LORD your God on the top of this height. Using the wood of the Asherah pole that you cut down, offer the second [f] bull as a burnt offering."

27 So Gideon took ten of his servants and did as the LORD told him. But because he was afraid of his family and the men of the town, he did it at night rather than in the daytime.

28 In the morning when the men of the town got up, there was Baal's altar, demolished, with the Asherah pole beside it cut down and the second bull sacrificed on the newly built altar!

29 They asked each other, "Who did this?"
When they carefully investigated, they were told, "Gideon son of Joash did it."

30 The men of the town demanded of Joash, "Bring out your son. He must die, because he has broken down Baal's altar and cut down the Asherah pole beside it."

.Praise and Thanksgiving ; (Leviticus 7:13-15) 13 Along with his fellowship offering of thanksgiving he is to present an offering with cakes of bread made with yeast. 14 He is to bring one of each kind as an offering, a contribution to the LORD; it belongs to the priest who sprinkles the blood of the fellowship offerings. 15 The meat of his fellowship offering of thanksgiving must be eaten on the day it is offered; he must leave none of it till morning.

.Sacrifice ; (Genesis 22:1-19)
1 Some time later God tested Abraham. He said to him, "Abraham!"
"Here I am," he replied.
2 Then God said, "Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about."

3 Early the next morning Abraham got up and saddled his donkey. He took with him two of his servants and his son Isaac. When he had cut enough wood for the burnt offering, he set out for the place God had told him about. 4 On the third day Abraham looked up and saw the place in the distance. 5 He said to his servants, "Stay here with the donkey while I and the boy go over there. We will worship and then we will come back to you."

6 Abraham took the wood for the burnt offering and placed it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife. As the two of them went on together, 7 Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, "Father?"
"Yes, my son?" Abraham replied.
"The fire and wood are here," Isaac said, "but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?"

8 Abraham answered, "God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son." And the two of them went on together.

9 When they reached the place God had told him about, Abraham built an altar there and arranged the wood on it. He bound his son Isaac and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. 10 Then he reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. 11 But the angel of the LORD called out to him from heaven, "Abraham! Abraham!"
"Here I am," he replied.

12 "Do not lay a hand on the boy," he said. "Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son."

13 Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram [a] caught by its horns. He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son. 14 So Abraham called that place The LORD Will Provide. And to this day it is said, "On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided."

15 The angel of the LORD called to Abraham from heaven a second time 16 and said, "I swear by myself, declares the LORD, that because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, 17 I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will take possession of the cities of their enemies, 18 and through your offspring [b] all nations on earth will be blessed, because you have obeyed me."

19 Then Abraham returned to his servants, and they set off together for Beersheba. And Abraham stayed in Beersheba

.to enter into God's presence or after having an encounter with the Lord and establishing a place of God's residence ;
(Exodus 30:1-6) 1 "Make an altar of acacia wood for burning incense. 2 It is to be square, a cubit long and a cubit wide, and two cubits high [a] —its horns of one piece with it. 3 Overlay the top and all the sides and the horns with pure gold, and make a gold molding around it. 4 Make two gold rings for the altar below the molding—two on opposite sides—to hold the poles used to carry it. 5 Make the poles of acacia wood and overlay them with gold. 6 Put the altar in front of the curtain that is before the ark of the Testimony—before the atonement cover that is over the Testimony—where I will meet with you.

(Genesis 12:7-9)7 The LORD appeared to Abram and said, "To your offspring [a] I will give this land." So he built an altar there to the LORD, who had appeared to him.
8 From there he went on toward the hills east of Bethel and pitched his tent, with Bethel on the west and Ai on the east. There he built an altar to the LORD and called on the name of the LORD. 9 Then Abram set out and continued toward the Negev.

(Exodus 20:24,25) 24 " 'Make an altar of earth for me and sacrifice on it your burnt offerings and fellowship offerings, [a] your sheep and goats and your cattle. Wherever I cause my name to be honored, I will come to you and bless you. 25 If you make an altar of stones for me, do not build it with dressed stones, for you will defile it if you use a tool on it.

.Atonement of sins and consecration of one's self ; (Exodus 29:35-37)
35 "Do for Aaron and his sons everything I have commanded you, taking seven days to ordain them. 36 Sacrifice a bull each day as a sin offering to make atonement. Purify the altar by making atonement for it, and anoint it to consecrate it. 37 For seven days make atonement for the altar and consecrate it. Then the altar will be most holy, and whatever touches it will be holy.

(Exodus 29:44)"So I will consecrate the Tent of Meeting and the altar and will consecrate Aaron and his sons to serve me as priests
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What is the one common thing involved as a sacrifice at each of these altars?
sacrifices of blood of animals right?
Each one of us can enter into God's presence with confidence as we have the very blood of the lamb shed on us,clothing us with His righteousness and cleansing us with His blood. And because we are covered by the blood of Jesus Christ, We can build our altars and appreciate God for sending His only son for us.By His blood,we become God's children,By His blood we can be a carrier of God's presence and by His blood we can claim God's promises and inheritance.There is power in His blood to cleanse, to heal and to set free.When Jesus died, His blood was shed to cleanse us and cover us, the stripes He took was to heal us and when He rose again He conquered death and sin,setting us free from the bondage of sin. To sin is to deny the power of Christ's death on the cross putting to death of our sinful nature which is in the flesh and the power of His blood that was shed.It is when we confess our sins and our need of Him,He says He is faithful and just and will forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness,that being our very need of God and accepting the power of the blood with faith and entering into God's throne of Grace,we have an identity to which His Holy Spirit enables us to be God's children. The Holy Spirit enables us to please the Father as He is the helper as Jesus put it... Jesus being in the very nature fully man and fully God is our mediator who intercedes on our behalf

(Romans 8:31-34) 31What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.

24but because Jesus lives forever, he has a permanent priesthood. 25Therefore he is able to save completely[a] those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them.
(Job 16;20)20 My intercessor is my friend
as my eyes pour out tears to God;

(Hebrews 7:24-26) 26Such a high priest meets our need—one who is holy, blameless, pure, set apart from sinners, exalted above the heavens.

(Hebrew 4:15)15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin.

Wondered why God doesn't want the altar's stones to be cut? our efforts to make the altar presentable isn't necessary.What is necessary is offering then ourselves as living sacrifices because we are His sheep that the shepherd laid down His life for,so now spotless and without blemish not by our own efforts by the blood of the Jesus that has made us Holy
(Romans 12:1) 1Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship.

We can now build our altars and present ourselves to God by the blood of Jesus the sacrificial lamb,of Him who also intercedes for us and enter boldly into His presence because the price had been paid and God's wrath satisfied by His one and only son who being in the very nature God chose to die and having recounciled us with God.And having been given the promised Holy Spirit we can worship God in Spirit and and truth.

Ill Never Get Over You (getting Over Me)

2005-05-01T17:20:00.000+08:00

I hear you're taking the town again
Havin' a good time
With all your good-time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now
And I'm alone and free

I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you
Could never be right

Chorus:
As long as the stars shine down
>From the heavens
Long as the rivers run
To the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me

I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody
That I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
(Won't go away..)
Loneliness found me
Looks like it's here to stay

I know that I oughta find someone new
But all I find is myself
Always thinkin' of you

Chorus

Oh!
No matter what I do
Each night's a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
(I need your touch)
You're the only one I'll ever love)
Oh, oh.. ah....

Ooh.....
Ooh.....
Ooh.....

And as
Long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run
To the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me

I'll never get over you
Getting over
Never get over you...
Getting over
I'll never get over you
Getting over me

Butterfly Effect- The Chaos theory

2005-04-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

The flapping of a single butterfly's wing today produces a tiny change in the state of the atmosphere. Over a period of time, what the atmosphere actually does diverges from what it would have done. So, in a month's time, a tornado that would have devastated the Indonesian coast doesn't happen. Or maybe one that wasn't going to happen, does. (Ian Stewart, Does God Play Dice? The Mathematics of Chaos

IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL

2005-04-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blessed assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

If only you would understand

2005-04-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

I Surrender All

ALL TO JESUS I SURRENDER
ALL TO HIM I FREELY GIVE;
I WILL EVER LOVE AND TRUST HIM,
IN HIS PRESENCE DAILY LIVE.

CHORUS:

I SURRENDER ALL, I SURRENDER ALL;
ALL TO THEE, MY BLESSED SAVIOUR,
I SURRENDER ALL.

ALL TO JESUS, I SURRENDER,
MAKE ME, SAVIOUR, WHOLLY THINE;
LET ME FEEL THY HOLY SPIRIT,
TRULY KNOW THAT THOU ART MINE.

ALL TO JESUS, I SURRENDER,
LORD, I GIVE MYSELF TO THEE;
FILL ME WITH THY LOVE AND POWER,
LET THY BLESSING FALL ON ME.
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Why do we have to be desperate for God? why uh? Not like I can't live without Him or what mah...
YES...You can't live without Him
To think you can live without having God in your life indicates you are already sick or probably dead in the spirit.
To believe in Christ isnt a religion we choose along the way of our lives,and it does not just give you coverage of salvation if you see it as an insurance policy,
Christ is our blessed assurance not insurance just in case something happens hor... well insurance companies fight their way not to pay you the insured guaranteed sum when something happens,investigating every possible means to say the accident or sickness we have was a negligence on our part.Well Christ assures us everything is in His hands and His will for our lives are perfect! and what more? We will have a share in His inheritance. Interested applicants please write into the comment of this blog....But then again oh well,before you thought of even writing something...God chose you!! ah YES YOU reading this!and don't come and blur with me k?You did not choose Him.

16You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit–fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name
(John 15:16)

Jesus said this to His disciples,are you a disciple of Christ?
and if really wanna fill in the application to be a disciple of Christ read the fine note

26“If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters–yes, even his own life–he cannot be my disciple. 27And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple. Luke 14:26,27)

I read this from a sermon from D.L. Moody from the internet : No man can be a disciple of Jesus Christ without bearing his cross. A great many want to know how it is Christ has so few disciples whilst Muhammad has so many. The reason is, Muhammad gives no cross to bear.

This is where counting the costs come in... please fill in all your particulars and put them in my comments. Thank you

19Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:
20Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen. (Matthew 28:19,20)

like what was said? Be a disciple of Christ!!!

Jesus Ascended to heaven how to be with me? don't come and smoke me la!

26“When the Counselor comes, whom I will send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who goes out from the Father, he will testify about me. 27And you also must testify, for you have been with me from the beginning. (John 15:26,27)

The Holy Spirit Jesus promised us is in and with everyone of us christians and we are the temple of the Spirit. The Holy Spirit teaches us the word and equips us with gifts for the edification of the body of Christ. And it is by the Holy Spirit we have our relationship with.The Holy Spirit speaks to us differently and in various ways. Through the reading of the word,still small voice,people,visions,etc ..do not exempt for one God cannot speak to us in anyone of the ways. well He spoke through the mouth of a donkey. He lives in us and He reveals to us the very likeness of Christ and He'll help us be like Him. As He speaks,be sensitive to the Spirit and obey. He wants us to hunger and thirst for Him yet it is Him who gives the appitite for Him,and where there is such Faith and expectation,He will come and speak to you. He sees the desperate heart of ours,empty, a vacuum that can only be filled by Him.Why empty? Cos we have emptied of ourselves to Him to be taken care of in His perfect will for our lives,laying down our own agendas and giving up our ALL to Him. Give Him our all so that He can put in us His all who is without limit.

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When the rubber meets the road

2005-04-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

When the rubber meets the road
Who do I turn to? who is our very source of strength,confidence and our very refuge?......

When the rubber meets the road
Do we put our dependency in God or do we put the blame on Him?

When the rubber meets the road
Is our integrity compromised?

provocative questions to see where we stand in our relationship with God and syncronize ourselves to Him

Leaving On A Jet Plane

2005-04-11T21:20:00.000+08:00

Well,itz been awhile since I blogged...muahahahahas
Okay to date I have a considerable no. of interesting happemings...
On Saturday, It was my very first time scheduled to conduct devotion for my Royal Rangers kids...and I really didnt know what to share lo... 8-10 year old kids leiz...
The Holy Spirit brought to rememberance an e-mail I read about forgiveness.
So I actually thought of printing a picture of Jesus....hmmm...or should I say a picture of how people perceive Jesus looked like and darts from home.The big but came going through airport security as I had to work before that. So when I got to Palm Grove for Royal Rangers...the topic of the structured passage in a way helped to tie in as I almost gave up the idea of the picture and darts. It was about 'words'

MORE THAN WORDS
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It’s not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I’ve tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don’t ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Noooooo....Im not talking about that words....Itz about the way we say things that hurts others sometimes.Well I digressed a little and talked about forgiveness. I asked my kids, "have any of you said something to someone you later regretted knowing it hurt him/her? or someone said something to you and it hurt you?
Well,response on hurting other ignorant of it of the moment perhaps it was outta retaliation and having been hurt by others.So prior to the devotion, I prepared on a paper written ~Father,Forgive them,for do not know what they are doing~
The kids werent supposed to read it but they did when the wind blew it. Anyways I had then a sharpened stick, I asked some of the kids take the stick and pierce through the paper then showed them what it read.
The geist of it all is your friends do not know what they are doing when they hurt you,and we do not know what we are actually doing when we hurt others also,y? we do not entirely how much it cost Jesus to die on the cross,it was our sins that cruxified Him but yet He said "Father,forgive them,for they do not know what they are doing". I didnt put it in words very well then so Xide came to help me abit with it.Im still kinda nervous la...God wants to a work in me and show me I can never do it alone and in my own strength and confidence,He is my partner,my strength and confidence and without Him I can do nothing and cannot please God. God is pleased when we avail ourselves to Him to be used and have faith that He will do the work like He wass doing it Himself at creation.When something He did it and pleased Him and He said it was good,We should then be veesels for Him to be used and He'll say to us "well,done!good and faithful sevants".
Anyways the Holy Spirit spoke to me this morning.Very interesting leiz...He said since you're working at the airport and maintaining the aerobridges...pray on every aerobridge you are working on.why? people from different countries pass through the aerobridge,so pray that they will sense the presence of God there and that may come to the saving knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ and Missionaries passing through as well that they will have a save journey and that through Christ,they will be able to touch many more lives.And there are these VIP bridges where sometimes a member of parliament goes through them too,Pray that they will come to know Him as their personal saviour and God will grant them wisdom to govern our land.
For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. The Holy Spirit teaches us how to pray according to the will of the Father.

Then the very place of work became my altar,I was singing at work "Renew my life Lord Jesus".The conviction of God came on me and I wept right there. We are the temple of the Holy Spirit,and we can make where we are the Holy of Holies and meet God there changing a certain place to an awesome place.

Im with a heavy heart

2005-04-08T01:15:00.000+08:00

Today was my very 1st time I saw Shou Zhen in the thursday prayer meeting.
and what was the topic? recounciliation...wow!!! and the more recounciliation was mentioned it dawned in my heart such heaviness that I asked God what is it you want?
recounciliation or surrender? I was so filled with the spirit that I was literally perspiring in the air-conditioned auditorium and the anointing so tangible.
God's will is that I recouncile with her,yet rid myself of my feelings for her.
Yes, I love her...love isnt a feeling and isnt based on love calculators.God's love cant be measured on a calculator and we cant comprehend it yet it was demostrated to us that God himself died so that we may have eternal life and the pwer of His resurrection to signify His sovereignity and diety.

that is the love I want to have for her like my other friends but how can I measure to what God has done? impossible!!! Im weak! but then again I have to boast of my weakness so that His strength be in me and thru me love others and do exceeding abundantly above what we can imagine by faith.I couldnt bear to end my friendship with her but I had to,y? to change my entire attitude and perspective of love for her. God told me to trust in Him and He'll bring us back as He did so many a time before and even thru how we knew each other.

This is going to be hard to swallow perhaps...My prospective wife has gotta love God more than me to the extent that if a gun was pointed at my head n threatened to shoot unless she renounces Christ,She'll without consideration ask whoever to shoot and she will have to expect likewise of me to let her die than renounce Christ..

God reminded me of this :
1 Some time later God tested Abraham. He said to him, "Abraham!"
"Here I am," he replied.

2 Then God said, "Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about."

3 Early the next morning Abraham got up and saddled his donkey. He took with him two of his servants and his son Isaac. When he had cut enough wood for the burnt offering, he set out for the place God had told him about. 4 On the third day Abraham looked up and saw the place in the distance. 5 He said to his servants, "Stay here with the donkey while I and the boy go over there. We will worship and then we will come back to you."

6 Abraham took the wood for the burnt offering and placed it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife. As the two of them went on together, 7 Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, "Father?"

"Yes, my son?" Abraham replied.

"The fire and wood are here," Isaac said, "but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?"

8 Abraham answered, "God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son." And the two of them went on together.

9 When they reached the place God had told him about, Abraham built an altar there and arranged the wood on it. He bound his son Isaac and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. 10 Then he reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. 11 But the angel of the LORD called out to him from heaven, "Abraham! Abraham!"

"Here I am," he replied.

12 "Do not lay a hand on the boy," he said. "Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son."

13 Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram [a] caught by its horns. He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son. 14 So Abraham called that place The LORD Will Provide. And to this day it is said, "On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided."

15 The angel of the LORD called to Abraham from heaven a second time 16 and said, "I swear by myself, declares the LORD , that because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, 17 I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will take possession of the cities of their enemies, 18 and through your offspring [b] all nations on earth will be blessed, because you have obeyed me."

19 Then Abraham returned to his servants, and they set off together for Beersheba. And Abraham stayed in Beersheba. (Genesis 22:1-19)

He wanted me to sacrifice the very person I love so dearly He gave me as a friend so that I may not be caught up with the person of promise but willingly give up in due recognition our relationship with God for a greater promise that is being a father of many nations.But when there is a such a release to God not witholding or expecting God to "pan chan pan chan" and give u back wad was sacrificed.
God knows each one of hearts and He'll see fit knowing we are able to focus on Him rather than friends He has given and it was later through the sacrifice that led to the promise of many nations.We must be willing to sacrifice to God the very thing or person so dear that may be hindering God from using us to bless His Kingdom. It was through a heart of being able to surrender ourselves and what or whom we treasure that itz through sacrifice we can be used of God.Its with that kinda explicit trust in God that He has our very interest at heart and wants the very best for us,yeaps! but we shouldnt look at whats in for me?But how does God want me to be a blessing to the kingdom of God? He has our interest in His heart le,but do we have His interest in our hearts?If we are so full of ourselves than where is God? ...That is the kinda faith Abraham had,and God called him His friend. True huh? The most important thing in all relationships is? Trust...
So Im no more with a heavy heart ... God's grace is sufficient for me even in weakness,His strength is glorified in me and through me.Thank God

IN MY LIFE BE LORD BE GLORIFIED

2005-04-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

In my life Lord be glorified,be glorified
In my life Lord be glorified today

What does it mean to glorify God through our lives?
To glorify God is to give up the very idea that we are capable to do anything on our own and acknowledge that God is the very sustainance of our being.
Well I believe most people will say "duh?!!! like I don't know that...the very other thing that actually occupies our minds is "since God is the sustainance of our being,and the only source of life then why people who do not believe in this one tue and living God can live to this day?".It is by God's grace that you are reading this today,surviving to this very day as much as you came into the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ and through His death and the power of His resurrection.That is our very basis and reason we are able to live,love and appreciate God. The deeper we are in our relationship with God,The Holy Spirit will reveal unto us Jesus and how can can be like Him,and somehow we'll feel the very pain He took by the scourging and crucifixion with the excruciation and we'll be able to identify our pain whether physically,emotionally,mentally or spiritually to His and know God felt and still feels with you and we can learn what His attitudes were facing such pain.

We also have to put down the very idea our talents are related to our giftings...
Spiritual gifts are given by the Holy Spirit and We are but mere vessels to be used.
Since Pastor Henry Hinn came and spoke of me having the healing anointing and I'll become a healing evangelist...I was like "hello?!!! u sure about that?". But now Im convinced by faith that it is not I who has the power to heal but the Holy Spirit and He can and will do anything and everything through us who believe. And many a time we really come to a point of thinking a situation is impossible,y? because we are actually never capable of anything,we are limited and we tend to think our God is like "hmmmmm....well he can come up a few miracles here and there but I dont really think he can really help with this, oh can u ,God?"....

14For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge–that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
20Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
(Ephesians 3:14-21)

I once told God "Lord, I am weak"...and you know what? He said "well since you know that you are weak,so what?"...He knows that by my going to Him is the evidence of my dependence on Him and therefore He probed asking "so what?" for me to search within myself is there anything else Im dependent on and if knowing He is the only one my confidence and strength can found in,then I'll have to step in all the way and take up the cross,meaning to focus my eyes on Christ and not look back at any other comfort I was at and go forth in faith and to forsake all other plans I have and follow Christ..That is the will of God...and His will has to become ours and there isnt any coercion inolved.

9But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. (2 corinthians 12:9)

God uses what is impossible to our finite minds and limited capabilities to be glorified.U willing to surrender your all and be a vessel used by the potter?

Potter's Hand

Beautiful Lord
Wonderful Saviour
I know for sure
All of my days are
Held in Your hand
Crafted into Your perfect plan

You gently call me
Into Your presence
Guiding me by
Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
Through Your eyes

I'm captured by
Your Holy calling
Set me apart
I know You're drawing
Me to Yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Take me mould me
Use me fill me
I give my life
To the Potter's hand

Call me guide me
Lead me walk beside me
I give my life
To the Potter's hand

The Groom washes the bride's feet

2005-03-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

1It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love.
2The evening meal was being served, and the devil had already prompted Judas Iscariot, son of Simon, to betray Jesus. 3Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; 4so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. 5After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples' feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him.

6He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?”

7Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”

8“No,” said Peter, “you shall never wash my feet.”

Jesus answered, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”

9“Then, Lord,” Simon Peter replied, “not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!”

10Jesus answered, “A person who has had a bath needs only to wash his feet; his whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you.” 11For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean.

12When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. “Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them. 13“You call me ‘Teacher’ and ‘Lord,’ and rightly so, for that is what I am. 14Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another's feet. 15I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. 16I tell you the truth, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. 17Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them.

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you also should wash one another's feet...
Jesus washes the feet of the diciple and tells them to wash each other's feet, y?

.So that none of them holds a superiority complex among themselves. 16I tell you the truth, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him.
- He examplifies and makes the knowledge of Himself as Lord,Master and Teacher clear to them.Therefore in being greater than His disciples He does as what a servant does.

35Then James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came to him. “Teacher,” they said, “we want you to do for us whatever we ask.”
36“What do you want me to do for you?” he asked.

37They replied, “Let one of us sit at your right and the other at your left in your glory.”

38“You don't know what you are asking,” Jesus said. “Can you drink the cup I drink or be baptized with the baptism I am baptized with?”

39“We can,” they answered. Jesus said to them, “You will drink the cup I drink and be baptized with the baptism I am baptized with, 40but to sit at my right or left is not for me to grant. These places belong to those for whom they have been prepared.”

41When the ten heard about this, they became indignant with James and John. 42Jesus called them together and said, “You know that those who are regarded as rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their high officials exercise authority over them. 43Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, 44and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all. 45For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.” (Mark 10:35-45 NIV )

. To hold others in higher regard than of ourselves
3Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves. (Philippians 2:3 KJV)

To Unite the diciples and making them part of Himself.Cleansing them through the washing of their feet as mentioned that the other parts of the body are clean and only need to wash only their feet.
22Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.

23For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body.

24Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.

25Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

26That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word,

27That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.

28So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself.

29For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church:

30For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones.

31For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh.

32This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church.

33Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband. (Ephesians 5:22-33)

As in His prayer for His Disciples and believers, He prayed they may be one as You and I(Jesus) are one.Jesus commisioned them to make disciples of all nations in the name of our Lord Jesus.They had to wash the feet thereafter of the disciples' feet so We know that we are all one among each other as us as individuals too are in one with God and examplify Christ's very likeness in washing His disciples' feet.
Cleansing them in the name of Jesus who clothes us in His righteousness, making us Holy,Worthy and without blemish by His very word.

PASSIONATE AND IN PURSUIT OF HOLINESS

2005-03-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

1 While Israel was staying in Shittim, the men began to indulge in sexual immorality with Moabite women, 2 who invited them to the sacrifices to their gods. The people ate and bowed down before these gods. 3 So Israel joined in worshiping the Baal of Peor. And the LORD's anger burned against them.
4 The LORD said to Moses, "Take all the leaders of these people, kill them and expose them in broad daylight before the LORD , so that the LORD's fierce anger may turn away from Israel."

5 So Moses said to Israel's judges, "Each of you must put to death those of your men who have joined in worshiping the Baal of Peor."

6 Then an Israelite man brought to his family a Midianite woman right before the eyes of Moses and the whole assembly of Israel while they were weeping at the entrance to the Tent of Meeting. 7 When Phinehas son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron, the priest, saw this, he left the assembly, took a spear in his hand 8 and followed the Israelite into the tent. He drove the spear through both of them-through the Israelite and into the woman's body. Then the plague against the Israelites was stopped; 9 but those who died in the plague numbered 24,000.

10 The LORD said to Moses, 11 "Phinehas son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron, the priest, has turned my anger away from the Israelites; for he was as zealous as I am for my honor among them, so that in my zeal I did not put an end to them. 12 Therefore tell him I am making my covenant of peace with him. 13 He and his descendants will have a covenant of a lasting priesthood, because he was zealous for the honor of his God and made atonement for the Israelites."

14 The name of the Israelite who was killed with the Midianite woman was Zimri son of Salu, the leader of a Simeonite family. 15 And the name of the Midianite woman who was put to death was Cozbi daughter of Zur, a tribal chief of a Midianite family.

16 The LORD said to Moses, 17 "Treat the Midianites as enemies and kill them, 18 because they treated you as enemies when they deceived you in the affair of Peor and their sister Cozbi, the daughter of a Midianite leader, the woman who was killed when the plague came as a result of Peor."
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From the passage of scripture above we see Phinehas who stood up in zealousness for God's honour and was passionate for God and His holiness so much that he wasnt afraid of taking the life of the midianite woman (15 And the name of the Midianite woman who was put to death was Cozbi daughter of Zur, a tribal chief of a Midianite family).We always think wahz this guy is pastor or church leader sial, and we know that particular leader is living in sin and we are intimidated of approaching that person and helping that person or telling that he/she is living in sin. wei!!! Yes we are to admonish one another in love lo lest the brother/sister refuses to repent.
We being the temple of the Holy Spirit must be sensitive to Him,do not quench the spirit nor should we resist Him.And if anyone who enters the presence of God with sin in his/her life,it vexes the Spirit as He is Holy.Yes! we can enter as we are but it requires still to confess our sins and He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousnes (1 John 1:9)
King David saw the seriousness of sin after commiting adultry
11 Do not cast me from your presence

or take your Holy Spirit from me. (Psalms 51:11)

We have to understand sin and Holiness does not mix !!! it was by sin that seperated us from God and made us God's enemies.

20When you were slaves to sin, you were free from the control of righteousness. 21What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of? Those things result in death! 22But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. 23For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 6:20-23)

Stand among tis generation and be counted who would not compromise and hate sin not to even condone it.

3 Who may ascend the hill of the LORD ?

Who may stand in his holy place?

4 He who has clean hands and a pure heart,

who does not lift up his soul to an idol

or swear by what is false.

5 He will receive blessing from the LORD

and vindication from God his Savior.

6 Such is the generation of those who seek him,

who seek your face, O God of Jacob. (psalms 24:3-6)

Grace and Holiness

2005-03-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

To aprreciate Grace we gotta ask ourselves hypothectically if Jesus never came to die on the cross what will it be like for us? Will we even be in church? n if we do go to church,will we be bringing cattle for atonement n sacrifice for our sins?
but theoretically now in knowing we have Jesus that died on the cross for us as the sacrificial lamb for us all and once and for all.
Then Christ would have had to suffer many times since the creation of the world. But now he has appeared once for all at the end of the ages to do away with sin by the sacrifice of himself. (Hebrews 9:26)
From the blood of Jesus we can enter into His presence and have a relationship with God in the name of Jesus cos it is by the name of Jesus and it is Jesus who clothes us with His righteousness before a Holy God.
We however cannot make light of sin.We have to magnify the consequence of sin n eradicate sin.We have to hate sin! Be perfect,therefore as your heavenly father is perfect(Matthew 5:48).But we cannot do it by our own effort lo.When Jesus ascended to be the father, He promised us the Helper, the Holy Spirit who will guide us in to all truth and lead us into deeper knowledge of Jesus and the Holiness of God because the Holy Spirit by Himself, the mame implies that He is holy and He is God.
How do we avoid sin?
1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. 3For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in sinful man, 4in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.
5Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. 6The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; 7the sinful mind is hostile to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. 8Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God.

9You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ. 10But if Christ is in you, your body is dead because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness. 11And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you.

12Therefore, brothers, we have an obligation–but it is not to the sinful nature, to live according to it. 13For if you live according to the sinful nature, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live, 14because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. 15For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” 16The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. 17Now if we are children, then we are heirs–heirs of God and coheirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. (Romans 8:1-17)

We have to therefore set our minds in the Spirit and have the mind of Christ knowing our very identity in God having been crucified and resurrected in Jesus therefore we have shared in His suffering and We are to die to ourselves having to take up our own cross everyday.

16So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want (Galatians 5:16,17)

this verse explains why we find it so hard to get of a sin,God is seperating us from our sin and our Spirit is willing to be moulded no doubt about that but our flesh when being pulled away from sin will hold on to it and even reluctantly like reach out to try grab it back like as if being swept by a current and we'll try grab on to something.Just let go and see what God is gonna do with a life submitted to Him wholly because God does a continuous work in us.The Nitty Gritty stuff we tink needn't need change,He will point them out and ask us to change with the helper the Holy Spirit.These Nitty Gritty stuff perhaps we dun see anything wrong with it cos it has so become a norm in us perhaps as David spoke about in Psalms:
12 Who can discern his errors?

Forgive my hidden faults.

13 Keep your servant also from willful sins;

may they not rule over me.

Then will I be blameless,

innocent of great transgression. (Psalms 19:12,13)

Pray and ask God to help reveal the hidden faults in you and together in partnership with the Holy Spirit,He will change you if only u'll let go and let God do that work He wants in your life and in my life.

WE ARE ANOINTED

2005-03-13T18:35:00.000+08:00

WOW!!! I WAS SURPRISED LAST NIGHT WHEN REV BENNY HINN CALLED ME UP ONTO THE STAGE JUST AS THE RALLY WAS ABOUT TO END. "SON,I SEE GOD'S ANOINTING ON YOUR LIFE,AN ANOINTING OF EVANGELISM AND YOU WILL SPEAK TO THOUSANDS"...THEN HE ASKED "BY THE WAY ARE YOU MARRIED?DO YOU HAVE A GIRL IN YOUR LIFE IN WHICH YOU HAVE A EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT TO...I SENSE AN EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE THAT YOU HAVE TO LET GO OF IN ORDER THAT GOD RELEASES HIS ANOINTING AND THAT YOUR ANOINTING WILL BE GREATER THAN THAT OF YOUR FATHER'S" THEN HE ALREADY CALLED BOTH MY PARENTS UP THE STAGE AS WELL.

I TAKE PROPHECIES WITH SOBER JUDGEMENT...I NEVER SAW MYSELF AS AN EVENGELIST, MY GIFTING WAS IN BUILDING UP PEOPLE THROUGH MY WRITTINGS FROM MY LISTENING TO GOD'S VOICE BUT EVANGELISTIC ANOINTING???!!! HELLO! WELL WHO KNOWS WHAT GOD CAN DO? WE DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING LO.OUR GIFTS AND TALENTS ARE GOD GIVEN AND THEY MUST NOT HINDER WHAT CAN DO THROUGH US FURTHER. GIFTS AREN'T GIVEN JUST ONCE AND THEY CAN BE GIVEN TO US TO SUIT GOD'S SOVEREIGN WILL FOR US AT THE PARTICULAR POINT OF TIME BUT WE HAVE TO REMAIN MOLDABLE TO GOD THROUGH AN UNWAVERING FOCUS ON HIM AND THE PRECURSOR OF THAT IS THE TAKING UP OF OUR CROSSES AND IN THAT DYING TO OUSELVES.

HMMMM...OKAY...A GIRL IN MY LIFE THAT INVOLVES EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE HUH?
THIS IS IN FACT VERY INTERESTING...IF IT IS THE GIRL IM THINKING IT IS...THEN WHY DOES GOD ALLOW US TO RECONCILIATE SO MANY TIMES WHEN THERE WERE SO MANY A TIME WE COULD HAVE BROKEN UP ALTOGETHER? SHE ISNT MY GIRLFRIEND EVEN SO,BUT SUCH A COMPLICATED WHAT I WOULD CALL INFACTUATION BASED FRIENDSHIP...BUT I ALWAYS ASK GOD TO BE OUR MEDIATOR AND INTERCEDE INTO OUR FRIENDSHIP LO...AND HE ALWAYS ASKS ME TO LOVE HER SOMEMORE... WHY???!!!
OUR GOD IS A GOD OF RECONCILIATION AND GOD IS LOVE OF WHOM DRAWS US TO HIMSELF AND US TO EACH OTHER.I THOUGHT I HAD THIS INFACTUATION THING ALL FIXED GOOD BUT I REALISED THAT IT WAS REPRESSED AND I GOT JEALOUS. LOVE DOES NOT GET JEALOUS... GOD WANTS ME TO LOVE HER! BUT JUST LIKE I WOULD TO ANY OF MY FRIENDS, IT WAS SAID BECAUSE THERE WERE TIMES IT WAS SO DIFFICULT TO LOVE HER AND MY PERCEPTION OF LOVE WAS WRONG THEN AND IM STILL DEALING WITH IT. AND IT IS WITH THE EYES OF CHRIST AND OF HIS LOVE I SHOULD LOVE HER WITH JUST AS IT WOULD ANY OF MY FRIENDS.

EVERYDAY ITS YOU I LIVE FOR

2005-03-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

WHAT DID GOD TEACH ME TODAY? HE TAUGHT ME THIS PHRASE "I IN HIM, AND HE IN ME".AS YOU WOULD ASSOCIATE VERY MUCH WITH THAT ANALOGY IN JOHN 15 ABOUT GOD BEING THE VINE AND US BEING THE BRANCHES.
GOD WANTS US TO BE IN PARTNERSHIP WITH HIM...ONE TESTIMONY TO SHARE :
IN CONJUNCTION WITH YESTERDAY'S CONCLUSIVE PARAGRAPH I INDICATED I WAS PROMPTED TO PRAY FOR MY COLLEAGUE WHO HAD FALLEN FROM THE SCAFFOLDING.SOME OF MY COLLEAGUES INCLUDING MYSELF WENT TO VISIT HIM TODAY AT CHANGI GENERAL HOSPITAL AND HE IS PRETTY IN CONDITION. TWO X-RAYS TAKEN AND FOUND NO INTERNAL INJURIES AND NO BROKEN BONES.EVIDENTLY AN ABRASSIVE SCAR ON THE KNEE AND A BRUISE ON HIS BACK CAUSED AS HE WAS FALLING TO HIT A CROSSBAR MEANT TO REINFORCE THE SCAFFOLDING STRUCTURE...I WAS PRAYING WHILE AT THE HOSPITAL EVEN QUIETLY SITTING DOWN WITH MY HANDS CUPPED OVER MY FACE...ONE THING I PRAYED WAS THAT HIS PRESENCE FILL THE ROOM IN WHICH WE WERE AND THEN ONE OF MY COLLEAGUES TAPPED ON MY CUPPED HANDS AND ASKED WHAT I WAS DOING... MY SUPERVISOR SAID I WAS PRAYING...HOW WOULD HE HAVE KNOWN THAT? EXCEPT THAT HE DID SENSE GOD'S PRESENCE THERE,AND HIMSELF BEING A CHRISTIAN FOR ONE.
COOL HUH? :)

Evermore I live for your glory

2005-03-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

EVERMORE
Lost for words with all to say
Lord you take my breath away
Still my soul, my soul cries out
You are holy

And as I look upon Your name
Circumstances fade away
Now Your glory steals my heart
You are holy

You are holy
You are holy Lord

Evermore my heart, my heart will say
Above all, I live for Your glory
Even if my world falls I will say
Above all, I live for Your glory

With all my heart I'll say
I'm living for Your name
With all to give You praise
We're living for Your glory Lord

Evermore my heart, my heart will say
Above all, I live for Your glory
Even if my world falls I will say
Above all, I live for Your glory
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Be Glorified (In My Life Lord)
In my life Lord
Be glorified, be glorified
In my life, Lord
Be glorified today.

In Your church, Lord
Be glorified, be glorified
In Your church, Lord
Be glorified today.

In my heart, Lord
Be glorified, be glorified
In my heart, Lord
Be glorified today.

In my praise, Lord
Be glorified, be glorified
In my praise, Lord
Be glorified today.
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What does it mean to live for God's glory?
To live for His glory is to have God in each one of our lives as our personal saviour and friend by whom we have an intimate relationship with.

7 Now Moses used to take a tent and pitch it outside the camp some distance away, calling it the "tent of meeting." Anyone inquiring of the LORD would go to the tent of meeting outside the camp. 8 And whenever Moses went out to the tent, all the people rose and stood at the entrances to their tents, watching Moses until he entered the tent. 9 As Moses went into the tent, the pillar of cloud would come down and stay at the entrance, while the LORD spoke with Moses. 10 Whenever the people saw the pillar of cloud standing at the entrance to the tent, they all stood and worshiped, each at the entrance to his tent. 11 The LORD would speak to Moses face to face, as a man speaks with his friend. Then Moses would return to the camp, but his young aide Joshua son of Nun did not leave the tent.

Moses and the Glory of the LORD
12 Moses said to the LORD , "You have been telling me, 'Lead these people,' but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, 'I know you by name and you have found favor with me.' 13 If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. Remember that this nation is your people."
14 The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."

15 Then Moses said to him, "If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. 16 How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?"

17 And the LORD said to Moses, "I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know you by name."

18 Then Moses said, "Now show me your glory."

19 And the LORD said, "I will cause all my goodness to pass in front of you, and I will proclaim my name, the LORD , in your presence. I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion. 20 But," he said, "you cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live."

21 Then the LORD said, "There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock. 22 When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. 23 Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen."

Exodus 34
The New Stone Tablets
1 The LORD said to Moses, "Chisel out two stone tablets like the first ones, and I will write on them the words that were on the first tablets, which you broke. 2 Be ready in the morning, and then come up on Mount Sinai. Present yourself to me there on top of the mountain. 3 No one is to come with you or be seen anywhere on the mountain; not even the flocks and herds may graze in front of the mountain."
4 So Moses chiseled out two stone tablets like the first ones and went up Mount Sinai early in the morning, as the LORD had commanded him; and he carried the two stone tablets in his hands. 5 Then the LORD came down in the cloud and stood there with him and proclaimed his name, the LORD . 6 And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, "The LORD , the LORD , the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, 7 maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children and their children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation."

8 Moses bowed to the ground at once and worshiped. 9 "O Lord, if I have found favor in your eyes," he said, "then let the Lord go with us. Although this is a stiff-necked people, forgive our wickedness and our sin, and take us as your inheritance."

10 Then the LORD said: "I am making a covenant with you. Before all your people I will do wonders never before done in any nation in all the world. The people you live among will see how awesome is the work that I, the LORD , will do for you. 11 Obey what I command you today. I will drive out before you the Amorites, Canaanites, Hittites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites. 12 Be careful not to make a treaty with those who live in the land where you are going, or they will be a snare among you. 13 Break down their altars, smash their sacred stones and cut down their Asherah poles. [a] 14 Do not worship any other god, for the LORD , whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.

15 "Be careful not to make a treaty with those who live in the land; for when they prostitute themselves to their gods and sacrifice to them, they will invite you and you will eat their sacrifices. 16 And when you choose some of their daughters as wives for your sons and those daughters prostitute themselves to their gods, they will lead your sons to do the same.

17 "Do not make cast idols.

18 "Celebrate the Feast of Unleavened Bread. For seven days eat bread made without yeast, as I commanded you. Do this at the appointed time in the month of Abib, for in that month you came out of Egypt.

19 "The first offspring of every womb belongs to me, including all the firstborn males of your livestock, whether from herd or flock. 20 Redeem the firstborn donkey with a lamb, but if you do not redeem it, break its neck. Redeem all your firstborn sons.

"No one is to appear before me empty-handed.

21 "Six days you shall labor, but on the seventh day you shall rest; even during the plowing season and harvest you must rest.

22 "Celebrate the Feast of Weeks with the firstfruits of the wheat harvest, and the Feast of Ingathering at the turn of the year. [b] 23 Three times a year all your men are to appear before the Sovereign LORD , the God of Israel. 24 I will drive out nations before you and enlarge your territory, and no one will covet your land when you go up three times each year to appear before the LORD your God.

25 "Do not offer the blood of a sacrifice to me along with anything containing yeast, and do not let any of the sacrifice from the Passover Feast remain until morning.

26 "Bring the best of the firstfruits of your soil to the house of the LORD your God.

"Do not cook a young goat in its mother's milk."

27 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Write down these words, for in accordance with these words I have made a covenant with you and with Israel." 28 Moses was there with the LORD forty days and forty nights without eating bread or drinking water. And he wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant-the Ten Commandments.

The Radiant Face of Moses
29 When Moses came down from Mount Sinai with the two tablets of the Testimony in his hands, he was not aware that his face was radiant because he had spoken with the LORD . 30 When Aaron and all the Israelites saw Moses, his face was radiant, and they were afraid to come near him. 31 But Moses called to them; so Aaron and all the leaders of the community came back to him, and he spoke to them. 32 Afterward all the Israelites came near him, and he gave them all the commands the LORD had given him on Mount Sinai.
33 When Moses finished speaking to them, he put a veil over his face. 34 But whenever he entered the LORD's presence to speak with him, he removed the veil until he came out. And when he came out and told the Israelites what he had been commanded, 35 they saw that his face was radiant. Then Moses would put the veil back over his face until he went in to speak with the LORD . (Exodus 33:7-34:35)

The glory of God radiated from the face of Moses not realising it of himself.
The relationship with God was so mesmerising and the communion so intimate,God had Himself in Moses because he yielded of himself n depended on God wholly! His very confidence and strength was on God alone. Which man would come to Pharaoh and ask to let the Israelites out of Egypt together with Signs and wonders to follow along?
Itz when we love God with a yielded heart as Moses did laying down what He thought impossible of himself to do at the burning bush and from there God will be your I AM
and be glorified through what we tink impossible with our logical minds.Itz only when we give up and let God in all His sovereignty do His stuff.He will do His stuff thru people like u who surrenders EVERYTHING to HIM !and YES U!!!

Joshua,He thrist for God's presence so much that even when Moses had left the tent of meeting,He remained there. And He sees the promised land as theirs from God's very implication that it is a promised land!!! itz theirs for the taking man! Outta twelve spies Ten were talking of giants there and the impossible.Joshua and Caleb,the other two spies were probably like
Joshua: yo Caleb!! what is about giants the people are talking about?
Caleb: Giants? what giants? I didnt see no giants around dude!
Joshua: yeah tatz exactly the point! and what is about us being grasshoppers? Wadeva it is I aint no grasshopper man!
Caleb: Neither am I dude! We're going in and tatz for sure Josh!
Joshua: Yeah man!!!
errrrrr...but unfortunately we aint going in now...we're gonna wander the wilderness for the next forty years...and y? people who claim to see giants loh!!! anyways we gotta keep our spirits up and fight our so called giants forty years later and claim the promised land which was supposed to be ours forty years earlier which is errrrr now?.....MAN!!!
People fail to see the BIG GOD!!! (one and only)

BIG
My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams

My God is good
He's so good to me

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hand

My God is Big
So Strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

There's nothing my God cannot do
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I saw STARHUB CABLE TV ad today in the mrt and it goes like : Itz not the size of your tv but what you have in it

JESUS CHRIST : Itz not size of your Heart,Itz Who you have in it

This blog aint no april fool's joke

FEELINGS??? TO FOLLOW OUR HEART OR NOT?

2005-02-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

ONE QUESTION LIES IN US WITH SUCH AMBIGUITY WHEN MAKING DECISIONS ESPECIALLY DECISIONS...ARE WE TO REALLY TO FOLLOW OUR HEART? HMMMM.... REMEMBER FOR WHERE OUR HEART IS,THERE YOUR TREASURE WILL BE ALSO. IF OUR DECISIONS IS GUIDED BY EMOTIONS
BURSTING OUT DELUDING AND INFLUENCING OUR DECISIONS...
ASK OURSELVES HOW DEEP IS OUR INTIMACY WITH GOD...FOR HOW DEEP OUR INTIMACY WITH GOD IS VERY MUCH DETERMINES HOW MUCH OF OURSELVES BELONG TO HIM.WE SAY "WE ARE CHRISTIANS WAD!!! OUR WHOLE BEING BELONGS TO HIM LO!!!"
TRUE! BUT THE FACT IS WE HAVENT GIVEN OURSELVES ENTIRELY TO HIM CAUSE MUCH OF OUR MINDSETS TELLS US GOD CAN TAKE CONTROL OF THIS, THIS AND THIS AND NOT THAT.
AS WE GROW DEEPER IN INTIMACY WITH GOD,OUR LOVE DEEPENS AND THE MORE WE LOVE GOD,WE OBEY AND WE KNOW HIS HEART AND WE KNOW HE KNOWS US MUCH MORE THAN WE KNOW OF OURSELVES.WE ARE TO SURRENDER OUR VERY BEING IN ENTIRETY TO HIM,HE WILL THEN ACCOMPLISH IN US HIS WILL,HIS PLEASING AND PERFECT WILL. BUT IF WE SOW TO OUR FEELING UNDIRECTED BY GOD,WELL,IT MOSTLY FAILS US...(IF ANYTHING CAN GO WRONG,IT WILL),IF NOTHING GOES WRONG WE'RE GONNA REMAIN STATUS QUO?(IF IT AINT BROKEN,DON'T FIX IT)...WELL THAT VERY MUCH US...WE ONLY COME TO GOD IN OUR DEEPEST NEEDS DO WE?
IT ISN'T WRONG BUT IT IF WE ARE GOING TO FOLLOW GOD'S WILL WITH OUR CONFIDENCE IN HIM,THINGS WILL GO WRONG STILL BUT WE KNOW HE'LL TAKE CARE OF IT THROUGH US TRUSTING HIM KNOWING FULLY WELL HE IS IN THE SAME BOAT WITH US AND LIVING IN HIS WILL SAVE US THE UNWANTED AND UNNECESSARY PAIN AND UNCERTAINTY OF LIFE WHICH WAS REAPED MOSTLY BY REGRET AND REGRET THE FEELING OF DEPRESSION.
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2nd DILEMA- SOME OF MY SUPERVISORS ARE CHRISTIANS YET WHEN I ASK IF I CAN GO OFF AT 1330HRS ON SATURDAY WHICH IS THE 1/2 DAY WE GET.THEY SAY "YOU MUST FINISH YOUR WORK FIRST.IF THEY'RE DONE,WELL OF COURSE YOU CAN GO"...THAT ISNT EXACTLY WHAT THEY SAY CAUSE THEYRE KINDA LINGUISTICALLY CHALLENGED IN THE ENGLISH VOCABULARY. HAHAHAS
THEN THEY SAY HOR? "GOD IS GOD AND WORK IS WORK,NO WORK,NO MONEY RIGHT? YOU SERVE GOD GOT MONEY TO EARN UH?" I ALSO CHRISTIAN BUT I HAVE TO WORK,PEOPLE ASK ME GO CHURCH ON WADEVA DAY I TELL THEM I GOT TO WORK BUT I GO CHURCH ON SUNDAY". HMMMMM...
CONFLICT OF INTEREST AND BELIEF.I SERVE GOD BECAUSE I LOVE HIM,SIMPLE ENOUGH? WELL I MADE THIS KNOWN TO THEM PRIOR IN A FRIENDLY EXCHANGE OF CHRISTIAN CONCEPTS AND THEIR IDEOLOGIES "GOD PROVIDED THIS JOB FOR ME" AND THAT SEEMS TO BE CONTARY TO THIER BELIEFS THAT WE WHAT WE MAKE FOR OURSELVES AND GOD IS JUST WAD WE CHOOSE TO BELIEVE. THEN HE SAY "IM A PRACTICAL MAN"...WELL... GOD DOESN'T GIVE US MONEY JUST LIKE THAT. THEN THEY SAY WHAT THEY NEED MORE IN LIFE IN MONEY....TO SUMMURISE EVERYTHING THEY'RE SAYING GOD DOESN'T PUT FOOD ON THE TABLE FOR ME I BELIEVE GOD IS THE ESSENCE OF OUR LIVES ITSELF BUT TO PUT IT IN WORD TO CHANGE ANOTHER PERSON'S BELIEF IS DIFFICULT ESPECIALLY IF HE SAYS HE IS ALREADY A CHRISTIAN.
WELL BEEN THINKING THROUGH THE DAY AND THIS BLOG SOMEWAD SUMS IT ALL UP INCLUDING THIS THAT GOD SHOWED ME I HAVE CHANGED QUITE A BIT LO...WELL MY ATTITUDE OF LIFE EVOLVES AROUND I AND GOD.GOD TAUGHT ME TO LOVE THROUGH A GAL FROM INFACTUATION I GREW TO LOVE.SHE IS BUT A VENUE BY WHICH GOD USES BUT MY FOCUS SHOULD NOT BE ON HER BUT ON GOD STILL AS SHOULD ANYTHING FAIL WITHIN OUR FRIENDSHIP.THE LOVE WILL NOT FADE AWAY TOGETHER WITH HER NEITHER WILL MY LOVE FOR HER THOUGH THROUGH HER I WAS TAUGHT LOVE.A PAIN HIT THROUGH ME WHEN I HEARD A COLLEAGUE FELL FROM THE SCAFFOLDING APPROXIMATELY 4-6 METRES...A PROMPTING TO PRAY FOR HIM SUDDENLY URGED FROM WITHIN AS IF SOMEONE WAS CRYING OUT FROM WITHIN ME AND COMPASSION FILLED MY HEART.
EVERYDAY WE WALK WITH JESUS IS A LEARNING JOURNEY,LEARNING FROM A FRIEND. BUT LIFE WITHOUT CHRIST IS A SCHOOL PEOPLE DREAD...THE SCHOOL OF HARD KNOCKS WE CALL THAT.

LOVE , LIFE AND GOD

2005-02-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

WELL,WHEN ONE IS PRETTY MUCH HITTING DEPRESSION AND SO DEVASTATED WITH THE CIRCUMSTANCES AROUND HIM,CONFUSION OCCURS...SOME PEOPLE TEND TO FIND A SUBSTITUTE OF SOMETHING THEY THINK WILL EASE THEMSELVES OF THE PAIN AND KEEP WALLOWING THEMSELVES IN IT,SAVOURING EVERY MOMENT HOWEVER TEMPORAL THE PERSON KNOWS THAT SUBTITUTE WILL BRING OF ITS SATISFACTION, SOME JUST SUPPRESS ALL THE PAIN AND DENYS OF THEMSELVES THAT A SITUATION NEVER HAPPENED BUT THEN AGAIN A SCAR WAS LEFT TO ROT IN HIS SOUL, THE WELLSPRING OF HIS/HER EMOTIONS.
BUT WHEN WE KNOW THAT WE SHARE AND IDENTIFY OURSELVES AND OUR SUFFERING WITH AND IN CHRIST'S AND AS MUCH AS WE HAVE BEEN CRUCIFIED IN AND WITH HIM AND RESURRECTED IN AND WITH HIM,ALL THE SCARS WILL BE HEALED BY HIS STRIPES.HE IS OUR SUBSTITUTE AND THERE IS NO NEED FOR US TO FIND TEMPORAL RELEASE AND SATISFACTION ANYWHERE ELSE. HE SAYS I AM THE WAY ,THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE SO WE DON'T HAVE TO "GET A LIFE!!!" ANYWHERE ELSE AS MUCH AS WE SHOILDN'T PAY OUR FINES AND BILLS ANYWHERE ELSE BUT AT THE AXS MACHINE -_-" BUT WELL OUR DEBTS HAD ALREADY BEEN PAID SO WHY GO TO THE AXS MACHINE? AS HE IS THE WAY AND THE TRUTH IS THAT OUR DEBTS WERE PAID THROUGH JESUS'S DEATH AND THE POWER OF HIS RESURRECTION GAVE US TOO THE POWER TO HAVE ACCESS TO GOD AND THE "POWER TO CONNECT" AS WE ARE ALREADY CALLED TO BE AS HE IS THE VINE AND WE ARE THE BRANCHES.AND WE HAVE TO REMAIN CONNECTED AND THING IS WE DON'T HAVE TO PAY SUBSCRIPTION FEES FOR WIRELESS NETWORKING.
AND WE SO CALLED "KIASU" SINGAPOREANS JUST DON'T WANT TO GET HOLD OF ETERNAL LIFE? ACCESS TO GOD? GIFTS? AND SPECIAL COVENANT RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD,A RELATIONSHIP MOSES AND ABRAHAM HAD IN BEING ABLE TO TALK TO GOD AS FRIENDS.WHAT MORE CAN WE ASK FOR AS HE IS MORE THAN WE CAN BARGAIN FOR? DIGRESSING? NOPE...HE REVIVED ME AT THREE MONTHS OLD FROM THE GRIM FACE OF DEATH AND I OWE IT ALL TO HIM MAN! AT 10 YRS OF AGE, I FELT THE SENSITIVITY OF THE HOLY SPIRIT ON MY LIFE AND AT 12 DEDICATED MYSELF TO HIM...I FAIL MANY A TIMES YET HIS GRACE AND FAITHFULNESS NEVER FAILS. FROM WEAKNESS HE TURNED INTO STRENGTH THIS GIFT OF WRITTING. THANK YOU GOD
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM WAS THAT OF AN EXTENT HE SOMETIMES ASKS ME "MERVIN, HOW DO THINK I'LL BE MOVING IN THE SERVICE TONIGHT?" OR HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO MOVE?" HE ASKED "LIKE A RAGING FIRE OR RUSHING WATERS LIKE TAT OF ONE BREAKING A DAM.? RIDICULOUS YOU MIGHT THINK...BUT I NOW SAY "LORD,MOVE IN YOUR OWN SPECIAL WAY"
HE KNOWS MY HEART AND HE REVEALS HIMSELF TO ME THAT I MAY KNOW HIM IN DEPTH OF INTIMACY. I SAW HOW MY FRIENDSHIP WAS ALWAYS IN HIS HANDS EVEN WITH A GIRL I LIKED AND GREW TO LOVE.WE QUARRELLED FREQUENTLY.THE QUARRELS WE HAD WERE THAT OF ME ACTING ON MY OWN 'FEELINGS'...AND THAT OF SUCH INFACTUATION THAT THIS KIND OF QUARRELS CAN'T BRING US CLOSER BUT DRIFT US FURTHER BUT I PRAY THAT GOD BE MY MEDIATOR AND INTERCEDE ON MY BEHALF AND EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT SOON AFTER. WELL AFTER MUCH, FEELINGS SUBSUDES, LOVE ISNT SOMETHING THAT IS BASED ON FEELINGS BUT ON CHRIST'S LOVE AND DEVOTION. LIKEWISE TO HER I'LL SHOW THE SAME THOUGH WE DON'T TALK MUCH NOW. I DON'T WANT TO TALK IN CASE FEELINGS OVERWHELMS AND CAUSES WHAT I SAY TO HURT AND CUT DEEP.I WANT NOW TO FOCUS ON GOD,AND I WANT MY WORDS TO GIVE LIFE AS I HAVE HURT HER WITH WORDS WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME TO BEAR.CARELESS WORDS *SHAKES HEAD* SAID ONLY TO ONLY REALISE LATER IT HURTS ME TO HURT HER."NOTHING IS GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU"
THE ONLY THING CHANGED IS MY ATTITUDE AND OF WHOSE LOVE I AM LOVING YOU WITH.
RECENTLY I LOOKED BACK AT THIS CARD GIVEN ME BY HER, IT QUOTES FROM PROVERBS 17:17 "A FRIEND LOVES AT ALL TIMES" WELL IT ACTUALLY CONTINUES WITH "BUT A BROTHER WAS BORN FOR ADVERSITY"...HOW TRUE IT IS INDEED...
I NEED TIME,TIME SPENT WITH GOD IN HIS PRESENCE AS MY EMOTIONS IS VEXED.

BE STILL

2005-02-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

THIS MORNING GOD SPOKE TO ME ABOUT "BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD" AND THEN AGAIN WHILE AT CELL GROUP, IT ALL CAME OUT ALTOGETHER AGAIN.TO BE STILL BEFORE GOD WE HAVE JUST PUT DOWN EVERYTHING WITHIN OURSELVES,EMOTIONAL HURTS AND PAIN BEFORE HIM AND JUST DESIRE SO DESPERATELY HIS PRESENCE, SOMETIMES WHEN THE EMOTIONS GETS PRETTY OVERWHELMING...DON'T SUPPRESS IT! LAY IT DOWN BEFORE GOD AND THE PAIN WE FEEL GOD KNOWS EVEN BEFORE WE SPEAK THOUGH AT TIMES WE JUST CANNOT VERBALISE IT.HE WILL COMFORTS US AND COUNSEL US THROUGH THE HOLY SPIRIT AND IF WE NEED DIRECTION HE LEADS ALLOWING US TO SEE CIRCUMSTANCES THROUGH HIS EYES AND NOT OURS...
WHEN WE LEARN TO OBEY AND MAKE OURSELVES MOLDABLE BEFORE GOD,LETTING HIS WILL BE OUR WILL AND DESIRES,WHEN WE EMPTY OURSELVES AND LET GOD USE US IN HIS SPECIAL WAY,WE'LL SEE WHAT MARVELLOUS AND EXTRAORDINARY THINGS HE CAN DO THROUGH US. TO BE ABLE TO OBEY YOU MUST LOVE GOD AND FOCUS ON HIM ALONE.

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Til he returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE

2005-02-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!! MY TITLE DOES NOT TODAY REFER TO THAT OF A FEMININE PARTY BUT GOD. HAHAHAS
ITZ SO WONDERFUL EVERYDAY SPEAKING TO HIM. WELL WELL WELL... ITZ LIKE SOMEWHAT PEOPLE TEND TO SEE THE IRRELAVENCE OF THE BIBLE IN TODAY'S CONTEXT.WELL WE CAN MAKE EXCUSES TO COMPROMISE AND EXCUSES OF IGNORANCE ISNT VALID LO...
WELL THE WORD OF GOD SHALL NOT PASS AWAY AND SO IS ITS RELAVENCE.
GOT IT? WE HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT THE AUTHOR OF THE BIBLE AS OUR ONE-TO-ONE TUTOR TO TEACH US AND HELP US UNDERSTAND THE BIBLE AND VERY MUCH LET US SEE IT IN RELAVENCE TO TODAY'S CONTEXT AND APPLY THEM...TWO THUMBS UP AND IF I HAVE MORE THAN TWO THUMBS, ALL OF THEM WILL BE UP TOO -_-" HAHAS

HUH??? DON'T YOU KNOW, DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?

2005-01-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

CGIS- CUTE GAL/GUY INFACTUATION SYNDROME WAS SOMETHING I MADE UP BUT I SOMEWHAT BELIEVE THAT IT IS VERY MUCH SELF-SUBSTANTIATED TODAY AND MIGHT BE ONE DAY BECOME AN OFFICIAL TERM IN SOCIOLOGY...HAHAHAS... WELL JUST BEWARE THE AFTERMATH IN HAVING TO TASTE THE AFTER-TASTE IN AN INFACTUATION BASED RELATIONSHIP WHERE YOU TWO OF YOU OR EITHER ONE WANTS OUT BUT FEELS AN OBLIGATION TO THE OTHER AND JUST CAN'T BREAK THE EMOTIONAL TIE. COMMITMENT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN FRIENDSHIP...FIRSTLY,IT ENCOMPASSES OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD WHICH IS AS I AGAIN STRESS UPON AS THE FOUNDATION OF ALL OTHER RELATIONSHIPS WE HAVE. COMMITMENT I AS THOUGHT IN A WARPED PERSPECTIVE AS POSESSIVENESS BUT NO!!! COMMITMENT IS A MUTUAL AGREEMENT IN THE DEVELOPMENT OF THE RELATIONSHIP/FRIENDSHIP INTO GREATER INTIMACY BUT WITHIN BOUNDARIES FROM OUR CONSCIENCE OF WHOM MUST BE GUARDED BY AND A MUST BE GIVEN A SENSITIVITY AND OBEDIENCE TO THE HOLY SPIRIT. BUT THEN AGAIN OUR HEARTS TENDS GIVE RISE TO THE IDEA THAT NON-CHRISTIANS SEEM TO SOMETIMES HAVE HAPPIER MARRIAGES SO DOES GOD REALLY HAVE TO BE IN OUR RELATIONSHIPS?GOD IS LOVE AND SINCE NON-CHRISTIANS IMPLIES THEIR DISBELIEF IN GOD,WHERE THEN DOES THE LOVE COME FROM? WELL IN "MEN ARE FROM MARS AND WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS", A SECULAR BOOK ABOUT UNDERSTANDING THE OPPOSITE SEX STATES AND STRESSES PRIMARILY ON THE ACCEPTANCE OF EACH OTHER'S DIFFERENCES.HMMM... ISNT THAT AN ADOPTED BIBLICAL PRINCIPLE? IT DOESNT END THERE AT JUST AN ACCEPTANCE OF EACH OTHER BUT A COMMITMENT AND LOVE,WITH THE PERFECT LOVE OF GOD THAT DRIVES OUT ALL FEAR,FEAR THAT OUR HEARTS WILL ONE DAY GO COLD AS THE "ACCEPTANCE" NOW IS BUT MERELY SWEEPING THE OTHER'S WRONGS UNDER THE CARPET WHICH WILL SURFACE IN THE LIGHT OF GOD AND FACADES REVEALED AND WHEN FRIENDSHIP IS TREATED VERY MUCH WITH DISDAIN,
RESENTMENT AND HATRED SETS IN.

29th JAN- I WAS OFFICIATED AS LIEUTENANT COMMANDER IN ROYAL RANGERS.
THIS IS A PERIOD BY WHICH GOD WANTS ME TO FOCUS ON LOVING HIM AND SERVING HIM. TO DEPEND ON HIM FOR STRENGTH AND WISDOM. DUE TO MY INCONSISTENT ATTENDENCE DURING MY NATIONAL SERVICE,IT WAS HELD FROM ME FOR SUCH A TIME AS THIS THAT THROUGH EMOTIONAL HURTS IN MY FRIENDSHIP HAD TAKEN A TOLL ON ME THAT WHEN I HAD RISEN OVER THE CIRCUMSTANCE, GOD GAVE THE RESPONSIBILITY OF LOOKING AFTER DISCOVERY RANGERS.
IVE SEEN A NUMBER OF THEM GROWING UP AND THEY'RE PHYSICALLY COMPETENT AND GROWING STEADILY SPIRITUALLY.IT BRINGS PURE JOY TO SPEND TIME TALKING WITH THEM NOW. NOT TO DIGRESS, YES! I FELT AN EXTREME HATE AND RESENTMENT TO TOWARDS MY FRIEND, EVEN THOUGH NOW WE'RE STILL FRIENDS AFTER THE INCIDENT WHENCE SHE TOLD ME "I THINK WE SHOULD STOP BEING FRIENDS",I NOW FEEL VERY MUCH TO END IT ALL MYSELF BUT THE STILL SMALL VOICE TELLS ME HE RECONCILED US, TO ACT OUT ON MY OWN PREROGATIVE WOULD BE ACTING OUT OF GOD'S WILL, HE SAYS LOVE HER WITH HIS PERFECT LOVE... A THORN IN MY FLESH YET GOD'S GRACE IS SUFFICIENT. HER NO. AN EYESORE IN MY HANDPHONE PHONEBOOK AS SOMEHOW ALL THE CONVERSATIONS WE HAD A HEARTACHE NOW BUT THEN JOY UNSPEAKABLE.
BUT TO FOCUS ON CHRIST AND COMMUNION WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT IS THAT WHICH NOW COMFORTS AND FILLS MY HEART WITH PURE JOY.

2. CONSIDER IT PURE JOY, MY BROTHERS, WHENEVER YOU FACE TRIALS OF MANY KINDS, 3.BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT THE TESTING OF YOUR FAITH DEVELOPS PERSEVERANCE 4. PERSEVERANCE MUST FINISH ITS WORK SO THAT YOU MAY MATURE AND COMPLETE, NOT LACKING ANYTHING (JAMES 1:2-4)

CGIS- CUTE GUY INFACTUATION SYNDROME/ CUTE GAL INFACTUATION SYNDROME

2005-01-25T00:35:00.000+08:00

CGIS- IN SHORT;CUTE GUY INFACTUATION SYNDROME/ CUTE GAL INFACTUATION SYNDROME
NOT TO BE CONFUSED WITH CCIS- CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS IN SINGAPORE
WELL I WOULD SAY IM PAST THAT PHRASE OF LIFE. C'MON!!! IM 24 YEARS OLD THIS YEAR FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. WELL, NOT EXACTLY THROUGH WITH IT ENTIRELY YET THOUGH. WELL WELL WELL...WHAT EXCITES AN ADOLESCENTS'HORMONES MORE THAN TO SEE A CUTE GUY/GAL RIGHT?
EVEN MORE SO WHEN HE OR SHE GETS TO TALK TO THAT IDOLISED PERSON FOR EVEN AWHILE WHETHER BE IT IN PERSON OR EVEN BETTER THE TELEPHONE,ADRENALINES ERUPTS...FOLLOWING THE CONVERSATION,THE FEELING LINGERS THEN IT GOES DOWN WITH AN ANTICIPATION OF TALKING THE "NEXT TIME".BUT UNTIL THEN A SENSE OF COUNTERFEIT ONENESS OF EMOTIONS DEVELOPS EITHER BY ONE PARTY OR BOTH. IF SOMEHOW A RELATIONSHIP IS FORGED, THE TENDENCY IS THAT IT'LL SKYROCKET FOR THE INITIAL PHRASE. FROM THERE, MANY POSSIBILITIES MIGHT OCCUR. ONE IS THAT IT'LL GO FURTHER THAN IT SHOULD TO THE POINT OF PHYSICAL INVOLVEMENT CAUSE THEY'VE GONE THROUGH A PHRASE OF EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT AND RELATIONSHIPS DOESN'T HAVE STANDSTILLS IN ITS PROCESS AND ITZ EITHER GROWS OR DIES IF I COULD USE THE ANALOGY OF A PLANT.BUT WHERE ARE IT'S ROOTS? FROM WHERE DOES IT DRAW ITS NUTRIENTS TO GROW? JESUS IS THE VINE AND WE ARE THE BRANCHES,WE HAVE TO BE CONNECTED TO HIM NOT TO EACH OTHER COS IT IS BY BEING IN HIM AND THROUGH HIM CAN WE LIVE AND BE TRUELY SATISFIED.BY BEING CONNECTED IN CHRIST,WE ARE ONE WITH HIM IN EVERY ASPECT OF OUR LIVES.AND GOD LOVES US SO MUCH THAT HE WOULDN'T WANT US TO HAVE INTIMACY WITH ANOTHER DEEPER THAN THAT WE HAVE WITH HIM. SO IF ONE PARTY IN THAT RELATIONSHIP REALISES THAT HE/SHE ISN'T GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AND CHOOSES THEREAFTER TO BE CONNECTED TO CHRIST,THE STRUGGLE WILL BE IN THE EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT INVOLVED AND THE FEAR TO HURT THE OTHER PARTY,WHAT MORE IF PHYSICAL INVOLVEMENT WAS INHERENT? OBLIGATIONS WOULD BE EXCHANGED WITH A FACADE TO LOOSE THE PERSON "GENTLY".WELL SOON ENOUGH A DAY OF RECKONING WILL COME BY WHICH THE PERSON SEES THROUGH THE FACADE AND WOULD FEEL VERY MUCH MORE HURT AND YOU WHILE HOLDING THE TRUTH WILL FEEL THE SENSE OF GUILT FROM YOUR CONSCIENCE. THE BOTTOMLINE IS WHY INVOLVE YOURSELF KNOWING NOW THE PREDICAMENTS AND DILEMA THAT ACCOMPANY TOGETHER WITH RESENTMENT AND REGRET THE CONSEQUENCES OF "PUPPY LOVE" OR LOOK AT THE PERMISSIVE WILL OF GOD OF ALLOWING INFACTUATION MASKING LUST OR WHICH WE ASSUME IS GOD'S WILL FOR US WHEN WE CAN COMMIT OURSELVES ENTIRELY TO HIM AND REMAIN CONNECTED TO HIM TRUSTING IN HIS PERFECT WILL FOR US.
WELL WINDOW SHOPPING IS TEPTATION (LEAD US NOT INTO TEMPTAION???!!!) AND THE CUTE GUYS AND CUTE GALS AINT FOR VIEWING PLEASURE.SO DON'T LET CGIS GET TO US ALRIGHT? SO DOES OUR RAGING HORMONES LEAD US TO TEMPTAION? HMMMM...WAD THEN IS SELF-CONTROL?
~IMPERFECT PRACTITIONER~

PERFECT OR PERMISSIVE

2005-01-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

THERE ARE TWO MAINSTREAM PATHS IN LIFE I WOULD SAY. TO WALK TRUSTING GOD AND WALKING IN HIS PERFECT WILL OR TO WALK IN HIS PERMISSIVE WILL. ONE VERSE I ALWAYS QUOTE IS ROMANS 12:2. TRUE ENOUGH THAT IT VERY MUCH REQUIRES A FOCUSED MIND ON GOD AND WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE FOCUSED AND HOW DO WE BE FOCUSED? AH!!! PLEASE NOTE THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AND OUR IDENTITY WILL ALWAYS REMAIN THE SAME WITH HIM BUT HOW IS OUR FELLOWSHIP WITH GOD? TO WALK IN HIS PERMISSIVE WILL IS TO GO AHEAD AND THEN ASK GOD TO BLESS YOUR YOUR DECISION.SO THEN WHO IS LORD? YES GOD WILL BE WITH YOU THRU BUT AND PROVIDE FOR YOU AS HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT BUT DO YOU WANT HIS PERFECT WILL OR PERMISSIVE WILL.I BELIEVE HIS GRACE IS SHOWN TO LEAD U TOWARD HIS PERFECT WILL,TO A LIFE OF ABUNDANCE,A LIFE YOU'LL KNOW WILL PLEASE GOD.JUST LIKE IN MOSES TIME WHERE THE PEOPLE JUST FOLLOWED WHERE THE PRESENCE OF GOD LED AND MOSES WOULDN'T GO UNLESS GOD IS GOING TO BE THE ONE TO LEAD.BUT WHEN THE PPL REBELLEDAND WANDERED IN THE WILDERNESS AS A RESULT OF CHOOSING THE PERMISSIVE WILL OF GOD,HE STILL PROVIDED FOR THEM BUT THEY WERE LEFT WITH A SENSE OF DISSATISFACTION AS THEY COULD SEE THE PERFECT WILL OF GOD TO ENTER THE PROMISE LAND BUT DUE TO THEIR WILLFULNESS, GOD GAVE THEM TO THEIR SIN BUT HIS GRACE WAS SUFFICIENT ON THEM IN PROVIDING FOR THEM. THE GRACE OF GOD LEADS US TO THAT LIFE OF ABUNDANCE JESUS WAS TALKING ABOUT, ALIKE THAT OF SIN,GRACE LEADS US TO REPENTENCE NOT THAT GRACE WILL BE MORE ABUNDANT IF WE WERE TO SIN MORE AND OUR WILLFULNESS IS SIN,SIN IS HARMATIA IN GREEK. IT MEANS TO MISS THE MARK,THE MARK GOD HAD SET UP FOR US. GOD TAUGHT ME THIS RECENTLY IF YOU REALLY WANT TO GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP,MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD HAS VERY MUCH GOTTA BE BETTER THAN THE OTHER PERSON COS HE IS THE SAME YESTERDAY,TODAY AND FOREVER AND HE IS A JEALOUS GOD. THATZ WHY I CHOSE TO PLACE GOD AS THE FOUNDATION AND THE PILLARS , THE ALPHA AND OMEGA OF OUR FRIENDSHIPS AND RELATIONSHIPS WHATSOEVER.

: (

2005-01-19T19:58:00.000+08:00

Walk away if you want to.
It’s ok, if you need to.
Well, you can run, but you can never hide
From the shadow that’s creepin’ up beside you.

And, there’s a magic runnin’ through your soul,
But you can’t have it all.
(whatever you do)
Well, I’ll be two steps behind you
(wherever you go)
And I’ll be there to remind you
That it only takes a minute of your precious time
To turn around and I’ll be two steps behind.

Yeah, yeah.
Take the time to think about it.
Just walk the line, you know you just can’t fight it
And take a look around, you’ll see what you can’t find,
Like the fire that’s burnin’ up inside me.

Yeah, yeah.
Oh.
Yeah, baby.
Two steps behind
Oh, sugar,
Two steps behind.

WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH, THE TOUGH GETS GOING BUT REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAW ONE SET OF FOOTPRINTS, GOD IS THE ONE CARRYING YOU THROUGH

2005-01-16T21:49:00.000+08:00

IN LIFE WE FACE PEOPLE WHO TELLS US LIES,PEOPLE WE LOVE VERY MUCH TOO.WE GET HURT, WE FALL DOWN,BUT ARE WE GOING TO REMAIN WHERE WE ARE AND REMAIN BEATEN? I URGE YOU THEN WHEN YOU'RE FACING IT TO COME BEFORE THE LORD.A BROKEN SPIRIT,A BROKEN CONTRITE HEART HE WILL NOT DESPISE.I LEARNT THAT IF PEOPLE I LOVE LIE TO ME,I JUST HAVE TO FORGIVE BUT IT SHOWS THAT THE PERSON'S CONSCIENCE HAS BEEN SEARED TO THE PROMPTING OF THE HOLY SPIRIT.IF THE PERSON ISNT A BELIEVER...WE FORGIVE STILL. I'LL ADVISE GETTING RID OF WHATEVER REMINDS YOU OF THE PERSON TO AVOID CARRYING A STIGMA HAUNTING YOU,COMMIT YOUR MEMOERY OF THE PERSON TO THE LORD. IF THE PERSON IS A BELIEVER...LOVE WILL TAKE WHATEVER YOU HAVE GIVEN TO THE PERSON BACK AND IF YOU ARE ONE WHO FEARS IT'LL HAUNT YOU...HAND IT ALL TO SOMEBODY YOU ARE ABLE TO CONFIDE IN AND YOU ARE ACCOUNTABLE TO,SPIRITUALLY AND EMOTIONALLY MATURE.AND IF IT IS THE LORDS WILL, HE WILL BRING TWO OF YOU TOGETHER AGAIN AND THERE'LL BE A TIME TO CATCH UP HERE AND THERE BUT YOU HAVE FIRST TO MAKE RIGHT EVERYTHING WHETHER YOU WERE IN A WRONG OR THE OTHER PERSON WHOM YOU LOVE, AND YOU TWO HAVE TO LOVE EACH OTHER AGAIN WITH THE LOVE OF THE LORD.TO END A FRIENDSHIP SHOULDN'T BE A CONTINGENCY SOLUTION AND PRAY FOR THE LORD'S INTERVENTION AND THAT HE WILL BE YOUR MEDIATOR THERE IN YOUR FRIENDSHIP. DON'T TALK TOO MUCH,INSTEAD LISTEN TO WHAT GOD HAS TO SAY, HE WANTS TO DO A WORK THERE IN BOTH YOUR HEARTS AND DON'T LET OUT YOUR REPRESSED FRUSTRATION THAT THE OTHER PARTY INITIATED THE BREAK UP,AND THAT YOU NEVER SEEN A BREAK UP AS A CONTINGENCY SOLUTION...PRAY!!! IVE MADE THE MISTAKE MYSELF OF TALKING TOO MUCH WHEN GOD WANTS TO DO A WORK IN OUR HEARTS AND HE ASKED ME TO SHUY UP AND WHAT IM SAYING IS HINDERING THE WORK HE IS DOING, I THEN REALISED HE IS RIGHT....EVERYTIME I QUARREL WITH MY FRIEND,I'LL GO TO GOD IN PRAYER ASKING FOR HIM TO BE OUR MEDIATOR AND HE ALWAYS WITHOUT FAIL MAKE THINGS RIGHT BETWEEN US...100% GUARANTEED!!!
WHY I NEVER SEEN A BREAKING UP AS A CONTINGENCY SOLUTION? GOD NEVER INTENDS A RELATIONSHIP PUT INTO HIS HAND TO DIVORCE AS MUCH AS IT IS BUT A FRIENDSHIP TO BREAK UP LIKEWISE...BUT WE CAN'T STOP THE OTHER PARTY IF THE PERSON WANTS IT, ALL WE CAN DO IS LOVE THE PERSON AND ASK GOD FOR THE PEACE TO AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE SOFTEN THE HEART OF THAT PERSON TO RECONCILE, BUT OUR CHOICES AND THE WILL OF GOD DOES GO INTO CONFLICT OR THE OTHER FEELS THAT ONE COULD FOCUS,LOVE AND SERVE ON GOD WITHOUT THE OTHER, ALLOW THE PARTING.I BELIEVE THAT THE BODY OF CHRIST SHOULD HAVE NO DISSENSION WHATSOEVER AND WHETHER ONE REMAINS AS FRIENDS OR NOT.THEY'RE STILL GONNA BE ABLE TO LOOK EACH OTHER IN THE EYE WITH LOVE, THE PERFECT LOVE OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST WHOSE LOVE HUNG HIM ON THE CROSS CONNECTING US TO GOD CLOTHING US IN RIGHTEOUSNESS THRU JESUS AND CONNECTING US ON THE HORIZONTAL PLANE,JOINING OUR HANDS TOGETHER. SIN IN THE BOOK OF ROMANS CAUSED OUR MINDS TO BE DEPRAVED AND IT DESTROYED RELATIONSHIP GOD INTENDED PURE.
THEREFORE I URGE YOU TO LOOK AT FRIENDSHIP AS NOT MERE COINCIDENCE, INSTEAD IT IS A DIVINE INTERVENTION OF GOD THAT IN A FRIENDSHIP, WE LEARN TO LOVE COS GOD IS LOVE, IF WE CANNOT LOVE EACH OTHER WHOM WE CAN SEE,HOW CAN WE SAY WE LOVE GOD WE CANNOT SEE? THEREFORE LOVING EACH OTHER GLORIFIES GOD.

SENSE AND SENIBILITY

2005-01-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

ON 10.01.2005, MY BEST FRIEND TOLD ME SHE WANTED TO END THE FRIENDSHIP SENDING ME AN SMS AT 2125 HRS.I WAS THEN LEFT SPEECHLESS, COULDNT FINISH MY DINNER AND SWITCHED OFF THE COMPUTER AND WENT INTO MY ROOM. THERE I WANTED TO WRESTLE WITH GOD BUT I COULDN'T, I LOST ALL STRENGTH THEN COS GOD DIDNT WANT TO WRESTLE WITH ME, HE WANTED TO COUNSEL ME.I HAD THEN WHAT I WOULD CALL THE GETHSAMANE EXPERIENCE. I WAS IN SUCH ANGONY, BLOOD WOULD HAVE CAME OUT TOGETHER WITH MY PERSPIRATION BUT ALL I KNEW WAS I WAS PERSPIRING IN A AIR-CONDITIONED ROOM AND THAT JESUS THEN FELT THE ENTIRE WEIGHT OF SIN FROM THE WORLD AND TOOK THEM AS HIS OWN, I COULD ONLY BUT HAVE FELT MY OWN SIN, AND WHAT WAS IN MY HEART THEN WAS "YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD REFLECTS ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH PEOPLE AROUND YOU AND ESPECIALLY YOUR FRIENDS.THE GRACE YOU TOOK FOR GRANTED BY GOD WAS REFLECTING SO MUCH ON THAT OF ME TAKING FOR GRANTED LIKEWISE MY BEST FRIEND'S GRACE ON ME. I THEN FELT SO UNWORTHY BUT GOD POURED HID LOVE ON ME THEN I WEPT AND SAYING "GOD,PLEASE DO NOT TURN YOUR FACE FROM ME". GOD GAVE ME THE ASSURANCE THAT I HAVE BEEN CLOTHED IN HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS THROUGH THE BLOOD OF JESUS COS WE HAVE BEEN CRUCIFIED WITH AND IN CHRIST AND OUR SINS THAT NAILED HIM WAS LEFT ON THE CROSS WHILE WE WERE RESURRECTED TOGETHER WITH AND IN HIM. BUT AFTER THE PRAYER AT GETHSAMANE JESUS WAS TAKEN TO BE CRICIFIED AND LIKEWISE WE'RE REMINDED TO TAKE UP OUR CROSS DAILY, THE PREREQUISITE TO BE HIS DISCIPLE. I LEARNT THAT FROM THE GETHSAMANE EXPERIENCE OF PRAYER,WE'RE TO CARRY OUR CROSS AND I'LL LOVE HER AND BY THAT RESPECTING WHATEVER HER DECISION.IF WE WERE TO CONTINUE OUR FRIENDSHIP,THE FRIENDSHIP MUST BE TOWARDS GLORIFYING GOD THROUGH IT AS INDIVIDUALS SHARING HIS LOVE AMONG OURSELVES AND OF COURSE WITH OUR OWN CIRCLE OF FRIENDS BUT STILL OUR SOURCE OF LOVE MUST BE FROM GOD AND OUR 100% FOCUS ON HIM.AND IF THE FRIENDSHIP ENDED, IT ISNT THE END OF THE WORLD BUT WE HAD STILL TO GLORIFY GOD AS INDIVIDUALS WITH 100% FOCUS ON GOD, COS GOD KNOWS IF FRIENDSHIP CONTINUES IT'LL NOT BE CENTRED TOWARDS HIM. WE TOO MUST CAUTION OURSELVES WITH THE GUIDANCE OF HIS HOLY SPIRIT TO GUARD OUR HEARTS AND MINDS IN CHRIST JESUS.I HAVE LOTS LOTS TO MATURE STILL. THANK YOU GOD...I LOVE YA!!!

WIERD SONG

2005-01-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

PLB IS FALLING DOWN
FALLING DOWN
FALLING DOWN
(REPEAT)

-MY P.M.P

PLB-PASSENGER LOADING BRIDGE
P.M.P- PSYCHO MOTOR PROBLEM

THOUGHT OF THIS STUPID "SONG" WHILST I WAS HAVING MY PLB OPERATOR COURSE TODAY.

WHO AM I ?????

2005-01-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

MY TITLE DEFINATELY ISNT TALKING ABOUT THE JACKIE CHAN MOVIE...
I AM A CHILD OF GOD
YEAH!!! THATZ WAD I AM
IVE BEEN GIVEN GIFTS...THE GIFT OF KNOWLEDGE...NOT EXACTLY ACADEMICALLY BUT ON THE WORD OF GOD. BUT THEN AGAIN, THE LETTER KILLS BUT THE SPIRIT GIVES LIFE...IT CAN BE VERY DRY ON ITS OWN.I SHARED THIS WITH MY FRIEND TAT I HAF THIS PROBLEM...ALL THE KNOWLEDGE NOW IS IN MY HEAD AND METAPHORICALLY I SAID IT IS A NAIL,YEAP IT HAS THE SHARPNESS AND THE POTENTIAL TO BE DRIVEN INTO AN OBJECT BUT ITZ USELESS.
WHEN I READ,IT REINFORCES THE KNOWLEDGE TAT I ALREADY HAVE,THE SHEER WEIGHT OF IT IS INTIMIDATING...IT HAS VERY MUCH THE CAPABILITY OF DRIVING THE NAIL BUT THEN AGAIN WITHOUT SOMEBODY HANDLING THE HAMMER ITZ USELESS. TO DRIVE IN THE NAIL,SOMEONE HAS TO HOLD THE HAMMER AND KNOCK IT AND THAT IS WHAT I WOULD CALL THE CONVICTION...I REALLY WANT GOD TO BE THE ONE HOLDING THE HAMMER TO DRIVE THE NAIL IN WITH CONVICTION.WE MUST BE CONVICTED IN OUR HEARTS BEFORE WE CAN USE WHAT WE KNOW TO IMPACT LIVES. LIKE TAT IN HEB 4:12
FOR THE WORD OF GOD ISLIVING AND ACTIVE.SHARPER THAN ANY DOUBLE EDGED SWORD, IT PENETRATES TO DIVIDING SOUL AND SPIRIT,JOINTS AND MARROW; IT JUDGES THE THOUGHTS AND ATTITUDE OF THE HEART.
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

THIS AIN'T A LOVE SONG

2004-12-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

I should have seen it coming when roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
I should have listened when you said good night
You really meant good bye
Baby, ain’t it funny, how you never ever learn to fall
You’re really on your knees, when you think you’re standing tall
But only fools are "know-it-alls" and I played that fool for you

I cried and I cried
There were nights that died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain’t that long
Then I’m wrong, yeah I’m wrong, this ain’t a love song

Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime but
We were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind
Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade
The clowns wore smiles that wouldn’t fade
You and I were the renegades, some things never change

It made me so mad ’cause I wanted it bad for us baby
Now it’s so sad that whatever we had, ain’t worth saving
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I’ve cried ain’t that long
Then I’m wrong, yes I’m wrong, this ain’t a love song

If the pain that I’m feeling so strong
Is the reason that I’m holding on
Then I’m wrong, yeah I’m wrong - this ain’t a love song

I cried and I cried
There were nights that I died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain’t that long
Then I’m wrong, yeah I’m wrong - this ain’t no love song

If the pain that I’m feeling so strong
Is the reason that I’m holding on
Then I’m wrong, yeah I’m wrong - this ain’t a love song

If the pain that I’m feeling so strong
Is the reason that I’m holding on
Then I’m wrong, yeah I’m wrong - this ain’t a love song
Yes, I’m wrong, yeah, I’m wrong - this ain’t a love song
Yes, I’m wrong, yeah, I’m wrong - this ain’t a love song
Yes, I’m wrong, yeah, I’m wrong - this ain’t a love song

STILL LOVING YOU

2004-12-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there ...
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there ...
Fight, baby I fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there ...
Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again all the way from the start
I would try to change things that killed our love
Your pride has built the wall so strong that I can't getthrough!
Is there really no chance to start once again?
I'm loving you.

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there ...
Love our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there ...

If we'd go again all the way from the start
I would try to change things that killed our love
Your pride has built the wall so strong that I can't getthrough!
Is there really no chance to start once again?

If we'd go again all the way from the start
I would try to change things that killed our love
Yes I hurt your pride and I know what you been through
You should give me a chance, this can't be the end

I'm still loving you ...
I'm still loving you ...
I'm still loving you ...
I'm still loving you ...

Still Loving You Baby

BIRTHDAY BOi

2004-12-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY WAS TOTALLY COOL SIAL...WENT TO WORK IN THE MORNING AS USUAL.
YEAH BTW THE DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY WAS TOTALLY CRAP MANZ!!! I COLOURED MY HAIR GREY...N GOT IT OFF SOON AFTER.I WAS DOING SOME PAINTING IN QUITE AN ENCLOSED SPACE AND COMPLETED ONE SIDE AND TURNED TO THE OPPOSITE SIDE TO PAINT AND SOME OF IT GOT ONTO MY HAIR.I HAD TO SHAMPOOED MY HAIR WITH THINNER THEN LATER WITH CLAIROL HERBAL SHAMPOO.

Trouble

Uh oh we're in trouble something's come along
and it's burst our bubble yeah yeah
uh oh we're in trouble gotta get home quick
march on the double
we've been out all night
nd we haven't been home we're walking through
the back streets all alone
the party was great yeah we were really thrilled
and when we get in we're gonna get killed
we couldn't get a cab 'cause we ain't got to money
we missed the last train bus but the night bus
never come we're eight miles from home
and it's starting to

UH OH WE'RE IN TROUBLE- SHAMPOO

Uh oh we're in trouble something's come along
and it's burst our bubble
yeah yeah uh oh we're in trouble book us a ticket
on the next space shuttle yeah yeah trouble
we tried to steal a car but we soon realised
we got down the road none of us could drive
a police car came along and they took us for a ride
and when we get home we're gonna get gonna get fried
uh oh we're in trouble yeah yeah uh oh we're in trouble
uh oh we're in trouble something's came along
and it's burst our bubble yeah yeah
oh oh we're in trouble book us a ticket
on the next space shuttle

THEN AFTER I GOT MY HAIR ALL CLEANED UP.I WENT BACK AND HAD MY HAIR CUT.

ANYWAYS ON MY BIRTHDAY...
I WENT TO WATCH ALEXANDER WITH GRACE AND HER SCHOOL FRIEND AND JEFF.
WHOAH ITZ A LONG SHOW ALRIGHT?
IT WAS LIKE FROM 2030 HRS TO LIKE 2340HRS

GRACE GOT ME THIS COOL JOKE BOOK FROM THE PAERLY GATES AND JEFF+PAUL GOT ME A DRUM WORKSHOP DVD.THANKS DUDES!!!

ENOUGH

2004-11-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

I HAVE NEVER LIKED QUARRELING WITH YOU COS TO ARGUE IS ALWAYS A LOSE-LOSE SITUATION. WHETHER EITHER ONE OF US THINKS WE'RE RIGHT...WE'RE LOSING EACH OTHER MORE AND MORE.
ITZ PAINFUL ENOUGH...HAS YOUR ATTITUDE CHANGED TOWARDS ME? ONLY YOU CAN ANSWER YOURSELF.DUN WANNA FIGHT NO MORE,DUN WANNA QUARREL NO MORE.
REGRETTED DELETING YOU FROM MY MSN CONTACT LIST. JUST FELT SO DEPRESSED AS TO WHY YOUR ATTITUDE TO ME WAS LIKE SO INDIFFERENT TOWARDS ME W/O CONSIDERING THAT YOU'RE ACTUALLY BUSY.
IM VERY SORRY.

DUN WORRY BE HAPPY

2004-11-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS JUST LIKE ANY OTHER DAY
ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING OSO MY SUPERVISORS WILL CALL MY NAME. IVE GOT LIKE SO MANY THINGS TO DO SIAL. HAHAS...IM ERRAND MAN...U CAN BUY THE ACTION FIGURINE FROM THE TOY SHOP NEAR YOU (batteries not included). IM LIKE ASKED TO COLLECT PHOTOS FROM ALL MY COLLEAUGES,BFR COMPUTING, GO CAAS OFFICE AND FINANCE OFFICE AND FIX SOON TO BE TRAINED FIRST AIDER.
DUNNO Y MY SUPERVISOR FROWNED WHEN I CLEARED THE FOOD AFTER LUNCH AND THEY COMMENTED WITH SARCASM IN A FORM OF A QUESTION LIKE WHY DONT'T I WORK AS THE CLEANER IN THE CANTEEN.WHATS WRONG WITH HELPING THE CLEANER THROW THE DISPOSABLE PLATES AFTER OUR MEALS?

YAYS!!! FOUND BACK MY FAVOURITE DRUMSTICK LE!!! HAHS

INDEED FAMILARITY BREEDS CONTEMPT BUT I CHOOSE NOT TO CONFORM TO THAT THINKING COS I STILL BELIEVE FAMILARITY CAN LEAD TO GREATER INTIMACY.

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT

2004-11-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

I TOTALLY CANNOT BELIEVE IT...CHERIE'S BROTHER WHO IS 8 YEARS OF AGE DEFEATED ME IN CHESS

LORD I OFFER MY LIFE

2004-11-22T22:11:00.000+08:00

ALL THAT I AM
ALL THAT HAVE
I LAY THEM DOWN BEFORE YOU O LORD
ALL MY REGRETS, ALL MY ACCLAIMS
THE JOY AND THE PAIN
I'M MAKING THEM YOURS

CHORUS:
LORD I OFFER MY LIFE TO YOU
EVERYTHING IVE BEEN THRU
USE IT FOR UR GLORY
LORD I OFFER MY DAYS TO YOU
LIFTING MY PRAISE TO YOU
AS A PLEASING SACRIFICE
LORD I OFFER YOU MY LIFE

THINGS IN THE PAST
THINGS YET UNSEEN
WISHES AND DREAMS THAT ARE YET TO COME TRUE
ALL OF MY HOPES,ALL OF MY PLANS
MY HEART AND MY HANDS
ARE LIFTED TO YOU

THIS WAS THE SONG I COMMITED MY LIFE TO GOD AND HIS CALLING AT THE ALTER CALL WHEN I WAS 12 AT MY VERY FIRST YOUTH CAMP W/O MY PARENTS WITH ME AT MALACCA WHOSE SPEAKER THEN WAS PS CHRISTOPHER LONG RIGHT AFTER MY PSLE.AND I BELIEVE THAT ITZ GONNA COME TO PAST. AMEN

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!!

22/11/2004

2004-11-22T19:51:00.000+08:00

COOL!!! WENT FOR 2ND SVC AS USUAL AND AFTER THAT WENT WITH ALVIN FAN TO MAC DONALDS TO EAT AND THAT’S WHERE THE FUN BEGINS. I FOUND OUT WHICH GROUP MY FRIEND WAS IN AND ALL THAT.THEN WENT TO JOIN ANNA, DILYS, JEAN, JANICE FAN, CHIANG XIANG,REBEKAH AND ALVIN FAN HIMSELF.
JOIN YOUTH SVC…MUCH OF WHAT WAS SAID ABOUT SACRIFICES, SOMEHOW I HAD THE CONCEPT IN ME ALREADY AND I TAUGHT TO MY FRIEND WHEN AHEM…HE NEEDED IT…WHEN WE SURRENDER TO GOD, WE SURRENDER EVERYTHING TO HIM. BUT MANY A TIME ME TEND TO COMPARTMENTALISE HIM INTO BEING THE LORD OF ONLY CERTAIN ASPECTS OF OUR LIVES AND NOT SOME. WE ONLY KNOW IT WHEN CONSEQUENCE COMES KNOCKING ON OUR DOOR THAT WE REALISE WE HAVENT SURRENDERED OUR WHOLE LIFE TO CHRIST BUT WE TOOK FOR GRANTED THAT HE’LL TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING WHEN WE CHOSE TO HOLD BACK FROM GOD THOSE AREAS. THEN WE BLAME GOD.

PASSED TO CHERIE THE LOVE ACTUALLY VCD…HAHAS…SOMEMORE WANNA FIND OUT WHO IS IN HER GROUP AND HER LEADERS FOR THE CHURCH CAMP.

ANYWAYS MY PARENTS BOUGHT ME A NEW PAIR OF TRAINING GLOVES FROM THE STATES. ITZ TOTALLY COOL!!!

ANTI-CLIMAX

ONE THING I WONDER IS IF THERE ISNT ANYTHING WRONG….WHY DOES IT SEEM THAT URE TREATING ME SO DIFFERENTLY AS IN AS IF YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW ME IN FRONT OF OTHERS?AND WHY ARE YOU NOT TALKING TO ME AS WE USED TO? …YOU SEEMED SO FRUSTRATED TALKING TO ME…WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED???
I WISH I CEASE TO EXIST SO THAT YOUR LIFE CAN BE HAPPIER.

I'll Stand By You - The Pretenders

2004-11-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
and you don't know what to do
Nothing you confess could make me love you less.

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So, if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well, I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
and don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong...

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you...

IZZIT TRUE ???

2004-11-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

IS IT TRUE THAT :
MOST PEOPLE TEND TO LOOK FOR THEIR LIFE PARTNER THROUGH SOMETHING THEY SEE IN THEM WHICH THEY LACK IN THEMSELVES?
HMMMMM....

"When Love And Hate Collide"

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby, united we fall

Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time

Without you
One night alone Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby, like an act of war
I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes

There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time

[Repeat Chorus]

[SOLO]

You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby...Crazy...Crazy

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
If you have a heart at all
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

SADNESS ~ Fixing A Broken Heart

2004-11-18T20:31:00.000+08:00

NEWS CAME TO MY EARS TODAY THAT AFTER APPLYING FOR MY LEAVE FOR THE CAMP THAT I EITHER HAVE TO TOTALLY NOT GO FOR THE CAMP, GO FOR THE CAMP AND FORFEIT A CERTAIN PERCENTAGE OF MY PAY OR CUT SHORT ON THE DURATION OF THE CAMP AND GO BACK EARLIER THAN EVERYBODY ELSE AS I HAVE TO ATTEND A FIRST AID COURSE CONDUCYED BY ST. JOHN'S.
ISN'T ST. JOHN THE ONE FROM THE BIBLE WHO WROTE ABOUT LOVE? WHY CANT THEY SHOW ME SOME OF IT AND LET ME ENJOY THE CAMP ENTIRELY? HAIZ...

There was nothing to say
The day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I held a taxi in the rain
Looking for someplace to ease the pain

Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there

*CHORUS*
You really know where to start
Fixing my broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Oh yeah

Now I don't understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that lead me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are near
Yeah

Just like an answered prayer
You made the loneliness easy to bear

*CHORUS*
You really know where to start
Fixing my broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past
Cause here we are at last

*CHORUS*
You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Fixing a broken heart

R & B

2004-11-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

I love and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do
Need you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
Boy, you know I'm crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
You know I'm crazy over you

Uh-uh-uh-uh
I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me
And she got the hots for me, the finest thing I need to see
But oh, no, no, she got a man and a son, oh-oh, but that's okay
'Cause I wait for my cue and just listen, play my position
Like a shortstop, pick up e'rything mami hittin'
And in no time I better make this friend mine and that's for sure
'Cause I-I never been the type to break up a happy home
But there's something 'bout baby girl, I just can't leave her 'lone
So tell me, ma, what's it gonna be
She said, “You don't know what you mean to me,” come on

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
Boy, you know I'm crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
You know I'm crazy over you

Uh-uh-uh-uh
I see a lot in your look and I never say a word
I know how n****s start actin' trippin' , and hate up all the girls
And there's no way Nelly go for it
Ain't f***in' with no dame, as you could see
But I-I like your steeze, your style, your whole demeanor
The way you come through and holler, and swoop me in his two-seater
Now that's gangsta and I got special ways to thank ya, don't you forget it
But it ain't that easy for you to back up and leave him
But you and me we got ties for different reasons
I respect that and right before I turned to leave
She said, “You don't know what you mean to me,” come on

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
Boy, you know I'm crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
You know I'm crazy over you

Sing it for me, K

I love and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do
And it's more than you'll ever know
Boy, it's for sure
You can always count on my love
Forever more, yeah, yeah

East coast, I know you're shakin' right
Down south, I know you're bouncin' right
West coast, I know you're walkin' right
('Cause you don't know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin' right

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
Boy, you know I'm crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
You know I'm crazy over you

East coast, I know you're shakin' right
Down south, I know you're bouncin' right
West coast, I know you're walkin' right
(You don't know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin' right

East coast, you're still shakin' right
Down south, I know you're bouncin' right
West coast, I know you're walkin' right
(You don't know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you're still swingin' right

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
Boy, you know I'm crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I'm with my Boo
You know I'm crazy over you

Yeah, yeah

East coast, I know you're shakin' right
Down south, I know you're bouncin' right
West coast, I know you're walkin' right
(You don't know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin' right

East coast, you're still shakin' right
Down south, I know you're bouncin' right
West coast, I know you're walkin' right
(You don't know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you're still swingin' right

TRANSFORMERS!!! MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE

2004-11-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

CAN'T WAIT FOR CHURCH CAMP DUDES!!!
AS WAD ARNOLD SCHWARZENEGGER SAID BEFORE TERMINATING HIMSELF IN 'TERMINATOR 2' HE SAID "I NEED A VACATION". HAHAS.
MY PLATOON SERGEANT IN BMT ALWAYS ASKS ME TO CITE FAMOUS ARNOLD SCHWARZENEGGER PHRASES DE.HAHAS
TODAY IS JUST LIKE ANY OTHER DAY AT THE RANCH.
I SHALL END THIS BEFORE MY DEPRESSION TURNS CONTAGIOUS.

Something evil's watching over you
Comin' from the sky above
And there's nothing you can do

Prepare to strike
There'll be no place to run
When your caught within the grip
Of the evil Unicron

Transformers
More than meets the eye
Transformers
Robots in Disguise

Strong enough to break the bravest heart
So we have to pull together
We can't stay worlds apart

To stand divided we will surely fall
Until our darkest hour
When the light will save us all

Transformers
More than meets the eye
Transformers
Robots in Disguise
Transformers

Autobots wage their Battle
To destroy the evil forces
Of the Decepticons

It's judgment day and now we've made our stand
And now the powers of darkness
Have been driven from our land

The Battle's over but the war has just begun
And this way it will remain til the day when all are one

Transformers
Transformers
Transformers
Transformers
More than meets the eye

STUCKED

2004-11-15T21:01:00.000+08:00

IM LIKE STUCKED TO MY CHAIR THE WHOLE DAY IN FRONT OF THE COM LO.
SO CHATTING WITH ANYONE WHO COMES ONLINE. HAHAS.
PLAYED NAVAL COMMAND WITH CHERIE OSO.
DINNER IS PIZZA STOCKED UP BY MY MAMA BEFORE SHE LEFT WITH DADA TO THE STATES. LOVE MY FRIENDS SOOOO MUCH... HAHAS
IM CRAP MANZ...TOLD PAUL MY MAMA SENT THE PIZZA IN A PARCEL AND ALL I DID WAS ASK HIM TO PUT THEM INTO THE FRIDGE.

Ant And Dec - Stuck On You Lyrics Been a long time
But I gotta just say
Wanna tell you now
That I'm stuck this way
Been a long time
But I gotta just say
Wanna tell you now
That I'm stuck this way
Now listen to the words
That are comin' through
I got attention just for you
Pull the phone
Close the door
And I'll tell ya
What's long over do
Another day
Another night
Another reason
You'll find I sure do care
Like a dog
A dog on a lead
I'm gonna follow you everywhere
I will stay
I'm gonna love ya
Every step of the way
(like dog, a dog on a lead)
I will stay
I'm gonna love ya
Every step of the way
(I'm gonna beg now)
Nah nah nah nah nah
Hey-e-ay-e-yeah
Nah nah nah nah
You know I'm stuck on you
Nah nah nah nah nah
Hey-e-ay-e-yeah
Nah nah nah nah
You know I'm stuck on you
Com on girl
C'mon move closer
I gotta q! ! uench my thirst for you
Settle down
Poor the wine
And I'll let you feel what's comin throught...
A sumertime
A summer shine
A summer season
You know you're gonna really take me there
[Repeat to fade:
I will stay
I'm gonna love ya
Every step of the way
(like dog, a dog on a lead)
I will stay
I'm gonna love ya
Every step of the way
(I'm gonna beg now)

THE REASON

2004-11-15T01:15:00.000+08:00

HOOBASTANK LYRICS - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish I could take it all away
And me the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

EVENTFUL SUNDAY AFTERNOON

2004-11-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS GREAT!!! WENT OUT WITH JEFF LONG,PAUL,RACHEL FUN,SALLY TAN AND ELAINE CHUA TO PLAZA SINGAPURA. ACTUALLY WAS SUPPOSED TO WATCH "THE INCREDIBLES" DE BUT HOR THEATRE WAS LIKE PACKED UNLESS WE'RE WILLING TO TAKE THE FIRST ROW. LAST TIME I AND WINSTON SAT IN THE 2nd ROW TO WATCH THE 6th SENSE.HAHAHAS....YAHZ...NVM TAT...WE THEN SAT AT STARBUCKS AND PLAYED SCRABLE LO...HAHAS...I CONTRIBUTED SO MANY WORDS LO... COS WE PLAYED AS A TEAM WITH JEFF, PAUL WITH SALLY AND ELAINE WITH RACHEL.
WE DIDNT WIN BUT NEITHER DID WE LOSE.HAHAS...LATER HOR...WE WENT TO THE FOOD COURT TO MAKAN THEN I MET DARYL TAN,ANTHONY AND HIS BRO, WEE HEONG,REUBEN FOO AND CALEB LO.
HAHAS.TATZ ABT IT LE...
EEEEHHHH WAIT YA....TODAY 2nd SVC SERMON HOR HAHAS...PETER PREACHED AND MUCH OF IT DID SHARED RATHER SIMILARLY TO WAD I ALREADY DO KNOW LO ABT BUILDING A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD'S HOUSEHOLD.BUT THERE'RE STUFF HE TOT TAT I HAD TO GRASP COS I DUNNO EVERYTHING LO...HAHAS...

FIRST TIME

2004-11-13T20:59:00.000+08:00

HAHAS...TODAY WAS THE FIRST TIME EVER TO ********* DRUM ROLL ************
EAT THE MAC DONALDS QUATER POUNDER.HAHAS GUESS TAT WAS NTH LO... I USED TO EAT LIKE 4 HAMBURGERS FOR A MEAL LO.
BUT THIS ONE IS BETTA AND TODAY WAS ALSO MY FIRST TIME TO *********** DRUM ROLL ******* TAKE THE LRT. HAHAS. WAS SO TIRED SIAL THE WHOLE DAY COS I HAVE BEEN SLEEPING NO EARLIER THAN 0200 EVERY MORNING AND WAKING UP AT 0800.
TODAY HOR...I MET ANNA HAN AT THE BUS STOP TO GO HOME FROM ROYAL RANGERS COINCIDENTALLY. AND TATZ ABT IT FOR AN INTERESTING DAY.
KAEZ...

IS THERE STILL FRIENDSHIP BETWEEN US?

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes he's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

CHORUS:
And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "Never"
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

CHORUS

I WILL BE HERE FOR YOU

When you feel the sunlight
Fade into the cold night
Don't know where to turn
I don't know where to turn
And all the dreams you're dreaming
Seem to lose their meaning
Let me in your world
Baby, let me in your world
All you need is someone you can hold
Don't be sad, you're not alone
Chorus:
I will be here for you
Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you

In this world of strangers
Of cold and friendly faces
Someone you can trust
Oh there's someone you can trust
I will be your shelter
I'll give you my shoulder
Just reach out for my love
Reach out for my love
Call my name and my heart will hear
I will be there, there's nothing to fear

Chorus

HOLIDAY

2004-11-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

SLEPT AT LIKE 0300 AM THIS MORNING AND WOKE UP AT ARD 10 BY MY DOG WAILING AND WHINNING COS SHE KINDA MISSES MY MAMA AS SHE IS RATHER ATTACHED TO HER. WAS ON THE COMPUTER FROM THE TIME I WOKE UP TILL ARD 1700 HRZ COS I WENT TO WATCH MOVIE WITH WINSTON. WE WATCH "TAXI"...HAHAS TRYING TO COPY THE FRENCH VERSION LO...HAHAS
ONLY THING WAS TAT IN THIS ONE THEY'RE USING A 'FORD' AND IN THE FRENCH ONE, THEY'RE USING PEUGEOT.YEAPZ
AND IN BETWEEN THE TIME I WOKE UP I LEFT FOR THE THE MOVIE.
SHIT HAPPENS!!!

IT WAS LIKE CRAP MANZ! I WANTED TO EAT PIZZA SO I TOOK THE PIZZA OUTTA THE FRIDGE TO THAW THE PIZZA AND PRE-HEAT THE OVEN AND WENT BACK TO THE COM. I CAME BACK INTO THE KITCHEN TO CHECK IF THE OVEN WAS READY ONLY TO SMELL SOMETHING FISHY. NOT THAT THE PIZZA WAS SEAFOOD THAT EMITTED THE SMELL. BUT I PRE-HEATED THE OVEN NOT NOTICING A PHOTO FRAME ON TOP OF THE OVEN AND IT MELTED.

BEE GEES LYRICS:

Holiday

Ooh you're a holiday , such a holiday
Ooh you're a holiday , such a holiday

It's something I thinks worthwhile
If the puppet makes you smile
If not then you're throwing stones
Throwing stones, throwing stones

Ooh it's a funny game
Don't believe that it's all the same
Can't think what I've just said
Put the soft pillow on my head

Millions of eys can see
Yet why am I so blind
When the someone else is me
It's unkind, it's unkind

de de de de de de de de de de de de de
de de de de de de de de de de de de de

Yet millions of eyes can see
Yet why am I so blind
When the someone else is me
It's unkind, it's unkind

Ooh you're a holiday , ev'ry day , such a holiday
Now it's my turn to say , and I say you're a holiday
It's something I thinks worthwhile
If the puppet makes you smile
If now then you're throwing stones
Throwing stones , throwing stones

de de de de de de de de de de de de de de

IF I AIN'T GOT YOU

2004-11-10T01:53:00.000+08:00

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

FATS

2004-11-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

I JUST REALISED HOW MUCH SATURATED FAT THERE IS IN A KFC CHICKEN...SCARED LE.
JUST CANT WAIT FOR THURSDAY AND NEXT MONDAY.HOLIDAYS!!!
IM SOOOO ENVIOUS OF SCH KIDS SIAL...SO MANY HOLS. I WANT I WANT!!! BUT DON'T HAVE : (
I AM GONNA HAVOC LE...PARENTS IN THE STATES AND BRO IN MALAYSIA. HOME ALONE!!!
WAS JUST THINKING "WHAT IF I JUST FORGET TO BRING MY HOUSE KEYS FOR ONE DAY?"

NEED TO SWIM LE...SO LONG NEVER EXERCISE LE...I ASKED THE OCCUPATIONAL THERAPIST IF I COULD GO SWIMMING AND SHE SAID YES.IVE GOTTA PREVENT FURTHER MUSCLE ATHROPHY.
WHEN I GET BACK TO THE GYM,ITS GONNA BE A HYPERTHROPHY PHRASE!!!
I ACTUALLY HAVE MORE INTEREST IN PHYSIOTHERAPHY AND REHABITATIVE SPORTS SCIENCE THAN IN THE TECHNICAL LINE...GOD'S WILL PERHAPS. PHYSIOTHERAPY REQUIRES 'A' LVLs TO GET INTO A DIPLOMA COURSE IN NANYANG POLYTECHNIC.
IM SOOOOO PROFICIENT IN THE AREA OF THE HUMAN ANATOMY (SPECIFICALLY: SKELETAL STRUCTURE AND MUSCLES), NUTRITION AND PHYSICAL TRAINING, SUPPLEMENTATION AS WELL.HEHEZ...STILL LOTS OF ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT THOUGH.

WITH ALL I AM

INTO YOUR HANDS I COMMIT AGAIN
WITH ALL I AM FOR YOU LORD
YOU HOLD MY WORLD IN THE PALM
OF YOUR HAND AND I AM YOURS FOREVER

CHORUS :
JESUS I BELIEVE IN YOU
JESUS I BELONG TO YOU
YOU'RE THE REASON THAT I LIVE
YOU'RE THE REASON THAT I SING

I'LL WALK WITH YOU WHEREVER YOU GO
THROUGH TEARS AND JOY
I'LL TRUST IN YOU
AND I'LL LIVE IN ALL OF YOUR WAYS
YOUR PROMISES FOREVER

I WILL WORSHIP
I WILL WORSHIP YOU

SUNDAY EVENING

2004-11-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

STILL A STONE
A LIVING STONE
BUILT ON THE FOUNDATION OF WHICH IS CHRIST
THE CHIEF CORNERSTONE TO WHOM WE MUST KEEP OURSELVES IN ALIGNMENT TO.
THE VINE IN WHICH WE MUST REMAIN IN
OUR PARTNER WHO WALKS TOGETHER WITH US
OUR PURPOSE FOR LIVING
OUR FRIEND IN WHOM WE CONFIDE IN
OUR COUNSELLOR
JOHN 14:16,17
16 AND I WILL ASK THE FATHER,AND HE WILL GIVE YOU ANOTHER COUNSELLOR TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER- 17 THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH.THE WORLD CANNOT ACCEPT HIM,BECAUSE IT NEITHER SEES HIM OR KNOWS HIM.BUT YOU KNOW HIM,FOR HE LIVES WITH YOU AND WILL BE WITH YOU.

STONED

2004-11-07T01:37:00.000+08:00

IM TOTALLY STONED LE...BEEN SLEEPING LIKE AROUND 0200 EVERY MORNING AND WAKING AT 0800. YES ITZ THE MINIMUM REQUIRED AMOUNT OF SLEEP NEEDED BY AN AVERAGE ADULT YET I STILL FEEL SO LETHARGIC THROUGHOUT THE DAY.AND TODAY...AS USUAL...

IS LOVE AN EMOTION WE FEEL FOR EACH OTHER WITH A TINGLING FEELING DOWN YOUR SPINE?
NO!!!
LOVE IS BEING PATIENT,KIND,DOES NOT BOAST,IT ISNT PROUD,IT ISNT RUDE, IT ISNT SELF SEEKING,IT IS NOT EASILY ANGERED,KEEPS NO RECORD OF WRONGS, DOES NOT NOT DELIGHT IN EVIL BUT REJOICES IN THE TRUTH,ALWAYS PROTECTS, ALWAYS TRUSTS,ALWAYS HOPES, ALWAYS PERSEVERES.LOVE NEVER FAILS.
(1 COR 13:4-8)

LOVE EDIFIES AND ENCOURAGES.

* THERES NO FEAR IN PERFECT LOVE (1 JHN 4:18)

GOD IS THE FOUNDATION OF EVERY RELATIONSHIP AND HEZ NOT A PASSIVE FOUNDATION BUT HE HOLD EACH AND EVERYONE OF US TOGETHER TO HIMSELF AND WE GROW IN HIM AND IN HIS LOVE.

STONING- 1 PETER 2:5
5 YOU ALSO,LIKE LIVING STONES,ARE BEING BUILT INTO A SPIRITUAL HOUSE TO BE A HOLY PRIESTHOOD, OFFERING SPIRITUAL SACRIFICES ACCEPTABLE TO GOD THROUGH JESUS CHRIST.

WE ARE ALREADY LIVING STONES!!!
AND AS MUCH AS CHRIST PREPARES TO BE HOLY AND WITHOUT BLEMISH.HE MATURES US THROUGH HIS LOVE OF WHICH WE ALREADY KNOW WAS THROUGH HIS DEATH ON THE CROSS BEING DEMOSTRATED.AND IN THAT SAME LOVE HE WANTS US TO GROW IN DEEPER IN INTIMACY WITH HIM
EVERYDAY.

ONLY HOPE

2004-11-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

There's a song that's inside of my soul
it's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I’m awake in the infinite cold
but you sing to me over and over and over again

Chorus:
So I lay my head back down
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
when it feels like my dreams are so far
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

Chorus

I give you my destiny
I’m giving you all of me
I want your symphony
singing in all that I am
at the top of my lungs
I'm giving it back

Chorus:
So I lay my head back down
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

~A WALK TO REMEMBER~

SOMEDAY WE'LL KNOW

2004-11-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

Ninety miles outside Chicago
can't stop driving
I don't know why
so many questions
need an answer
two years later
you're still on my mind

Whatever happen to Amelia Earhart
who holds the stars up in the sky
is true love just once in a life time
did the captain of titanic cry

(chorus)
someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue
someday we'll know
why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis
or what the wind says when she cries
I'm speeding by the place that i met you
for the ninety-seventh time... tonight

(chorus)

someday we'll know
why Sampson loved Deliah
one day I'll go
dancing on the moon
someday you'll know
that I was the one for you
(yeah yeah yeah yeah)

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
if I could ask god just one question
why aren't you here with me... tonight

(chorus)

~A WALK TO REMEMBER~

LISTENING TO ' YI FU ZHI MING' - JAY CHOU

2004-11-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

DAMN IM LOOKING GOOD!!! I JUST CUT MY HAIR THEN HOR WENT NTUC WITH MUM AND I GOT CHOC TOFFEE ICE CREAM...TOK ABT GOOD DIETING HABITS...ITZ ALL GONE RITE OUTTA THE WINDOW THE DAY I FRACTURED MY HAND. JUZ ANOTHER BORING DAY BUT AT LEAST BETTER THAN STAYING AT HOME WHEN I WAS ON MC FOR APPROXIMATELY 7 WEEKS.
ACTUALLY I DUN REALLY UNDERSTAND THE SONG MENTIONED ABOVE BUT I JUST LIKE IT FROM THE 1st TIME I HEARD IT IN ARMY *NOSTALGIC*REMINISCENT*RETROSPECTIVE*
CHOOSE A APPROPRIATE WORD.HAHAS

Wei liang de chen lou
Zhan shi hei li fu shi ban lu you wu fu zai di su
Wu nai de jue wu zhi neng geng can ku yi qie dou wei le tong wang sheng
Tang de lu
Chui bu san de wu yin mei le yi tu shei qing rou duo bu ting zhu
Huan lai bu ji ku chuan guo de zi dan jiu dai zou wen du

Wo men mei ge ren dou you zui fan zhao bu tong de zui wo neng jue ding
Shei dui shei you gai yao shen shui
Zheng lun bu neng jie jue zai yong wu zhi jing de ye
Guan diao ni de zui wei yi de en hui
Dang zai qian mian de ren dou you zui hou hui ye wu lu ke tui yi fu zhi
Ming pan jue
Na gan jue mei you gua he zi jiu xiang bian xiao bian diao lei ning shi
Zhao wan quan de hei
Zu dang bei ju man yan de bei ju hui rang wo shen zui

Di tou qin wen wo de zuo shou huan qu bei kuan shu de cheng nuo
Lao jiu guan feng qin zai jiao luo yi zhi yi zhi yi zhi ban zou
Hei se lian mu bei feng chui dong yang guang wu yan de chuan tou sa xiang
Na qun bei wo xun fu hou de shou
Chen mo de han jiao chen mo de han jiao gu dan kai shi fa xiao bu ting
Dui zhao wo chao xiao hui yi zhu jian yan shao
Ceng jing chun zhen de hua mian can ren de wen rou chu xian cui ruo shi
Jian dao wo men yi qi lai dao gao

Ren ci de fu wo yi zhui ru kan bu jian zui de guo du qing yuan liang
Wo de zi fu (a ya ya check it check it a ya)
Mei ren neng shuo mei ren ke shuo hao nan cheng shou rong yao de bei
Hou ke zhao yi dao gu du (a ya ya check it check it a ya)
Bi shang shuang yan wo you kan jian dang nian na meng de hua mian tian
Kong shi meng meng de wu (a ya ya check it check it a ya)
Fu qin qian zhao wo de shuang shou qing qing zou guo qing chen na an
An jing jing de shi ban lu (a ya ya check it check it a ya)

Na ban bo de jia hui wo ca shi le yi ye gu du de guang hui wo cai dong
De gan jue
Zhu guang bu bu ting de yao huang mao tou ying zai chuang ling shang
Dui zhao yuan fang tiao wang
Tong xiang da ting de chang lang yi yang shuo bu chu de cang sang
Mei you xuan xiao zhi you zhu jing wei rao wo man man shui zhao tian
Gang gang po xiao

Fallin - Alicia Keys

2004-11-04T01:26:00.000+08:00

I keep on fallin'
In and out of love
With you
Sometimes I love ya
Sometimes u make me blue
Sometimes I feel good
At times I feel used
Lovin you darlin'
Makes me so confused

I keep on
Fallin'
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Verse 2
Oh, oh , I never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure
And cause me so much pain
Just when I think
Ive taken more than would a fool
I start fallin' back in love with you

I keep on
Fallin'
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Bridge
Oh baby
I, I, I, I'm fallin'
I, I, I, I'm fallin'
Fall

I keep on
Fallin'
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Im fallin'
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Im fallin'
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

With You All The Time

2004-11-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

I live beneath the heart
I watch you from the dark
I'm every breath I'm every dream
I've known you forever
I've followed you everywhere
I'm every scar I'm who you are
when you think you're alone
when you cry cos someone's unfair
you can rest assured I'm always there

even when you feel like you don't belong
even when you fall and it all goes wrong
you know that I'm with you
that I'm with you all the time

say a little prayer for the restless heart
we shall never ever drift apart
know that I'm with you
know that I'm with you
with you all the time

I'm walking round the room
I'm laughing when you smile
and when you cry I cry too
I made you a promise
that I shall forever be
you're on your own but not alone
when you're down and you're rife
and the world tells you no-one cares
you can rest assured im always there

even when you feel like you dont belong
even when you fall and it all goes wrong
you know that I'm with you
that I'm with you all the time

say a little prayer for the restless heart
we shall never ever drift apart
know that I'm with you
know that I'm with you
with you all the time

save a little love for me
you'll see
save a little love for me
you'll see
save a little love for me
you'll see
and you'll see

even when you feel like you dont belong
even when you fall and it all goes wrong
you know that I'm with you
that I'm with you all the time

say a little prayer for the restless heart
we shall never ever drift apar
know that I'm with you
know that I'm with you
with you all the time

you know that I'm with you
that I'm with you all the time

say a little prayer for the restless heart
we shall never ever drift apart
know that im with you
know that im with you
with you all the time

MY JESUS I LOVE THEE

2004-11-03T19:19:00.000+08:00

My Jesus, I love Thee, I know Thou art mine;
For Thee all the follies of sin I resign.
My gracious Redeemer, my Savior art Thou;
If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, 'tis now.

I love Thee because Thou has first loved me,
And purchased my pardon on Calvary's tree.
I love Thee for wearing the thorns on Thy brow;
If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, 'tis now.

In mansions of glory and endless delight,
I'll ever adore Thee in heaven so bright;
I'll sing with the glittering crown on my brow;
If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, 'tis now

IF URE NOT THE ONE

2004-11-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS WAD I WOULD SAY JUZ LIKE ANY OTHER DAY. PAPERWORK PAPERWORK PAPERWORK!!! COMPUTER AT WORK AND COMPUTER AT HOME. PPL WHO USES THE COMPUTER ALOT WILL A TENDENCY TO GET CARPAL TUNNEL SYNDROME.

PHILIPPIANS 4:6-8
6 DO NOT BE ANXIOUS ABOUT ANYTHING,BUT IN EVERYTHING,BY PRAYER AND PETITION,WITH THANKSGIVING,PRESENT YOUR REQUESTS TO GOD, 7 AND THE PEACE OF GOD,WHICH TRANSCENDS ALL UNDERSTANDING WILL GUARD YOUR HEARTS AND YOUR MINDS IN CHRIST JESUS.
8 FINALLY,BROTHERS,WHATEVER IS TRUE,WHATEVER IS NOBLE,WHATEVER IS RIGHT,WHATEVER IS PURE,WHATEVER IS LOVELY,WHATEVER IS ADMIRABLE-IF ANYTHING IS EXCELLENT OR PRAISEWORTHY-THINK ABOUT SUCH THINGS.

"If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
but I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
and I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do i dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it , I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I dont understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?"

eh...Paul actually likes to use the word WHATEVER!!! guess tatz where it originated and evolved into WADEVA!!! juz kidding

IF THE WORDS DON'T COME MY WAY, I HOPE U STILL KNOW WHAT MY HEART WANTS TO SAY

2004-11-01T20:29:00.000+08:00

TODAY IM REALLY SICK!!! IN FACT EVERYBODY SEEMS TO BE SICK.MY NOSE KEPT RUNNING THE 100 M DASH.SNEEZING AND COUGHING...HAIZ...I WANT TO GO BACK TO TRAINING WEIGHTS COS EXERCISE BUILDS UP MY IMMUNE SYSTEM. TALK ABOUT SNEEZING, IS SOMEBODY THINK OF ME OR WAD? HAHAS SUCH DEEP A THOUGHT THE PERSON HAD.
PARANOIA OR COINCIDENCE?

YOUR EXAMS IS AS IMPORTANT TO YOU AS IT IS TO ME COS IM INTERESTED IN YOUR LIFE.

where oh where

2004-11-01T19:32:00.000+08:00

Oh where, oh where can my baby be,
The Lord took her away from me.
She's gone to heaven so I've got to be good,
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.

We were out on a date, in my daddy's car,
We hadn't driven very far,
There in the road, straight up ahead,
A car was stalled, the engine was dead.

I couldn't stop, so I swerved to the right,
I'll never forget the sound that night.
The screamin' tires, the bustin' glass,
The painful scream that I heard last...

Chorus

When I woke up, the rain was pouring down,
There were people standin' all around.
Something warm going through my eyes,
But somehow I found my baby that night.

I lifted her head, she looked at me and said
"Hold me darlin' just a little while."
I held her close, I kissed her our last kiss,
I found the love that I knew I had missed.

Well now she's gone, even though I hold her tight,
I lost my love, my life that night.

Chorus

Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh...

YOHZ

2004-10-31T19:23:00.000+08:00

WISHING ALL STUDENTS TAKING THEIR EXAMS ALL THE BEST!!! YOU GUYS WILL BE IN MINE PRAYERS DUDES!!! MAY THE PEACE THAT TRANSCENDS ALL UNDERSTANDING BE WITH U ALL MANZ!
TAKE CARE AND DONT SLEEP LATE YA?

HOW DO I LIVE

2004-10-30T18:31:00.000+08:00

How do I, get through one night without youIf I had to live without youWhat kind of life would that be
Oh and I, I need you and my arms need you to hold
Your my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything, good in my life
Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, baby I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life

(Chorus)
And tell me nowHow do I live without you, I want to know
How do I breathe without you if you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I, How do I, Oh how do I live

If you ever leaveBaby you would take away everything, I need you with me
Baby 'cause you know that you're everything good in my life

Repeat (Chorus)

THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME

2004-10-30T18:27:00.000+08:00

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Solo

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

ALL ABOUT LOVING YOU

2004-10-30T18:25:00.000+08:00

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me & you
Mistakes I know I’ve made a few
I took some shots that fail from time to time baby
You were there to pull me through
Been around that block a time or two
I’m gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how I’ve come this far
The answer’s written in my eyes

Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you

I’ve lived I’ve loved I’ve lost I’ve paid some dues
And baby we’ve been to hell and back again
Through it all you’re always my best friend
For all the words I didn’t say
and all the things I didn’t do
tonight I’m gonna find a way

Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you

you can take this world away and everything I am
Leave the lines upon my face
All about loving you
I’m all about
I’m all about
I’m all about loving you

Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you
I’m all about loving you

PUREST OF PAIN

2004-10-30T18:19:00.000+08:00

Sorry didn’t mean to call you but I couldn’t fight it
I guess I was weak, couldn’t even hide it
and so I surrendered, just to hear you voice.

Don’t know how many times I said I’m gonna live without you,
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you,
But there’s something, baby you need to know.
That deed inside me, I feel like I’m dying. I have to see you,
It’s all that I’m asking.

Vida, give me back my fantasy. The courage that I need to live,
The air that I breathe.
CariÓo mio, my world’s become so empty. The days are cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain.

I wish that I could tell you that I’m feeling better everyday,
that I didn’t hurt when you walked away.
But to tell you the trued I can’t find my way.
That deed inside me, I feel like I’m dying. I have to see you.
It’s all that I’m asking, baby

Vida, give me back my fantasy. The courage that I need to live,
The air that I breathe.
CariÓo mio, my world’s become so empty. The days are cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain.

Vida, give me back my fantasy. The courage that I need to live,
The air that I breathe.
CariÓo mio, my world’s become so empty. The days are cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain.

Vida, give me back my fantasy. The courage that I need to live,
The air that I breathe.

Sorry didn’t mean to call you but I couldn’t fight it
I guess I was weak, couldn’t even hide it
and so I surrendered, just to hear you voice.

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2004-10-30T15:06:00.000+08:00

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PLEASE LEAVE YOUR PARTICULARS IN MY COMMENTS IF URE INTERESTED

hmmm...u know something?

2004-10-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

I VERY MUCH LOVE TO TURN MY BLOGGER THINGY INTO SOMETHING MORE THAN A DIARY. I WILL WRITE STUFF THAT TOO EDIFIES THOSE WHO READS IT. WHY? FOR EVERYTHING I LEARN FRO M MY FATHER (HEAVENLY) I’LL MAKE THEM KNOWN TO YOU. AND I VERY LOVE TO HEAR YOUR COMMENTS LO…I HAVE THINGS TO LEARN FROM YOU GUYS TOO. COS GOD REVEALS THINGS TO US DIFFERENTLY FROM IN EACH OTHER AND IN DIFFERENT WAYS THOUGH EVEN YOUNG THAN ME COS YOUR SPIRITUAL MATURITY DOES NOT DEPEND ON HOW OLD WE ACTUALLY ARE LO.AND THAT WE LEARN AND SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY OSO LO SO THAT WE CAN INSTEAD OF CRITICISING EACH OTHER’S DIFFERENCES, BUT EACH OTHER UP SO THAT EACH ONE OF US CAN SEE FROM A WIDER PERSPECTIVE WITH OTHER’S OPINIONS IN MIND AS WELL.

GREATER LOVE HAS NO ONE THAN THIS, THAT HE LAY DOWN HIS LIFE FOR HIS FRIENDS. ( JOHN 15: 13)

THINK ABOUT THIS WHAT IS THE MEANING OF “ MY WILL BECOMES ENTHRONED IN YOUR LOVE” ?. FROM THE SONG WHEN I LOOK INTO YOUR HOLINESS. HOW COME UH? SOUNDS LIKE WHY SHOULD MY WILL BEING ENTHRONED? SHOULD GOD’S WILL BE ENTHRONED AND OURS DETHRONED AND IN SUBMISSION TO HIS? OR DOES IT MEAN TO HAVE OUR WILL LIDDAT OF OUR TO SEEK TO ENTHRONE GOD IN HIS LOVE? THE SENTENCE STRUCTURE DOESN’T SEEM TO IMPLY TAT LEIZ… HMMM….THINK YOU GOT AN ANSWER? COMMENT .

OOOOOOOH I KNOW LE

2004-10-29T02:30:00.000+08:00

HAHAS...EH SHOU ZHEN I KNOW THE SONG "WHEN GOD RAN" LE.HEHEZ.

BTW I STAYED UP LATE TO PREPARE WORSHIP FOR CELL ON 291004.
SLIGHT COUGH...I HOPE AN ASTHMA ATTACK DOESNT HIT ME MANZ...
I DONT TINK IT WILL UNLESS THE COUGH WORSENS.

REHABITATIVE TRAINING AND FLUIDOTHERAPY LATER IN THE MORNING.

HONEY I SHURNK MY MUSCLES!!! MY MUSCLES ARE IN A STATE OF ATHROPHY MANZ. HAVENT BEEN TRAINING WEIGHTS SINCE I GOT A SPASTIC FRACTURED WRIST. MY LOVELY LATISSIMUS DORSI
THE MUSCLE WHICH FORMS THAT "V-SHAPE" AND THE BICEPS ARE MY BEST PARTS...TOKING ABT PARTS...THE STUPID KFC COUNTER STAFF DIDNT GIMME THE CHICKEN PART I WANTED..WAD THE?!!! I ASK FOR IT BUT I WONT GO BACK AND CREATE A SCENE JUST BECAUSE THEY DIDNT GIMME THE PART OF THE CHICKEN I WANT ALRITE? GUESS IM TIRED LE...

I'LL LOVE YOU FROM ETERNITY TO ETERNITY AND PERHAPS ETERNITY ISN'T LONG ENOUGH TO EXPRESS MY LOVE FOR YOU.

So Much In Love

2004-10-27T21:40:00.000+08:00

As we stroll along together
Holding hands and walking all alone
So in love are we two
That we don't know what to do

So in love
So in love

As we walk along together
'neath the stars twinkling high above

So in love are we two
That we don't know what to do

So in love
So in love

I tell, I tell you my darling
I need you, I need you oh so much
I love, I love you my darling
Can't you tell it from my touch

As we walk down the isle together
As we vow to stay together till we die

So in love are we two
Just can't wait to say i do

So in love
So in love
oh you and I
So in love

2004-10-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

"Only Love"

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

[Chorus]

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye

2004-10-27T21:20:00.000+08:00

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

UNMOTIVATED

2004-10-27T18:33:00.000+08:00

ITZ BEEN A BORING DAY. YES A BORING DAY ALRIGHT? WAD AM I A LIFE SIZE TERMINATOR FIGURINE (BATTERIES NOT INCLUDED) OR PICKACHU (HOKKIEN TRANSLATION PAI KA PAI CHIU).
HAHAS. I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO NIGHT SAFARI TONIGHT BUT WAS SOMEWHAT CANCELLED LAST MINUTE. MANZ!!! I HAVENT BEEN THERE SO LONG AND EVEN THE ZOO i FORGOT HOW ANIMALS LOOK LIKE.

I SERIOUSLY HOPE THINGS ARNT AS THEY ARE.REALLY WISH TO SPEAK TO YOU AS LIKE IN THE PAST. THE PAST IS SOMETHING I LOOK AT AS IT SEEMS SO MUCH BETTER THEN.PLEASE HELP ME LOOK AT THE FUTURE WITH GREATER ANTICIPATION.AND I HOPE OUR FRIENDSHIP WON'T HAFTA BE A OFF EXAM SEASON KINDA THING.

YO CHECK TIS SITES OUT AND LAUGH :
www.engrish.com
www.demotivators.com

GROWING IN LOVE

2004-10-26T22:15:00.001+08:00

WITHOUT LOVE THERE PROBABLY WOULDT HAVE JOHN 3:16. AND THAT IAS WHEREBY LOVE WAS DEMOSTRATED BY GOD HIMSELF.LOVE ISNT AND SHOULDNT BE A WORD WE USE TILL HAS BECOME A CLICHE,ITZ A DEMOSTRATION (ROMANS 5:8).AND AS WE VERY MUCH KNOW THIS FIGURE OF SPEECH "PUT YOUR MONEY WHERE YOUR MOUTH IS" GOD HAD INDEED PUT HIS LIFE WHERE HIS LOVE IS AND WE KNOW THAT GOD IS LOVE.BUT IT DOEST END WITH THAT KNOWLEDGE THAT CHRIST DIED FOR US ALTHOUGH THAT IS VERY THE BASIS OF WAD WE THINK CHRISTIANITY IS ALL ABOUT,BUT AS WE SPEND TIME IN HIS WORD AND IN COMMUNION WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT WHO HELPS US UNDERSTAND OUR PURPOSE IN LIFE AND THE BIBLE,THE RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD MATURES US IN HIS LOVE.HE TOO IS OUR COUNSELLOR TO WHOM WE SEEK IN TIMES OF OUR PROBLEMS.AS MUCH AS ITS VERY MUCH SAID ABOUT HAVING THE SAME ATTITUDE OF CHRIST (PHIL 2:5) THO THE CONTEXT IS SPEAKING ABOUT HUMILITY, SHOULDNT WE SEEK TO HAVE THE ATTITUDE OF CHRIST IN EVERY ASPECT OF OUR LIVES? JESUS HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE FATHER WITH SUCH A DEEP INTIMACY WHEREBY AND WE TOO CAN HAVE AN ATTITUDE WHEREBY THE PHRASE WE VERY MUCH KNOW "FAMILARITY BREEDS CONTEMPT" HAS BEEN IN OUR MENTALITY TOWORDS EACH OTHER HAS SEEPED IN SUBTLY INTO OUR DESIRE TO DEVELOP OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD MUST BE ERADICATED FROM US.COS THE MORE WE SPEAK TO GOD AND THE DEEPER THE INTIMACY WE GROW IN GOD THE MORE WE WANT TO GROW DEEPER IN THAT RELATIONSHIP. AND THIS LOVE WILL TOO VERY MUCH FLOW OUT TO OTHERS AND THATZ WHERE THE FRUIT OF THE SPIRIT COMES IN EVERY SO NATURALLY. IF WE TRY TO FORCE LOVE OUT OF OURSELVES ONTO OTHERS IT'LL EMIT AND AURA AS THAT OF A FACADE.A FACADE IS PUT ON OUTTA FEAR, FEAR OF NOT BEING ACCEPTED AND WHEN PEOPLE SENSE THAT THEY'LL PROBABLY TEND TO A FACADE THEMSELVES TO MAKE YOU THINK U ARE BEING ACCEPTED AND SOMETIMES MANUPILATE YOU.AND ONE WILL FEEL APATHETIC AND LOSE FOCUS OF THEIR FOCUS OF THEIR BELONGIONG TO CHRIST.

INTRODUCTION

2004-10-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

HMMM...NOT TOO FAMILIAR WITH THIS....WELL TIS IS MY 1st TIME. DUN LAUGH OKAY? EVERYBODY HAS THEIR 1st TIMES. LISTENING TO 'RAIN DOWN ON ME' BY PLANETSHAKERS.
THIS BLOGGER STUFF WILL ENTERTAIN MUA FOR QUITE AWHILE ONLINE APART FROM MY ONLINE GAMES SUCH AS UTOPIA AND EARTH 2025 MY ARMY FRIEND INTRODUCED ME TO. PLAYING INTERNATIONAL CHESS TOO...EH...ITZ NOT A 'NO BRAINERS' GAME. IT STIMULATES THINKING AND LIFE SKILLS SUCH U HAVE TO THINK OF A SOLUTION BEFORE A PROBLEM ARISES BY ANTICIPATING YOUR OPPONENTS MOVES. NOT FOR GUYS WHO WANT TO DEVELOP THE PROBLEM SOLVING ABILITIES IN TACKLING GALS COS THE GALS AINT THEIR OPPONENTS.OPPPS...
I CAN GET PRETTY LAME DE...BACK TO ERRRR...YA I GUESS IM GONNA LEARN TO USE THIS BLOGGER THINGY.AND BTW IM NOT 'I.T' LITERATE. I ONLY KNOW HOW TO PLAY GAMES AND INTRODUCE VIRUSES INTO MY COM.

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you finally there you will search no more
Don’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for
You can’t tell me it’s not worth dyin’ for
You know it’s true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into my heart - you will find
There’s nothin’ there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don’t tell me it’s not worth fightin’ for
I can’t help it there’s nothin’ I want more
Ya know it’s true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There’s no love - like you love
And no other - could give more love
There’s nowhere - unless you’re there
All the time - all the way
Don’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for
I can’t help it there’s nothin’ I want more
I would fight for you - I’d lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I’d die for you

Ya know it’s true
Everything I do - I do it for you

WELL U DUNNO HOW IT GOES? JUST IMAGINE ME SINGING IT -_-"

1 JOHN 4:18
THERE IS NO FEAR IN LOVE.BUT PERFECT LOVE DRIVES OUT ALL FEAR, BECAUSE FEAR HAS TO DO WITH PUNISHMENT.THE ONE WHO FEARS IS NOT MADE PERFECT IN LOVE.